the end of it all

[edit on 27-10-2009 by erasedhistory]

[edit on 27-10-2009 by erasedhistory]

[edit on 27-10-2009 by erasedhistory]

I can't read this. They are called PARAGRAPHS. They are your friend if you want to communicate.

Suicide is the vibe i am getting. Your asking do it or not. thats up to you.

Just make sure you no what you are leaving.

[edit on 27-10-2009 by gandhi]

[edit on 27-10-2009 by erasedhistory]

I don't think words can touch what's fundamentally at the heart of your post. So if you understand then I'll just leave with this:

Nice bit of writing.
I don't think it belongs in this forum, but it is nice work.

I don't like it, but the reasons why don't matter much, do they?
You placed this in the wrong forum.

My scars are visual stimulants as to the fagile nature of my body and the ease of it's demise. (my motto was: physical pain releaves mental strain)

There is plenty of time for death......longing for the inevitable is what can make you strong.

Life is designed to suck, I know this and try to improve the life of others I love... mostly to my emotional and physical expence.

Chin up buttercup. Sometimes a change of scene is all you need



IMO there is nothing wrong with a "already picked" flower...

I suggest if your so over it, you spend your time consoling and talking with those left in your life, not to a random internet forum, whom you've only been posting at for a week and a half. These people nor myself want to see this kind of crap filling up the boards.

I have no respect for people like you, without even knowing 1% of the worlds population and their problems, and yet you still complain about the hand life dealt you. So everything you've been through has been a complete waste of time.


Grrr like the rpg players who quit a great game and hate it for no reason, just cause it go a little to hard for em.

[edit on 27-10-2009 by ThirdJohnAdams]

Damn dude! Split it up into paragraphs paleeaase! I promise more people will read it if you do!

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clandestiny, is that you?

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Suicide will accomplish a few things
1) the people whom actually gave a rats arse will be sad for a little while
2) your carcass will rot
3) your story and contribution to earth will be only a rotting body and a defective mind...you think your unheard now, wait till your truely unheard and discarded because of your final action.

Word of advice...before you off yourself, go skydiving...goto the beach...do things away from the computer, away from conspiracy websites, and experience actual life verses anonymous superpolarized opinions, etc.

I mean, if your going to off yourself for life, you should at least explore it first,

Personally, I think you need to be baker acted...you need a therapist to talk to, not a random internet forum.

Buck up, OP. You think it's something new?

I get you... your bride, your bride... woe is me.... outcast....

Seems as though the view of your sorrow is the reason your bride has been taken from you.

The end.... what a joke!

There is no end, no beginning, no reason other than make believe.

Why is this so hard to accept? Why do so many people get inconsolably stuck on this point? The root of your sorrow is your point of view. You come from a point of view where reality is just an illusion. What is an illusion? If you use what is real to measure what is illusion... than your sorrow is unfounded. Do you get what I am saying? Illusion IS REAL. Because real always has been illusion, and therefore... our opnion of what is illusory is an illusion, as well...

We get married because we enjoy the company of another, but we know in the back of our mind that this union will never last. We must move on and re-marry, even if this only happens when we part at death. One way or another, we divorce.... and one way or another, we re-marry.

You realize also that union and separation are lies, don't you?

There just IS. You wil re-marry once you accept it as it comes, not as it goes.

Woe is you for not constructing a better Reason to move and have your being.

Woe is you for drowning in your loss. Instead of swimming through it.

EDIT:

What this means, my friend.... is that you've lost NOTHING. What this means is only that NOW, you must work harder than ever before to re-gain what you already have buried inside.

For if it were not already with you..... it would not be at all. There would be no strife on your part, because there would be no your part.

Your existence is the reason... and it is there for you to court it with Meaning. If nothing means anything, than everything means something. It is now up to you to populate it with the latter.

That is the cruel joke. It is funny. Laugh.

[edit on 27-10-2009 by dunwichwitch]

[edit on 27-10-2009 by dunwichwitch]

reply to post by ThirdJohnAdams


Wow, such anger from a post that compares suicidal thoughts of someone with a pretend-god-complex and a video game.
Chill dude.

This thread was written by a writer. To be a literary piece.
Probably testing material.

hmmm. yeah sorry but I have to agree. Cant read it. Just too long. Sounds like gibberish. And the thing about time and centuries or something......also alot of raped her raped me stuff... Not sure what your trying to say. If its a suicide letter you might concider revising. Oh and I agree with what saturn said....I mean if your gonna kill yourself you might try living a little before you do it. Besides, there may be a test afterwords!

There will always be more defectors than reflectors.

If one man wishest the world to be and to become... there will not be an end, because where there is ONE will to live with the Creator in mind, there is hope for all.

Those who truly know God... must go through a period of putrifaction and disgust... it is like a fermentation period... where Jesus is Crucified of the Cross... cursing his Father and all of Creation, believing he has failed, believing that All is Lost.

But shortly before his death, he realizes that he has actually succeeded in saving the world with his agony. "It is accomplished" he screams in hysterical laughter the moment before he dies.

And again.. 3 days later... Jesus rises from his grave, white as snow.... purified.... ready to enter the Gates of Heaven.

You are dying on the Cross, my friend.

Pour the blood from your wound into a cup and take a drink.

Red Bull... it gives you wings.

Erasedhistory, eh?! Your name kind of says it all.

But I just don't get it! You write very eloquently and with such a depth of feeling, that I wonder whether or not you really intend to top yourself?

May I be so bold and ask how old you are?

If you are reasonably old like me, say late fifties with not much left to live for, well hey mate, don't top yourself just because you feel there is nothing worth living for!

Have you ever been to the Djebel in Dhofar Province, Oman and seen the mountains turn pink?

Have you ever been to northern Norway, Greenland or Alaska and seen the Aurora Borialis?

Have you ever made love to a beautiful women on a beach as the sun sets, casting it's golden glow over you?

Have you ever been to Kenya on Safari or watched as gorrillas romp around you in Rwanda?

Have you ever been to Borneo and played with Orang Utans?

Have you ever donned a uniform and served your country?

Have you ever helped out somebody less fortunate than yourself?

If you can answer YES to any of these questions, then friend I envy you because I do not have enough time left in this world to accomplish a little of what you have achieved!

I dream of one day going to Zion Wildlfe Gardens near Wangarai in Northern New Zealand, to walk with and stroke Tiger cubs.

If on the other hand you have not seen or experienced any of these things, then you owe it to yourself to live your life as large as possible.

Go skydiving or base jumping/bungee jumping in New Zealand!

Go swimming with dolphins or watch wales mate off the coast of California!

Do whatever it takes to make a special person happy and, in so doing, discover happiness in yourself.

So my friend, if your post was a long winded suicide note, it was beautifully written. But you should grab hold of it, screw it up and then tear it in to little pieces.

By doing that, you will start to live your life the way it was meant to be.

Take care.

Fritz





[edit on 27-10-2009 by fritz]

Originally posted by fritz
Erasedhistory, eh?! Your name kind of says it all.

But I just don't get it! You write very eloquently and with such a depth of feeling, that I wonder whether or not you really intend to top yourself?

May I be so bold and ask how old you are?

If you are reasonably old like me, say late fifties with not much left to live for, well hey mate, don't top yourself just because you feel there is nothing worth living for!

Have you ever been to the Djebel in Dhofar Province, Oman and seen the mountains turn pink?

Have you ever been to northern Norway, Greenland or Alaska and seen the Aurora Borialis?

Have you ever made love to a beautiful women on a beach as the sun sets, casting it's golden glow over you?

Have you ever been to Kenya on Safari or watched as gorrillas romp around you in Rwanda?

Have you ever been to Borneo and played with Orang Utans?

Have you ever donned a uniform and served your country?

Have you ever helped out somebody less fortunate than yourself?

If you can answer YES to any of these questions, then friend I envy you because I do not have enough time left in this world to accomplish a little of what you have achieved!

I dream of one day going to Zion Wildlfe Gardens near Wangarai in Northern New Zealand, to walk with and stroke Tiger cubs.

If on the other hand you have not seen or experienced any of these things, then you owe it to yourself to live your life as large as possible.

Go skydiving or base jumping/bungee jumping in New Zealand!

Go swimming with dolphins or watch wales mate off the coast of California!

Do whatever it takes to make a special person happy and, in so doing, discover happiness in yourself.

So my friend, if your post was a long winded suicide note, it was beautifully written. But you should grab hold of it, screw it up and then tear it in to little pieces.

By doing that, you will start to live your life the way it was meant to be.

Take care.

Fritz





[edit on 27-10-2009 by fritz]

Wow.... that's the stuff right there.

Just think of all the stuff you HAVEN'T experienced, man!
'
Like dude says...

Until you've seen it all, don't act like you have. SEE IT ALL, and NEVER STOP! You may indeed be in an existencial conundrum, and believe me I empathize with you because I've BEEN THERE DONE THAT... and somehow, I do not continue to share your pessimism.

You exist. Isn't that enough of a motive for you to keep going?

Indeed, you exist. Now prove it!

Just don't shoot up your school.

And don't leave a smelly old corpse for you're poor parents to find.