1st thread in 4 years!

I guess this is my Intro thread so that’s where it will go.

As you can all probably tell, I am not a regular poster (lol). However, I am a regular reader and have been for a very long time (long before I signed up).

I have made maybe 3 posts all up to tell the honest truth and I recently realised that for those posts to have any meaning the reader would probably ignore me as I am not known at all at ATS and I have an account that is pretty much 'Ancient' which I believe would make me seem suspicious. This is the main reason for my thread, to come clean and let you know a little about who I am.

To begin with, I believe that I am not a good writer, and I have always admitted that. I need to use my hands and facial expressions to really express myself in order to be understood (eye contact is even better). That’s my main issue with the internet forums... sometimes to the point of paranoia. If I do try hard then it can go on for days using notepad and I end up deleting my response or someone else responded close to what I wanted to express. These days I just wait for someone to answer for me... it has become a form of laziness..Which now I believe I need to address.

Back to all about me... I am interested in just about anything to do with current affairs, life, religion, history, ancient history, all sciences... ancient and modern and anything to do with the unknown.

ATS is one of my favourite websites because it caters for my interests and even though you have to sift through the information to get what you’re looking for it makes it a great reference site.

A few personal things about me (random quotes or muses):

Almost middle aged, considered cool by the younger members of my family. I am friendly; I fess up to being wrong and take a humble approach. I read all 13 Lobsang Rampa books by the time I was 16. (lol, now I’m screwed). I wrote a base conversion program using all 26 letters of the alphabet at 16 and won a $50 prize.

I am not religious or agnostic or atheist. I cannot and refuse to be categorised in any such way. I kind of see it all as 'En Soph'..(Beyond all thought). I am however intrigued and have been from an early age of how and why religion has come about.

I spent five years in Europe dreaming that I was going to write a book about the history of Christianity and the powers of nations in modern history. That didn't go to well mainly because of my above noted issue with writing skills. I did get to visit some great libraries; I opened books from the 16th to 18th centuries and saw the most amazing mural paintings and architecture.

I gave all my books and information to a friend who later became a Freemason. That was not my intention however after 10 years he called to tell me he quit because (put conspiracy theory here).

I work for a large corporation - My excuse? Know thy enemy, make a decent living and help your family and friends as much as possible.
I love life. I believe in people, I believe they need to believe in themselves to better understand themselves.

I have never had a headache in my life - No brain, no pain could be my motto but thats not entirely true or could it be

UFO's? Well that’s just what they are. I’ve seen them. I’m not really interested in proving what I have seen as real but I do applaud all of the research that is available to date (especially from the users here). I have no idea what UFO's are, but I believe that logic, reasonable speculation, science and documented artefacts will lead us closer to the truth, I hope... eventually (if Zorgon and crew keeps it up).

Annunaki, Sumer, Egypt, NASA secrets, stargates, tesla, ufo's, government conspiracies, historical evidence unfolding. This is the fringe that few want to accept as a possible truth, at ATS they can come to life in a way that is almost scary to me. That is one reason I like it, I will even know what books to buy or what doco to watch, references that lead you on a trail.

Continued:
Debunkers are great, as with the the major CT'ers they get similar recognition from both sides at ATS. That is, the posters that write well researched posts that work on providing as much scientific evidence as possible.

In another personal view I will say that the big debunkers are often the biggest believers. Otherwise their egos would have no real reason to post at ATS. I am not a fan of people that spend all their time disproving possible theories unless they believe it a possibility themselves. Self Righteousness is not what I would consider a positive trait.

I do not work for a government organisation and I am not a troll or whatever. My intentions on this site are for the purpose of my own education. I do not believe that I have anything more to offer than the average ATS user and perhaps that is my downfall. Maybe I do.

I hope that you can see a side of me that you can relate to and I am looking forward to not being ignored by ATS members (it will happen anyway!). I have been here a long time and I do not have any expectations (just a little hope).

I will admit that by not posting my thoughts or idea's during the last 4 years may have hindered relationships I would have liked to have had with many users in various threads. Maybe, just maybe this post might push me in the right direction.

Hopefully, no matter my intellect or knowledge I will feel comfortable posting at ATS knowingly that other users may know a little about whom I am and just maybe I will get over my communications issue and feel comfort in posting regardless of my competence. Did my post make any sense?
Peace Stan

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Welcome, Stan. Seems like your writing skills are working just fine.

Thank you so much for the welcome Mikerussellus. My post did take more than 3 hours to write! Is that normal? Ouch, its 1am here.

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It'll get easier with practice.

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I can't imagine why you are unimpressed with your writing skills. Actually I can now that I think about it. I've often dreamed of writing my book only to trash every single attempt in disgust. However, the large difference here, is that YOU are good at it!

You kept me interested and reading. You characterised yourself in a way that felt familiar, comforting and non-threatening. How interesting that you have been here for so long and held your own opinions in reserve. You are an enigma.

Welcome.

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Wow, welcome (although you have been here longer than me!lol..) and your writing skills seem just fine to me. Hope to see you active in the UFO boards soon.

G;day Blue whats yer favorite colour ?
G;day Digger whats yer do for a living ?
G;day sheila what sex are you Mate ?
Hello from "NORN IRON"
love the Aussies for thier sence of humour Welcome Mate lol

May I presume you to be my first real ATS acquaintance?

Thanks for your honest feedback. I believe that you are correct that practice does lead to perfection and confidence. Is that what you meant?

Truly appreciated response anyhow. Writing is a skill that I have not had much practice in, in truth for me the whole thing is probably simply based on fear (what will the reader think, did he understand what I meant?). I think I am starting to understand that now. What can I say... on some subjects I am a slow learner

Stan

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I spent five years in Europe dreaming that I was going to write a book about the history of Christianity and the powers of nations in modern history.

Did you mean... "The history of Christian political power and it's influence in modern history"?

Having graduated in PoliSci I had little to zero course material delving into the "God and Country" misery that currently plagues our planet.

It would have been a good and necessary book to write.

Originally posted by jkrog08
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Wow, welcome (although you have been here longer than me!lol..) and your writing skills seem just fine to me.

Hope to see you active in the UFO boards soon.

Oh my, the one and only jkrog08 is replying to my first thread in 4 years! I should be nervous and honored. Seriously, when I mentioned debunkers in my post, you did come to mind.

Thank you so much for the warm welcome even if I was here before you, you have been in my opinion a great contributer to ATS and you are always there (something I cannot always guarantee), multiply that by 0 and thats what I get.. OK, as you can see I'm working on it

Welcome back so to speak : ) I myself have done the same thing with posts. I will type out an entire post, read it, re-read it and then usually delete it because I dont like it....I dont know why I do this but I should have posted on a lot more threads but I wind up deleting what I was saying....
Sounds like you have an interesting life...I would love to have had the opportunity to read books from that time..I love books esp really old ones.
ATS is my favorite place to find out about anything really. I go here before I go to google : ) I too was a reader for a while before I joined and now I am addicted!
Well I look forward to reading your posts and threads. What do you think you might post about first if anything??

Originally posted by foxhoundone
G;day Blue whats yer favorite colour ?
G;day Digger whats yer do for a living ?
G;day sheila what sex are you Mate ?
Hello from "NORN IRON"
love the Aussies for thier sence of humour Welcome Mate lol

Thank you for the welcome. foxhoundone.
G'Day maaaate! ....after that there is no other type of G'day in my book : But I do love you irish folk, thats where I think a lot of our humor comes from.

Originally posted by KOGDOG
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I spent five years in Europe dreaming that I was going to write a book about the history of Christianity and the powers of nations in modern history.

Did you mean... "The history of Christian political power and it's influence in modern history"?

Having graduated in PoliSci I had little to zero course material delving into the "God and Country" misery that currently plagues our planet.

It would have been a good and necessary book to write.

Yes, thats exactly what I was researching (you named the subject a great title totally worthy, maybe its your turn to give it a go). Great discussion topic!

Originally posted by stanislas

maybe I will get over my communications issue and feel comfort in posting regardless of my competence.

There is a place where writing skills can be practiced in the Short Stories Discussion Forum and you will not be criticized for your choice of topic.

I've learned that difficult and controversial topics can be more easily approached metaphorically. If, for instance, you've had an experience which would be difficult to divulge in a personal way, then writing a short story outlining what happened in the third person, cuts the personal connection and the issue still remains in fictional form.

It would surprise you how much freedom that gives a writer.

I can see by the opening posts of this introductory thread, even though you say it took 3 hours to write up in Notepad first, that you have a knack for stating your case clearly.

Your only drawback, it seems, is the desire to say it perfectly and the time it takes you to do so.

I hope you'll take my advice and try your hand at some fiction. Take all the time you require to work up a story, perhaps even adding new posts as chapters to expand on a theme you'd like to explore. Others will no doubt comment as well, but to that fictional 'third person', not you personally.

Hopefully, in that way, you will not feel like holding back on posting and, eventually, as you gain experience, you'd find jumping into debates on hot topics much easier.

Looking forward to seeing you on the boards more.

Originally posted by mblahnikluver
Welcome back so to speak : ) I myself have done the same thing with posts. I will type out an entire post, read it, re-read it and then usually delete it because I dont like it....I dont know why I do this but I should have posted on a lot more threads but I wind up deleting what I was saying....
Sounds like you have an interesting life...I would love to have had the opportunity to read books from that time..I love books esp really old ones.
ATS is my favorite place to find out about anything really. I go here before I go to google : ) I too was a reader for a while before I joined and now I am addicted!
Well I look forward to reading your posts and threads. What do you think you might post about first if anything??

Hi mbla... (not sure about how you liked to be called). It is reassuring that
I am not the only one who procrastinates over what they may write.

Originally posted by Hazelnut
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I can't imagine why you are unimpressed with your writing skills. Actually I can now that I think about it. I've often dreamed of writing my book only to trash every single attempt in disgust. However, the large difference here, is that YOU are good at it!

You kept me interested and reading. You characterised yourself in a way that felt familiar, comforting and non-threatening. How interesting that you have been here for so long and held your own opinions in reserve. You are an enigma.

Thanks Hazelnut, your post means a lot to me in many ways..

Originally posted by masqua

Originally posted by stanislas

maybe I will get over my communications issue and feel comfort in posting regardless of my competence.

There is a place where writing skills can be practiced in the Short Stories Discussion Forum and you will not be criticized for your choice of topic.

I've learned that difficult and controversial topics can be more easily approached metaphorically. If, for instance, you've had an experience which would be difficult to divulge in a personal way, then writing a short story outlining what happened in the third person, cuts the personal connection and the issue still remains in fictional form.

It would surprise you how much freedom that gives a writer.

I can see by the opening posts of this introductory thread, even though you say it took 3 hours to write up in Notepad first, that you have a knack for stating your case clearly.

Your only drawback, it seems, is the desire to say it perfectly and the time it takes you to do so.

I hope you'll take my advice and try your hand at some fiction. Take all the time you require to work up a story, perhaps even adding new posts as chapters to expand on a theme you'd like to explore. Others will no doubt comment as well, but to that fictional 'third person', not you personally.

Hopefully, in that way, you will not feel like holding back on posting and, eventually, as you gain experience, you'd find jumping into debates on hot topics much easier.

Looking forward to seeing you on the boards more.

Hi Masqua

Thanks for the information regarding having a go at fiction. I read very little fiction books but it seems like a great way to learn confidence in writing skills. I will give this a go. Thank you

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