A cry for help with a really weird issue relating kundalini

A cry for help with a really weird issue relating kundalini

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Hey Everyone,

This is a genuin CRY FOR HELP
my issue is very unusual
ok, here the deal
this is as far as my understanding of my issue

the male and female energy within my body refuse eachother
the female rejects the male due to socalled weakness and refusal to listen
while the male rejects the female due to prostitution and rape pericles

in this life, the woman who gave birth to me, was into prostitution. at least, in the early years of my life.
she experienced something with rape, wich freaked out my female energy and made it kinda dualminded
(that was shown to me during a ayahuasca ritual in november last year)

about 7months earlier
when a shaktipat was given to me via an audio file; clearing the believe system, from the master gathering website

when being brought to that wich one could call "God"
because being unprepared, my whole being freaked out.
and stopped the whole thing before completion.
when asking what "God" allowed to happen
the front door went open and sounds of high heels filled the hall
then a woman's voice said, my God, doesn't he have any idea what is

the female energy was stonger then the male and therefore my being was unable to undo that kind of "influence"
it freaked out when trying to undo it, when hearing voices that where not there.

because we smoke in this body, the willbody was eaten by a being that resides in the darkness...

In the first week, also hearing fighting with swords and screaming of dying persons
at one moment, doing my dishes, after hearing something similar, out of my mouth came, angels?
and a man's voice said, yeah at an frustrated tone.

a week later, when trying to meditate to allowe the join of the 2 brainhalfs
a army helicopter floated about my being at a distance of about 10m
that was very weird
so the joining never took place.

a few weeks later, my kidbrother was sleeping over, and a girl with who there was a sort of relationship, was also there
my male side told her during the day we needed to stop our relationship (she was on the fysical level married to an other man)
because at the fundamental level there was something wrong (ea. the abuse and rape issue)
she is a reptile btw. in a way there was love for her.

anyway
during the night a being took possesion of my brother and called me fort to have a last time sex with that girl
i awoke, shouted out "what" and pushed the being away
when turning to the girl, i stroke her face gently.
she awoke and we ended up having sex
when done, realised something stupid happened
she said, maybe something good will come of it
but the bubble was broken

the whole of creation allowed me to hear this several times when i tried to meditate at night in a park

some time after that event
friends introduced me to an other girl, her nickname was mystique, her real name Heidi,
with who a conversation happened about this rape and abuse issue. Since she was raped in her life, the impression of her understanding was there.
during the night at a Goa party, she made a cross sign before me... saying she forgave me.
and seperating the male from the female side
(as far as my understanding, within a male body, the male normally operates during the day, the female at night, within a woman's body, it's reversed)
When looking into the sun the next morning, it hit me that i found myself in a world of male werewolfs and female vampires
I freaked out, ran to a friend, wanting to tell him and ask him for help, but out of my mouth came, what i saw en that they saw me just like that to.
He only said, then it's ok.
When walking around, two men passed me and one said, how do you like behind bars?


[edit on 9-1-2010 by Lorcan]

(following)

And that same man took hold of the fence between us
A while later, the girl drove me home
She told me she fel in love with me
And for once, the same feeling was there. but my being was shivering.
part of me wanted her to go. So, she did.

The next day
At night again
Sitting on her bed the veil or fabric of creation disappeared and there was a grey being with big black eyes telling me rapers and murderers belong in hell
My responce; no, each soul needs to learn and make mistakes to evolve (in that context)
It then said to me, will you still love someone if he is standing with a scalpel in front of you.
My responce; while shivering, yes, when i understand the reason.
It said; we will see and disappeared.

my body and was shivering and tired.
the girl allowed me to sleep, althou she wanted to have sex.
but that was to much asked.
the next morning, left the girl and tried to stay away...

in the mean while, more strange things happened
but the most last strange event was in paris, when on return to Belgium
being kicked out of the train station in Paris, walking with a homeless man who got a blancket of me to keep warm,
this man kept saying, to go to my house.
when looking into his eyes, it was like seeing Him
he said i was a good man.
when sitting near a church, asked him what he wanted from me
and he only said traumas
saying he was tired, he fel asleep
i meditated a while, when 2 girls passed me and a turkish or marocan guy
i only said hey and one girl responsed in the same way

a bit more down the streeth a black man with a white girl walked by

then, when turning around, there was a billboard with TimeTravel written upon it.
So, putting on my bolt shoes, tried to find whatever it was that needed to be undone.

i tried, i really tried. searching, following light
but gave up and headed back to the station.

when almost there, i saw 2 persons, a girl and a marocan guy
on the right a poster, writings in the context of "a gift from the fairy".
so, turned around, followed them.
saw them trying into several motels
but when they came to a door, trying a code to open the door, passed them.
started to laugh.
the marocan guy asked if there was a problem.
so, i turned around, started to conversated with these 2 persons.
and out of the blue got angry for her behavior.
it was if knowing she was into prostitution.
telling her she was on the wrong track
so, tried to get ride of the guy.
almost succeded, but then a car with cops stood there.
and the whole event fel appart. it was as if they knew it.
After a small conversation, they told me to walk the other way.

since then, i kinda stay away from people in general.
ok, far from the best decision
but the feeling of being so lost...

i just don't know anymore...

is there anybody who can help me out ???
who is willing to guide me???
or mentor me???

maybe giving me some info to block any tracking devices or something like that?

there are more people like me who really need help.
even if it is only guidance or mentoring.

[edit on 9-1-2010 by Lorcan]

I hope that you can find the help you need. I have never heard of anything like this it sound so complex. seeing a professional dr may be a good starting point as medication of some sort may actually stop all this stuff happening. a bit like changing frequencies on the radio, at the moment your tuned into a horrible noisey one that you hate. with a medication it could be like changing the station back to your normal self. might be like all these dark horrible things are happening to you cos your on the wrong frequency. and all these beings would ceace to exist when ur on the correct one.

you identify with a male and female part of you. and a you - your body- in the middle? so to speak there are three "person" you identify with.
or you dont know, only know this situation you are in? So do your experiences be this like every day? or do you get a break from it.
perhaps you could try tell people what help or guidance it is more specifically that you are looking for. maybe someone might beable to relate to this. are you talking about physical manifestations or is this spritual or is this from a regression. Anyway I hope you find someone who understands this can help you.



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reply to post by Lorcan


You really need to go see a dr before you cause yourself harm or others. The vampires, werewolves and reptilians are not real. I highly doubt you will actually go get help because of this post but I hate to break it to you, your nuts.

First of all the "female" energy is the electrochemical energy of your emotions -- relating to your organs. It's the life force energy aka kundalini.

The "male" energy is the electromagnetic energy of the brain.

So females actually are attracted to your electromagnetic male energy but unless you do proper kundalini training you will continued to be controlled by your own female energy.

So you are competing against your own inner female energy while at the same time fending off external female energy without understanding how to connect with your own internal male energy.

I've taken ayahausca or '___' analog - so I know how it works.

What you want to do is learn to sit in full-lotus yoga position as this is the real kundalini energy.

If you can not sit in full-lotus then you know you have work to do and you know what to work towards.

Full-lotus is when your legs are cross with your feet up on your thighs.

When you can sit in full-lotus then your male energy will freely feed your female energy -- both inside you as your lower emotional energy or life force energy and externally -- as the females around you. You will also freely recharge your life force energy with the female electrochemical energy. So this means you have a free energy open circuit with people around you and you can do energy healing.

What happens for the typical modern male is that their male electromagnetic energy descends from their brain and then turns into life force female energy -- and then when the male ejaculates he loses his life force energy.

Since both the male and female think that the male wants to ejaculate both the male and female are confused in thinking that the female is attracted to the male ejaculation.

In fact the opposite is true -- the female climaxes from the activation of the vagus nerve -- this was proven a few years ago with females who had broken spinal cords but could still have orgasms.

So the male electromagnetic energy then activates the female vagus nerve and this gives the female the climax. But when the male and female rely on the male ejaculation then the female gets the male electromagnetic energy indirectly.

Also, as Professor Robert Sapolsky documents in his books "MunkeyLuv" and "The Trouble with Testosterone" -- when the male ejaculates this is a TRIGGER which switches the body's nervous system from the parasympathetic relaxation vagus nerve to the STRESS sympathetic nervous system.

So when you ejaculate you are stressing yourself out along with the females around you -- only modern society does not understand this. So modern people go from the anger-fear-sex cycle over and over again without ever knowing what true love is.

In contrast pgymy chimp bonobo males have sex all the time but rarely ejaculate. The Bushmen males all have to learn during a month of fasting, away from females, how to sublimate and ionize their female electrochemical energy -- in order to create MORE male electromagnetic energy. So the Bushmen males also very rarely ejaculate and when the Bushmen male wants to get married he has to live with the females' parents for three years, providing them food, before he can consummate the marriage with the female. In other words he had amazing sex control.

So that's the original kundalini training. To make this training balanced you want to do the "small universe" or "microcosmic orbit" exercise. This is taught as part of Yogananda's Kriya yoga or else you can get the Level 1 Sitting meditation c.d. for $10 from springforestqigong.com... and you can read this book for FREE

This book will tell you WHY Kundalini sickness happens and how to fix it through the microcosmic or small universe exercise. It means that you make your male electromagnetic energy descend down the front of your body consciously so it resonates with your female electrochemical energy and then you circle it back up the back side to the brain.

www.scribd.com...

Good luck and if you think someone is sucking off your energy then put your index finger tip to the tip of your thumb. This will close off your energy channels to protect you from losing male electromagnetic energy.

reply to post by Lorcan

You know selling things are against to ToS on this site..

I suspect this guy is wack, he needs mental help soon, as in last year soon...

[edit on 1/9/2010 by ThichHeaded]

[edit on 9-1-2010 by unityemissions]

I don't work for springforestqigong.com... if that's what you're implying? Or are we not supposed to give out prices of products unless we buy advertising space? Again I don't work for springforestqigong.com...

If you suspected that I did work for springforestqigong.com... then I just want to make sure you get the facts straight. thanks.

Lorcan,
I don't know if u are looking for the help I am giving, but I think that your problems may have something to do with the kunalini itself. I believe from what I have read that you may have invited something or allowed something bad to enter into you. The confusion and frustration you feel sound very farmiliar to me, having to do with demonic possession.
I recommend that you cease any meditation immediately and go talk to a catholic priest. Whether you are christian or not, or if you have preconceived notion of the catholic church, u really can find the help you need there. It can't be worse, right, so at least just go and talk to them. Good luck, i wish you only the best

Originally posted by dangerish
Lorcan,
I don't know if u are looking for the help I am giving, but I think that your problems may have something to do with the kunalini itself. I believe from what I have read that you may have invited something or allowed something bad to enter into you. The confusion and frustration you feel sound very farmiliar to me, having to do with demonic possession.
I recommend that you cease any meditation immediately and go talk to a catholic priest. Whether you are christian or not, or if you have preconceived notion of the catholic church, u really can find the help you need there. It can't be worse, right, so at least just go and talk to them. Good luck, i wish you only the best

DONT LISTEN TO THIS PERSON!

No person should ever tell another they should get off any medications they are currently on. You do not know what they are taking and for what they would be taking it for. I know you are trying to be helpful but killing somebody doesn't do them much good.

[edit on 9-1-2010 by whoshotJR]

reply to post by whoshotJR


The poster wasn't saying to stop medication. They said to stop any meditation. Hope that helps clear that up.

Haha...Yeah...what they said. Not stop taking medication....stop meditating. Misunderstanding..no biggie.

Yeah the whole Christian Yoga trend is really creepy -- those people are all possessed by satan!

www.christianyoga.us... But then if they read this discussion about Kundalini and Christianity possible the Snake Himself will be cast out:

www.innerexplorations.com...

reply to post by dangerish

I have seen some posts relating to subjects like this but on a much smaller scale, this thread really tops it all.

To the OP, I really have no idea what to tell you other than to take a break from your meditation, take a look at the life you're living, is it what you want?

If not, change it. YOU have the power to change YOURSELF - there is no being within your body, mind or soul other than YOUR OWN being, mind, body & soul.

I'm sorry if you believe otherwise, but honestly, this all sounds very sad to me and I hope you get the help you need, or are at least able to figure things out on your own.

Taking any psychedelic, especially if you have strong beliefs in one area or another in your mind, any mental illness, etc. then you have the chance of having a life changing experience (good or bad), but when you have any sort of mental illness a bad interpretation of what you experience while on said psychedelic is not going to make your life any better.

I have nothing else to say at the moment other than please get help, and I send some positive vibes your way.

Depending upon you theological stance, the practice of meditation has been looked upon with caution by the Roman Catholic church due the dangers of demonic possesion especially in when you venture in the realm of the Kundalini.

I became aware of this after listening to an interview with Fr. Malachi Martin on Coast to Coast am (and still available on YouTube) and therefore it may be worth your while contacting your local Bishop and asking him to direct you towards the appointed Exorcist of the diocese. This may seem a bitter pill to swallow and depends upon how desperate you are to free you self of you percived ills as the priest should be able to verify your issue in a very short space of time.

The alternative method would be to contact a Kundalini specialist and maybe they can rectify the issue through training but my final point would be to stress to you not to fall into despair and that there will be a way to resolve your issue.

Originally posted by The_Archangel
...demonic possesion

...I became aware of this after listening to an interview with Fr. Malachi Martin on Coast to Coast am (and still available on YouTube) and therefore it may be worth your while contacting your local Bishop and asking him to direct you towards the appointed Exorcist of the diocese.

No! Just no. Do you have any idea what you are saying? Please keep your mouth shut unless you have first hand knowledge or experience in this area. I do so I will shed some more light in this thread since after sending the OP some positive vibes I still feel horrible and do not think positive vibes will be enough, especially if you don't have family/friend/anyone else sending them too you.

An exorcism is not only stupid, but dangerous depending on what way it is preformed, so I highly recommend against anything of the like.

There is no possession! You are the sole creator all of this, our minds are a powerful thing (edit: your fear creates these 'demons' and entities you believe may be effecting you or that others are labeling as your problem, focusing on love and light will raise your vibrations and get you away from all of this while meditating)[DO NOT meditate unless you know you will be 100% okay because I don't want things to get worse for you and meditation is very powerful]. You may have some sort of personality disorder (that was my first thought) and although I'm not a licensed psychiatrist, I have a ton of knowledge/research in the field, have studied it in college, and personally have experience with mental disability (myself and others I know).

I realize we all have some female and male representation in our bodies/mind/spirit. Just because you're male does not mean you are going to lack feminine qualities, and vise versa.

Keeping the balance correct within you is obviously important. For example, I'm a male, but unlike the some of the other males out there who seem to be emotionless (which, by the way are just bottling and pushing their emotions aside since we ALL feel emotions), I am actually over-emotional at times. This is a problem I have that I need to work on, it becomes an issue in every relationship I have, especially my relationships with women.

I like being able to express myself emotionally, and women really tend to like it, and I'm very compassionate as well. Larger aspects have small things that come with it which is great, keeping this balance correctly is key though!

I recommend doing some meditation after learning more about chakras if you do not already know about them. Maybe if you center yourself, open up each chakra and balance them you may feel more balance in your life as a whole BUT wait to do this until you are ready - and right now you are not ready. I suggest getting professional help, which I can help you get if you cannot afford it (just U2U me), don't be scared about it, learn to open up to someone who doesn't know you and that wont be judgmental. Therapy does not have to be a living hell, it can be very good to talk to someone.

HERE is Chakras for beginners, do more research on the topic to find out futher about the chakras and how they work (also something I can help you with just U2U me, or check out my spirituality threads by navigating through my user profile).

To end this post I'd like to say a local priest may be helpful to give you some good information on doing good to others and such, but getting rid of possible medical conditions and labeling it as possession is not going to help you.

Whatever you do, make sure whoever you decide to talk to that you wish to not be labeled. This is also key, because being labeled may make you think less positively. Being open to anything will help you in this situation. Although eventually labeling your condition may be helpful, starting off doing so will not help because the focus will remain on that label.

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So you have the hold over input on here? I dont think so. YOU may not agree with the practice of exorcism but there are many people that do and if someone is putting a post on here requiring input then it only right that people contibute. Desperate people need options and just because a view has been made which doesnt fit into your box, you should be seeking to dismiss things in such an off-hand fashion.

Do you have experiance in exorcism? Have you? The chances are that you do not and if you cared to take the time to read below what I wrote, you would have seen that I pointed out that an expert in Kundalini may be an alternative but bearing in mind that it was this practice that caused the issue the writer may wont to seek an alternative.

Have you ever heard of mind kontrol ultra? DID real bad things happen and then a group was there to help you and sent around the world to spy but really just used you to make money? Did anyone make money from your ideas or inventions??

reply to post by The_Archangel


I only talked about things I have experience with, and I don't think you have experience with exorcism yourself, so don't go giving people ideas to go and do it if you have no information backing up what you have to say.

Exorcism is not an answer to anything, it is literally a ludicrous idea, and if you think some priest saying 'magical/spiritual words' is going to take some entity out of you, then you have more problems then you think you do.

Do some research, your mind creates fear, fear creates these 'entities.'

reply to post by highlyoriginal


I have looked it the field of exorcism for a number of years but would tag myself with the 'expert' label and certainly see a number of holes in it when cases have either been misdiagnosed or carried out by poorly trained practitioners hence the reason why Father Gabriel Amorth pushed for a massive training program for the clergy.

I never said that the poster was 'possessed', I mearly offered up the view that they could consider the council of a priest who could, hopefully, dispel the notion of exorcism.

You are entitled to you opinion and I to mine. You may feel strongly with regards to your views but my suggestion to you is not to close your mind. Free it and you will see more of the world than you do at present.