(YYSLSC) Scales of Justice?

I was 22 & had been with Adam since i was 15. He was 2 year my senior. We met one summer on our local park. His best friend was going out with my best friends. We all hung out together and we descided to start dating too. We bacame the best of friends and before i knew it i had fallen in love. We both planned on spending the rest of our lives together. After being with someone a while you start to get to know them more and see the best & worst in them. I saw a lot of good in Adam but i saw evil too and that scared me. I knew he loved me but he had an awful temper & when we argued as couples often do his violent side would rear it head. So there i was 22, the whole world in front of me and i was itchin to be a part of it. Unfortunately Adam didn't like that in me and was quite controlling - he would quite often use emotional blackmail to get his own way. My work collegues had beeen planning a night out for a while and i really wanted to go but i knew Adam wouldn't let me. I daren't tell me colleagues why, i just usully make up an excuse - but i really wanted to go this time. I got the courage to ask and his answer was an outright NO! I was so unhappy but i knew it was no use arguing. He dropped me off home and i went up to bed. I was about to set my alarm on my phone, but as i wasnt really tired - just depressed,i descided to go on a WAP. Now this was before 3G ad GPRS. I descided to enter a chat room, i'd watched someone in the pub do it. I entered the general chat forum, it was a board were people posted messages. People kept asking if i wanted a 1-2-1 chat. I kept declining. Then someone asked if there was anyone in the my region. For some strange reason i was drawn to this one an posted back where i was from, although due to my paranoia i lied about my actual location. He asked me for a 1-2-1. It's just a chat forum i thought to myself, i only talking, no harm in that is there? With a pang of guilt but also with a stong sense of intrigue i accepted the invitation. He told me a bit about him self and i did the same, we didn't run out of things to say and there was no sexual references made throught the conversation. He told me he had a car so if we did want to meet up as freinds we would be able to. Like when you read a book, you conjur an image up in your head as you go along, wel it's the same when I'm talking to someone via chat/text. I said 'i bet it is white and has a blue stereo - i bet its a vauxhall astra. It went quiet. I typed another messgae - hello? He replied back with ' who are you, i know you dont i - stop playin with me - ok, your freaking me out - who is it?'. I told him that i dont know him and asked why was he so freaked out. He replied back telling me that i must know him or how else would i know his car so accurately. i laughed to my self and adding the text language equivelent, i told him that was the image that came into my head when he said he had a car. He was skeptical, still not quite sure if i was friend playing a prank on him but started to believe me all the same - weird coincidence. Before i knew it, it was 4 am and needed to be up for work in 3 hours. I said my goodbyes and agreed to meet on wap chat again. I woke up late but instead of doing the normal panick - i'm going to get the sack, i was ubually calm. When i got to work my work coleagues asked if i was going out with them on the night out. Without hesitatiion - i replied yes. Another first from me. Adam picked me up after work and i told him i was going on the night out. He threw a temper tantrum that would normallly leave me cowering. This time i just said 'I am going and that is it - I am 22 an have never beento a night club in my life and you are sufforcating me'. He was stunned. He changed his tune and said he will with me. I agreed as it didn't matter to me if he came or not - i just wanted be allowed out. The night out soon came round and I had a great time although he keep asking me not to dance with my friends, i love dancing so i was dissapointed but i was out all the same.
When Adam was dropping me off, i received a text from the work colleage who had organised the night out - thanking me for coming and a great night. Adam snatched the phone off me and proceeded to call my work colleage who happedned to be male but just a freind and colleague. He was quite nasty and i felt really embarrassed. He then grabbed hold of me and smashed my head against the his car window. Enough was enough, I grabbed my stuff and told him i never want to see him again.
Usually when we argue it is me who has to do the dog between his legs act, he will just wait for me to come to him. He played true to his form and did'nt call. That night i went back on the chat room & scanned the usernames hoefully, my heart sank as the name was not there. I started to think i would not find him again as i only knew his user name and not even his mobile number. Suddenly i got a 1-2-1 invitation - It was him. My heart leaped although i wasn't sure why - ihadn't even met this person. We instantly took up were we left off like old freinds who have known each other for years. I told him of my night out and. He daid he couldn't believe i was with someone who treated me like that but was glad to hear that i wasn't putting up withit anymore. we agreed to meet up the folloing weekend for a drink. Saturday came and he drove over to pick me up. I smiled as i got in his white vauxhall astra with its blue stereo. We hugged and was like we had known each other already. We went back to his place and talked until the sun came up. I laid in his arms and felt happy. He lent over and kissed me. It was really passionate and intense like nothing i'd felt before. We ended up making love which was out of this world - It was like both our bodies were in some perfect synchrinisation with each other, It wasn't just orgasmic it was like pure love. Afterwards i he told me he had been a bit nervous about being naked. I asked him why. He told me he's has a condion called ichthyosis which gives him scaly skin. I told him it wouldn't matter what looks like, i'd already fallen in love before we met. Since then, i've looked up the condition to get a big of background on it out of curiousity. I found out it is a genetic condition were the sufferers have scale-like plates of skin. I had a lot of interest in evolution - the whole ape theory is acceptable to me to a point. ....

[edit on 20-12-2008 by MCoG1980

[edit on 20-12-2008 by MCoG1980]

But then i had always wondered that if we had really evolved purely from apes then why do we all not have brown eyes? I started to debate in my head a theory of us evolving from reptiles, whilst i was doing so i thought about the ancient civilizations some of which refer to serpants and snakes. I thought about that pyrmid in mexico where a shadow of a snake slithers down a pyramid on a certain date every year and the Snake in the bible. Then i recalled reading something on a civilzation called the Sumerians who mentioned something about an reptilian race. Curiosity got the better of me and i looked it up to check. I was amazed to find depictions of what would appear to be some type of flying craft, an understanding of astrology and half reptile-half human statues. Even stranger i found that Sumeria was where Modern day Iraq is and in the very same year i met my new love britain and America go to war with Iraq - just coincidence but weird all the same A million questions and outrageous thoughts whirled round my head. Could it be the real reason behind the war in iraq, surely not - but it kind of made sense - to me at least anyway. I thought what the impact would have if there was found to be a genetic link to some humans and reptiles . Would it cause mass chaos as religion disolve and the world admits that the Sumerians were right and that all others untruths. What would Christianity have to say on the serpant in the Adam and Eve story then? The story would then appear to look as if it has delibarately tried to depict the snake 'reptile as evil'?
I wanted to tell my new found love what i had found out but realisation suddenly kicked in. How can i in one breath say that i am fine with his condition and with another tell him you think he is descended from alien lineage after pending all night researching it. I did't want to make him feel uncomfortable so i left the thought to fester with in. After a couple of months he noticed something in me i had found quite normal. I frequently tuned out and would apear to be in a tracnce like state. He questioned me on it, but as i thought it was normal, i was unphased by his concerns. He persisted in me seeking medical advice, so to put his worries at bay i made an appointment with my GP. After months of tests it transpired i actually had a form of epilepfy called petit-mal. Me being my inquisitive self, researched the topic and found it could have actualy been the cause of some strange of some strange phenonema i recalled from my childhood. I had experienced what i could only describe as de ja vu, jaima vu and would you would call am awakening, likean appintment with your innerself, time and space, very strange but although i was young (3 actually), it was such an intense experience it left a lasting memory of it. I had trust issues then - especially with myself.i didn't trust my own thoughts enough, sometimes i was so confused i had trouble distinguishing dreams from reality. I was often told, you must have dreamt it. To be honest i had thought i'd left all that behind me, i didn't like having the mental health tag. To be honest it did leave me feeling strange - like i needed to know more, i didn't understand what epilepsy was exactly, problem was the medical proffessions also couldn't enlighten me on my curiousity. They could offer a good explanation of the pgysical explanation of the illness but they could not explain peoples actual experiences and was still labelled as phenonema. Needing answers i descided to turn to history for help, I actually found out quite alot. I found out that it was something the prphet Mohammed possibly had and even Moses. 'Crikey' i thought to myself - is it possible 2 of the worlds largest religions are based on epileptic seizures, surely not. Then if so are the Mayan/Sumerian and Huindu religions more solid'. Remembering i do have an overactive imagination, i tried to banish the thoughts from plagueing me to much, It was when i went to get my medic alert that i actually got a flip in my stomach. There is was again - the snake. The symbol is called the caudicous. I looked it up - i know my curiosity got the better of me again, i just couldn't stop myself. To my amazement i found it was one of if not the words oldest symbol - also known as the rod of Hermes. I already knew who he was from my unquencable thirst for knowledge of the ancients, which i always had since as far back i i can remember. This was too Crazy. I made a descision there and then to end my obssesion with my new boyfriends condition, aliens and the ancients - before it made me into a real Mental Health Patient that needs instatutionlising. To help me back on the road to sanity, i joined a internet forum. It was a conspiracy site, which was great. I could take the thoughts that were whirling around in my head and get other peoples oppinions, Best thing was, as i was anonymous it was easy for me to share my concerns and worries as no-one knew me. If i was called crazy, it wouldn't really matter. They didn't though, call me crazy i mean. They actually settled my worries and cured my anxiety on the matter. I wasn't the only one, there were lots of people who had all kinds of experiences, but as we could talk them through, the worry went.
The year is now 2008 and i am still with love and love him more with each passing day. I had put my crazy thoughts to the back of my head and just got on with enjoying my new found freedom and the life i had always longed for back when i was brainwashed and controlled. I have to laugh at that you see, today he came home and told me about this new film that is due to be realeased next year called 2012. He was quite enthsiatic about its storyline and said it is will be directed by the same people who made Independance day and The day after Tomorrow. He enlightened me, telling me if was a fiction based on facts, artefacts and prophecy. He then to go on to tell me all about the Annukai and the Niburu myth that his freind had also mentioned when they had been discussing the film and the Mayan prohecy. Well if there was ever an oppotune moment for telling him my theory it was now or there was never probabably never was goning to be. i told him every little thought i had on it. He laughed when he found out i had not told him all these years, but understood why i hadn't. 'Well, i guess were just going to have to wait and see if this Niburu planet shows up then' he laughed. 'Well', i replied, 'only time shall tell'.



[edit on 20-12-2008 by MCoG1980]

Great story MCoG1980!! I was hooked from the jump. Sounds like this all really happened. Regardless of the interesting twists, my favorite part is that you actually were able to break from this controlling relationship. This is very difficult to do, especially at such a young age. Kudos to you. If you would like, you can read mine?? Haha It’s called ‘The Unit’ Best wishes

reply to post by TheDarkHorse


Thanks TDH,

The controlling relationship definately happened, but thankfully i can learn from my mistakes, if anything it made me stronger. It was alot of fiction thrown in with ickle bits of facts, Glad it read as though it all happened though

Sorry for the lack of paragraphing, like in real life, i dont know when to come up for air sometimes. It was my first go at writing, so it's given me a bit of a spur on to write some more, I'll try to remeber the paragraphing though

I'll be taking a look at your story, I'm intrigued