posted on Dec, 1 2008 @ 09:59 PM
This is going to be a long post (for me at least), please bare with me though, as what I am going to express is from my perspective.
Lot of us don't take the meds. What they have given me, I refuse to take. Never was one for pharms , and they don't cure a da mn thing. Some do
take theirs though, probably a placebo effect, or some thing. Who knows, but I doubt the medicated army will last long. This is just a new way for the
army to say they tried to give us treat ment and rehabilitation.
What I would like to know, is do these so called studies reflect the difference between combat arms vs non combat arms MOS's.
Because a few of my friends have mentioned how the "POGs"(pronouned with the o as in "oh" or Personnel Other than Grunts, as non combat MOS
soldiers are called by combat soldiers.),complain about dumb stuff, like guarding the gym or filling out paper work. While we were out getting hit by
IEDs and mortared or RPGed and shot at, they stayed on the FoB.
(Let me clarify this really fast. Not all soldiers are trained past basic level skill, in other words they havn't shot a rifle since basic, and
don't actively go out side the wire. These are cooks, laundry service, communications aka TOC bit ches and other jobs not related to direct
combat).
One guy had the nerve to say he was scared for his life in the dining facility when the FoB got mortared on the opposite side (about a half mile
away), but acted all tough later on. But complained of PTSD yet never saw action or dealt with seeing his buddies blown up, as the friends I mentioned
earlier have. I know this is fact because I was there and saw it with them...
Yet they don't complain or make a deal out of it, we just keep to our selves and wonder wtf is going on with everyone. How is it different for people
who have gone out the wire and been in the sh it, that much from those who never have. I can see possibly, soldiers who have been in combat being
suicidal because of the crap they have gone and go through.
Because many return back home (by home I mean the USA, in garrison) to be treated like a nobody, even though they "earned" their combat patch. It is
a game of favoritism back home, and many don't play games after being through so much. Medical gets put aside until the unit redeploys and gets a
screening. It was the same for me and dental, I only got into dental after a year of trying to make an appointment because of pre-deployment screening
SRP as it is called.
The people we talk to are either A "civilians" or B POGs who never deployed, yet both act like they are better, but their job is to help us, and
they don't.
Soldiers who do have psychological issues from TBI and real PTSD go to "restoration centers" to talk to a professional, yet wait a month or more to
do so. When they do, they get about an hour a month if that. Then prescribed the meds, which as mentioned earlier don't cure diddley.
What are soldiers to do, they are alienated from every one who didn't go through what they did, no one want to listen, and half the time the soldier
ain't going to talk to just any one about combat. It is too much to deal with every day, not sleeping and when sleep does come it is in one or two
hour fits.
Restless horror filled memories that no one should have, no amount of talking or meds will change that. This is why Nam, Korean, WWII and WWI vets
were known for not talking about it. Because it's one of those things you just don't talk about. Period, it cant be changed and nothing will make it
go away.
This is what I suspect happened to the suicides, they had more trouble than they could handle alone, and even though it is said the military has
medical. If you can get in to be seen is one thing hard enough, but the barely standard service is not even worth it.
My opinion is the soldiers need to be with other soldiers who have actually been in the tough situations. These are the ones who will under stand. A
program needs to be set up for soldiers by soldiers.
How ever, on the other side though is the non suicides, who I think have had good friends that were by each others side, even back home watching out
for each other. That is what helped me get through the last year, and I know it helped them as well.
I've said more than I should have, but if even this glimpse shows a fraction of what is going on, hopefully it helps one see that much.
It has been almost a year to the month since my unit has returned home, and this is the most I have mentioned about what we deal with, and it isn't
even all of it. Others have their side of things, so I will leave it at that.
Take it as you will, maybe one day the military will actually do what makes sense.