The Blooming of a Medium

I tried to edit my posts above so I wouldn't clutter your thread, but my time ran out.
I am sorry

I have to say ... I watched the vid, and in the immortal words of NE:

"Okay, I am officially creeped out here ..."

Thanks for posting that sled735. It's given me lots to research.

ok. Please continue

reply to post by Netties Hermit


Your most welcome!
I'm happy to offer new sources to those seeking it out. I found it most enlightening myself.

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I see numbers all the time. 11:11, 555 and a lot of 12:21's lately.

I was told a long time ago when I first started to look into what seeing these numbers could mean that when I am on the right track these numbers pop up. All accept for 555, this is a number I see and kind of shriek at.

The other numbers I am not all that sure about other than 11:11 is a guide message for me to pay attention.
555 is the number of changes, and this number has actually been one I KNOW for myself signifies a huge change in something. The times 555 started popping out, I would end up moving, changing jobs, a divorce, all things that came up while seeing 555 continuously. Major changes. Kind of like the tower card in Tarot.

The other number that I deal with a lot is 3.

not 333, but just 3. I put things up in 3's. I notice patterns of 3's. Like the flowers outside my building, paterns of three sets of flowers around one tree...etc.

My daughter sees 9:19 ALL the time on the clock. (9:19 is her birthday) She has been doing this since last year.
I asked Arnolac what did this mean for her. The reply was, "She is well done enough to soon start helping you with the process of hearing spirit."
Thing is... my daughter has absolutely NO interest in the spiritual realm. She does have a religion she believes in, but religion is different than spirituality. I kinda think Arnolac missed the answer on that one.

So, the other morning I was lying in bed trying to get to sleep, and I looked up to see what time it was.
The clock read 9:19! This has happened to me several times this year also. I still don't know the significance of this number? Any idea?

reply to post by sled735


I don't know how accurate this is as I did a search and this one DID pop out at me, so I think there could be something to it for you, I dunno, you would have to read it for yourself.

Angel Number 919 is a message from your angels that a situation or phase in your life has come to an end and a new door has opened for you as a result of your positive thoughts, intentions and actions. Keep your mind-set positive and optimistic and your thoughts filled with love and light and make the most of these new opportunities. Walk your spiritual path with confidence and surety.

Came from:Angel numbers

I do think this might be the answer, only you will know what your situation is.

I was going through the site and looked up some of the numbers I have reappearing and wow, it really does fit...very cool!
Here is the link to ALL of the numbers and possible meanings, including 1111 etc...
It really does seem to fit for me.

Angel Numbers-Index of numbers

Originally posted by Netties Hermit
reply to post by Darkblade71

 

Just one more, sorry

Along your journey, did you ever experience the 11:11 phenomena (or any recurring number theme) or have any thoughts on this?

See the above link I left about angel numbers, I just double checked what I experienced with 555 vs what this website says about 555 and it is dead on, so if you have repeating numbers, maybe take a look at the link above this post. To me, verification of what I experienced myself with numbers vs what is written down suggests this might be worth a look

Thank you so much for that, DarkBlade.
My daughter will be so happy to finally know why she is seeing this all the time. (Me too).
She IS starting a new phase in her life now. She is going to college to be a math teacher. Validation! Yea!

As for me......... I hope I am starting a new phase too. I am continually seeking spiritual knowledge, and I would love to find a new job that pays enough to not have to live paycheck to paycheck! I hope a new job is coming to me!

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I hear you about paycheck to paycheck. I have lived that way my entire life.
Just remember, these low paying jobs we all work teach us something about hard work, pleasing the unpleasable and learning to make the best of crappy jobs. You get a lot more than you think out of making sandwiches and flipping burgers.

When I was working at Taco John's, (actually 3 times through-out my life) it was a very fast paced demanding job at minimum wage, and I watched so many kids come and go. I realized after a while, I was having a lot of fun just watching the kids grow up while in the store. I was observing their growth and lending a helping hand while trying to hold an entire crew together. I actually gained a lot of insight into human nature without realizing it, just through watching teenagers grow up and having a hand in what they learned through work. It was a blast.
I remember my oldest son stopping in to work one day and I introduced him to the crew and then went back to work. About 20 minutes later he came back to me and told me how immature I was, and I smiled and said.."Isn't it great?!" because being almost 20 years older than my co workers, I could still be like one of them, only with the edge of experience.

I dunno if you get the point, but you can make a difference, even in a crappy low paying job if you want. Better things will surely open up to you, but in the meantime, enjoy whatcha got

I also see the numbers 3:33 and 5:55 all the time...thanks for the Angel numbers link Darkblade !

I find it is pretty right-on for me also.

Also wanted to let you know that I also heard the booms...in fact it is the third time in the last couple weeks....very early in the morning. I couldn't find anything about in local news sources. Was very strange!

Originally posted by Wakingup
I also see the numbers 3:33 and 5:55 all the time...thanks for the Angel numbers link Darkblade !

I find it is pretty right-on for me also.

Also wanted to let you know that I also heard the booms...in fact it is the third time in the last couple weeks....very early in the morning. I couldn't find anything about in local news sources. Was very strange!

I was surprised at the accuracy of the numbers.
Booms?
I did hear some very distinct pops the other night, almost sounded like semi-automatic gun fire, pop-pop-pop.....POP!

And earlier this summer there was a seriously freaky noise for about 3 days. Sounded like heavy machinery though I couldn't find the source of the noise. I am surrounded by iron ore mines though so it could of been something from them.

Ok, so to continue on with some of the story.
The first few months as a moderator for the JVP website was a lot of learning for me. When I started to see spirits, and images, I couldn't really shut it off. At first I thought it was very cool, and it was. Someone would ask me a question and I would see the answer almost immediately, it would come right out. When I started working the JVP site it became very hard to handle. The first few weeks people would come into the chat and before they would even say anything or introduce themselves, I would watch something happen. I remember at one point I had posted in the mod room exactly what I was seeing because we were not ever allowed to give this kind of information out, but I HAD to post what I was seeing because it was so vivid I couldn't keep it in. I watched as bunch of kids, around the age of 16, ran through the woods drunk. They were having a keg party, and were screwing around,and when they came out onto the road that ran by, a car came around the corner and struck one of the teenagers, flinging him several feet, where he died.
Shortly there after the person who was new to the chat began chatting about why she was there and told almost the exact same story as what I had posted in the "back" room. At this point I couldn't take it anymore. Watching all of these people die, I just couldn't do it. I shut down psychically. It was the final straw for my mind I guess. Over exposure to other peoples trauma and sorrow caused my "door" to close, and I was ok with that.
It wasn't totally closed, just closed enough to not see other peoples stuff unless I put effort into it. I was very relieved actually, as it made being a mod much easier.
Every Tuesday they would have special chats, with some of the coolest authors I have ever had the chance to meet. Most of the time it was mediums, or psychics giving people hints and tips, sharing their own experiences, and then at the end, if things went well, and it didn't go over the time limit, they would give readings etc.
I really enjoyed being a part of that. Much of what they discussed were things I had experienced myself so I could relate, and it was nice to find a place where I could do that, because for me, it is rare to find like minds.
The first special event I attended was The Responsibility of Mediumship, which was PERFECT timing for me as this was my biggest concern, that I could screw up and hurt someone.
At one point he said "A Medium is like a surgeon with a scalpel"
I wish I could remember who the author was that evening, because those words were to effect my way of thinking forever. I learned very quickly in this one event how dangerous mediumship can be, not for the psychic, but for the one who is searching for contact with passed loved ones. If you give the wrong information, or misunderstand something and say the wrong things, you can damage a mind forever. Just like a psychiatrist, or a surgeon, a psychic can do damage if they are not trained properly. I noticed through all of the mediums that spoke at JVP, one thing they all had done, they all had gone to courses and or had belonged to spiritualistic churches, or had attended spirit circles,where everyone would sit down and meditate and pass messages back and forth from spirit. I never had any of these things myself. I grew up in the bible belt, and all of these things were out on the coasts, east and west. So I had to go it alone. Thank god for the internet, cause without it, I would probably still be completely lost as far as what was happening to me.
I remember my wife one night telling me that even though all of this was cool, she was still skeptical, and I said, ok, ask me about anything, something I know nothing about. She asked me about her dog when she was a kid. I suddenly felt sad.
I saw her dog, I saw his dog house, I saw how it had been pushed into the bushes in the back yard and left there. I felt the dogs sadness at not being able to play, and it's constant need for attention it was not getting. I felt the love it had for everyone around it. How it got excited when the kids would come into its view, and then the sadness when they would leave. I repeated this all back to her and she got this totally shocked look, she was no longer skeptical. We both experienced things over the years, but now I was experiencing a lot, and I think it scared her.
One night I got up and walked to the kitchen and all of a sudden I felt this cold ribbon of air go by me, and then wrap around me. I don't know how else to describe it other than a moving living ribbon of air. I stopped dead and just kind of felt it. Then I heard a voice in my head say look in the living room. My wife was laying on the couch and all of a sudden she sat up and said "Something kissed my cheek!" The ribbon of air had moved too, right into the living room. When I sat back down I could feel it moving around me, and then it was gone.
It was her mother who died when she was little.

I am hoping to post links to the JVP special event logs that I found helpful, but for now that will have to wait because they are revamping his website and it says the logs will be up soon, but I dunno when that is.

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Sorry Darkblade...that was a different thread about the booms here in the cities..lol

It's easy to get click happy on here :-) You never know where you will end up !

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Not a problem!
I kind of figured that was it

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Thanks for the angel numbers link Darkblade - I checked it out, pretty comprehensive.

I nearly cried when I read the memory about your wife's dog. I don't think I'll ever look at my dog in the same way again.

I dream about my past dog (whom I believe was a kind of soulmate to me) constantly to this day, and it's been probably 12 years since she passed. And its always dreams about me not looking after her properly (only in my dreams mind you), which used to make me sad and guilty although my outlook on this has changed a bit recently.

It's nice to hear that pets can come through I miss her.

Great update. (Keep em coming!)

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I would love to do something like you did as a moderator on the JVP site! If only I was a medium.
That sounds so cool! I can see where feeling the emotions of death would "get to you". I don't know if I could take much of that either.

The dog story reminded me of my daughter's dog she brought to my house when she moved into a place that didn't allow pets. It stayed in a fenced pen up on the hill behind our house all the time. I didn't have time to spend with the dog, and every time someone stepped out the back door she would perk up her ears and look like she was smiling... so happy just to see someone. I could FEEL her loneliness to the point I couldn't take it any more.

I told my daughter we had to find her a home where people could play with her, and give her the love and attention she deserved. My daughter got mad at me, but agreed. What else could she do? My thoughts were for the dog's well-being.
I found her a home with a family who had other dogs she could play with. They said they took the dogs to the lake every weekend and let them run free, and could offer vet care that I couldn't afford. They were very happy to get her. I could tell they would give her a great home.

Although I think I did the right thing for the dog, my daughter has never forgiven me. She loved that dog so much.
Now I feel guilty about it. Every time we see a dog the breed of hers ( can't spell it), she mentions me getting rid of her dog. Did I do the wrong thing? Guess it depends on which way you look at it.

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"Good writers, like any good communicator, worry about one thing and one thing only: connecting their audience to the story."

If this is true Darkblade, you have succeeded...Even though I don't relate to most of your experiences, the emotional impact of your writing has connected me to your story. I have always felt with writing, if I don't connect to the story in the first lines it's not worth reading (imo).

Your emotions are deep and you are conveying them well !

Is your objective to just tell the story ? as a relief to get it off your chest ?

Or is it to evoke emotion and maybe help those who have had or are having the same experiences in understanding what they are going through also?

Either way it can't be easy to live through it all again...very emotional !

Well done ! Looking forward to more !

Originally posted by Wakingup
reply to post by Darkblade71

 

Is your objective to just tell the story ? as a relief to get it off your chest ?

Or is it to evoke emotion and maybe help those who have had or are having the same experiences in understanding what they are going through also?

It is both. I have an extremely deep need to express myself and get things off my chest, and also I know this story will be of value to someone, maybe a lot of people, on how these things can come about and what it is for.
Most people it seems have a total misunderstanding on what medium is and does.What it means to be psychic and how it not only touches people who you do things for, but yourself and how it changes your view.
I also have a deep need to understand what I have gone through, and how it is still effecting me personally. Writing it out is a way for me to explore my own experiences. To see them outside my own mind on paper or on the screen. As much as I would love to say I understand it, I still don't. I do, but I don't. I believe in sharing experiences so that not only I can get a grasp, but maybe you too. Everyone who has an interest from all sides, skeptic to full on believer, everyone I think can grasp something from this, at least that is my hope.

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That was the answer I was hopeing for :-) It is important to self heal as you share!

All our journeys continue and experiences are our best teachers :-)