posted on Sep, 14 2009 @ 02:34 AM
Originally posted by space cadet
Off from work for 2 days, I am back tonight and reporting that my cigarettes taste like poo, but I keep on smoking, I have only cut down by about 3 a
day. I am ill as a wet hornet. Weird dreams have now set in, nightmares in a sense, I went to bed worried about a family member who is in an abusive
relationship, in my dream I killed her husband with much enjoyment. Hell, that could be normal though.
God I know, I have quit four times this year - for almost a month at a time each time.
That weird taste is exactly what I tasted the first two days back smoking, it just tastes off
and doesn't seem to smoke right at the same time kinda like it is not being absorbed right? The ill feeling is the worst, it is like swine flu and
psychosis have hit at the same time. I always feel that I could cause an accident as my mind seems to detach, even effects my eyesight. I usually
"quit" with nicotine gum which works well enough-
However the first four days are the hardest physically- the three - four week mark is where the real emotional/psychic battle seems to set in for me.
I feel like something is missing, like I have lost something very vital to my happiness. It become cumulative,
builds up and wham you say to yourself - hell I can have just one - I've come this far, I
can't take this empty feeling. You fight that notion for a couple days and then you have that re introduction smoke. Which like I said taste f-ed up,
does not give you the satisfaction you thought it would and then slowly you get back on the cancer horse.
I am gonna try again tomorrow, TAKE heed THIRD WEEK the emptiness comes, the third month it comes again big time so I have been told.
Be strong + and wish me luck folks