anyone elses life get worse after looking too hard?

in the past few years ive researched alot online. and from work, of course like the rest of america. so far ive been audited by the i.r.s. for over 17k plus penalties, and had alot of other "mysterious" difficulties with my license, work, and someother things that may seem trivial or minute to other people. im almost 40, and for the past 20 years ive been a relatively decent human being. i do believe in karma, so i try to put in what id like back out. maybe im a little paranoid but it kinda seems like it all stared after watching a few movies and visiting some websites. just throwin it out to see if im the only one.

You're probably just paranoid. After reading your post and then seeing your location is "hiding" and your mood is "scared" tends to make that assumption more likely. I've researched 9/11 and been associated with 9/11 truth for 3 years and I've had no problems. But then again, I'm not a paranoid person either.

There is an old saying. "If you look to hard for answers, sometime the answers will find you first."
Sound like to me you should be more concentrated on maintaining your own stability and answering the reasons why you are personally having difficulties.

The difficulties with your license. Why the trouble? did you let it expire? Were you speeding? Did you perform an illegal maneuver? Sounds to me like inattentiveness and not so much conspiracy.
Hack you brain and figure out the reasons why you are in trouble.
Another old saying. "Ask yourself first, and you will often find you don't need to ask anyone else at all."

LUCK!!!

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The absolute beauty of the whole thing is, no one who actually knows the truth is going to talk about it, so if you have been targeted by some secret powerful agency, you're going it practically all alone. My life has been a complete emotional and financial tumble since 2000, when I regularly started visiting conspiracy sites and watching certain videos (on YouTube and others). I had an art studio where I would sometimes sleep, and one sleepover in 2001 lasted very nearly 12 hours, which was unusual since if I get 6 full hours sleep I consider it a miracle. That next morning when I awoke -- actually around 1:30 PM, I felt nothing. Not tired, not rested, just nothing, is the best I can describe it. Always on nights I could manage 5-6 hours sleep I would feel well-rested, so I thought that was strange, but nothing to make an issue about, so I never discussed it (with whom, anyway? . . ) Since then I have felt, just odd, out of place around people, not sure of my own self, low self-esteem, but still nothing that an evidence-demanding audience would find significant. But you know when your own personality has changed.

In recent years I have experienced consistent and inconsistently toned ringing in my ears, particularly the left. It almost seems like it's inside my head, moreso than in the ear. For a while over the last two years emails would arrive with subject matter corresponding to personal activities in the "privacy" of my home. Not simply coincidentally, but specifically within minutes. Bathroom trips, that kind of thing. I recently got a young cat, and the next day there was a spam email from "[email protected]", which was how they communicated their messages. I even received one advertising HD online television with multiple screens as the ad graphic, but when I decided to look at the images on the little screens (I'm a graphic artist, so things like ad layout interest me), several of them were images of the front of my place, digitally altered with things such as a german shepherd by the front door, view from a rifle scope aiming at the front door, and a smoke trail like a missle from a rocket launcher going through the front window. Other emails were threatening people I loved, only using consonants for names, or phonetic equivalents, with city names where they lived, but nothing ever happened, I'm glad to say. My web site, which is basically family-friendly, was hacked, with pornographic pictures I had nothing to do with uploaded onto the server and redirects to .ru porn sites, and when I contacted my hosting company, they removed several folders and files and were able to detect that the garbage had not come from my computer. I have Vonage phone service, and at first when I attempted to contact my hosting company, that number would redirect to an "I'm sorry, this call cannot be completed" recording. I emailed ICANN with a request of how they might suggest I resolve the problem, and after that I was able to use my phone to contact the hosting company.

The population is conditioned to think that anything that is not seen on the news or doesn't come out of a respected university is lunatic, but neither the news nor the university is teaching everything that may be known.

So when you or I feel as though we've been targeted and are being, perhaps, secretly watched by perps or hidden super high-tech video surveillance systems even in our own homes, to whom do we turn to discuss it? Right, a conspiracy web site, where every form of ridiculous scenario has been intermingled with true circumstances so heavily that nothing is actually taken very seriously, unless by another witness or victim.

And of course there's always the even deeper rabbit-hole issue of, are you, OP, a dis-info agent posting a false scenario to fish for replies; or am I one, you could rightly ask. Though I have little to offer as proof of my claim, for the record, let me assure you that I am not.

my lic was a matter of policeman giving me a ticket and sending to the wrong adress, resulting in an unpaid ticketthat got it suspended. irs issues are oversights that my lawyer assured me that anyone else couldve gotten away with but had a h**d on for me. when i say ive been decent im not lying. and, no im not fishing either. could all be nothing. could all be something. thats why i put it out there. i cant tell if the suns up if i dont open my eyes. my locations outside philly. and the only thing im scared of is losing what lttle i have, cuz theyll have to take it from my dead hands and thatll leave a few people without me.