posted on Aug, 8 2009 @ 12:47 PM
How I changed my Life
This will probably come as a shock to most of the people reading my story today. But, I swear to this, it is all true as crazy and mysterious
as it may seem. Last night I fell asleep in a very different world than what I have awoken to today. It all started because of something I wanted so
badly that I would have travelled the ends of the Earth to have, yet I have travelled further than any could’ve imagined. What I kept doing was
concentrating and meditating on the thing I wanted the most in my life, my one true happiness. I never thought it would ever be possible. Yet
yesterday I was in a complete different world, unhappy and in a unfortunate situation. In a loveless relationship that I stayed in only for the three
children we had. So many things have gone wrong with my life I just wanted to know what if, what if the one that got away could have been where my
true happiness lied. I started trying every evening before bed, willing the world around me to change, willing my being to a place where I had done
things differently in the past. And now here I am, I don’t even know where here is, neither do I know what to expect. But I woke up and he was
beside me. My one true love in my eyes and the world has changed. In my world it’s always gray the colors are muted and diluted. Smells are not very
strong, either. There was a war and the smoke and fumes filled the air making the colors fade and dulling the sense of smell. Broken, disheveled
buildings stood around us. It was a struggle to survive. Not only in this world did I have my one true possibility for happiness, it seemed that this
entire world was a breath of fresh air, totally new to me. A thing I hadn’t seen in over a year. Yet, I had no idea how to act. To me this was all
new. I don’t know how I am going to fit in. I don’t have any memories of this world that I awoke to; they are all my same memories from the old. I
always assumed they’d be replaced by the new world’s memory if I had ever succeeded in making the trip. I was finding out that was not the case.
How would I explain if I forgot a name or a place that I would be expected to know?
I decided to get out of that place before this man woke so I would not have any uncomfortable situation arise. After all I really don’t know
who this person is today. I didn’t really know who he was back before this horrible slide into the darkness happened to me. I hoped I could find
something that would trigger the memories of this world to come. At least that is what is supposed to happen. Unfortunately, everything was foreign to
me. None of the headlines made any sense. None of the people were recognizable. The clothing was odd. I definitely didn’t fit in at all. Everybody
was happy. Nobody seemed as if they had a care in the world. Should I run away? Could I fake it and pretend I knew things I didn’t know? Right this
minute I needed a cup of coffee. At least I didn’t have to go far to find a nice little coffee shop along the way. I didn’t even know if the odd
purse that had to be mine would have any cash in it. It did. Ten dollars. So I ordered myself a nice Colombian coffee. I went to the condiments table
to fix it. Lots of sugar and a little cream. It was perfect. I couldn’t help but to wonder what my children were doing now as I sat at the table and
sipped the delicious hot liquid. Would I be there? I mean would I physically be there? Would I have taken away my children’s mother by fleeing to
this place? That is what it felt like, it felt like running away from home. Would I have simply vanished? Is that how it worked? I never even
considered that. Maybe I should try to get back as unhappy as that would make me. Besides I couldn’t stay here, this was not where I belonged. So I
had decided to try to get home the same way I had found myself here.
The End