posted on Nov, 15 2008 @ 03:58 PM
(During my break I seem to have forgotten to give a post a relevant, catchy title lol..)
Sorry for the long post, I just went into a lot of detail on things that I did and things that began to ring true during this experience.
Dividing the day into 2 days (sleep wise) is very effective I would totally agree with that. Why do we settle for being tired, groggy, etc. in our
freetime when we require an obvious amount of sleep anyway timewise. Also going to sleep after work is like hitting the reset button. All that
stress and anger that slowly built up all day goes away. So I'd go to bed usually right after work and wake up and stay up through the night and
then catch about three hours before getting up for work. The AM is a very very quiet time for you to read and do your hobbies, it is very very
peaceful as well and nobody is going to call you or bother you, stuff like that.
Again it wasn't just that I turned off the internet. When I try to think about what I did, I was doing a whole lot of nothing and it's hard to
imagine how the time went by as fast as it did. Had a few good books I read and did dream recording (which can really start to take a long time after
a while lol).
What was very surprising to me was how this sense of peace/happiness sort of "cascades" into something even more concrete. Before you know it you
have this sort of grounded state of being. You feel like you are so far ahead of life (whether you are or are not), you aren't chasing anything and
every moment you seem to get more and more ahead. So in situations where I would in the past become frustrated with people easily, and really just
have to "be nice," during this time it seemed to be impossible to get me angry and very little bothered me on any level.
The way we act in our personal life really carries over into public life. You stop looking for something to "Entertain you" or stimulate your mind
and you find that we waste a lot of time just looking for something to entertain us. Once you stop that rat race you really really feel far ahead.
I really get a sense that this is basic Buddhism (It's at least 80% Buddhism) and the countless teachers (And posters here at ATS) who have told us
to live a simple life and be somewhat disciplined have got it all right as far as leading a life of peace and happiness. My understanding of the word
discipline changed for me during this, because now it just means "taking care of yourself." That's all they are doing (monks/teachers) when they
eat right and keep their house clean and don't go on a wild goose chase looking for something to entertain or shock their minds. Speaking of eating,
my diet was very simple. Macaroni (no cheese), rice, sandwiches. I still ate meat. I spent very little time preparing my food.
In dealing with emotional and psychological pain, almost none of it is necessary. It is all attachments that we place on it. I began to feel like I
could feel the base emotions of fear, sadness, depression perhaps. I felt the good ones too of course. But the basic emotion of fear is really not
that painful when seen for what it is (and allowed to BE what it is) the attachments are what are really making peoples lives emotionally difficult.
And happiness is so much better when you don't attach your ego needs to it and drag it down to your level.
I guess when you really start to realize how useless the EGO is, is when it really hits you. The ego is entirely useless. And if you do lose it, you
don't lose yourself. You just see yourself for what you are, and not some image that you have made up about yourself. Don't be afraid to lose it,
and it can come back anyway if you want it/let it!
These are things I realized. Things I had heard before, but for a little over a week, I lived them. Now I'm back to my junky old self, talk about
leading a horse to water but then he doesn't drink. I don't have many regrets but I would definetly recommend something like this for anyone. I
basically think I hit a "peak experience" much like Ken Wilber talks about in his stuff. I only mentioned the 2 hour lucid dream because after that
happened I really knew I was onto something.
If anyone is considering this all I have to say is "Go for it" But I would just try to do it for a good week or two and then back to normal.