Am I Awakening?

Ever since I can remember I have been amazed with anything to do with space or time or advanced things such as instant trasnsportation across space.


However things have been happening as of late that might suggest at a greater purpose, or maybe i'm just crazy. Within the past month i've felt that there is something im supposed to be doing, something ment just for me and no one else. I dont know what that something is, but it is frustrating at times. Now and then i'll find myself stopping in the middle of something and thinking that i was supposed to be doing something more important than what i was doing, but cant remember what i was supposed to do.

Sometimes random violent or terrifying images will appear in my thought from no where. For example, when reading around here at ATS lastnight i got a mental image of a creature's head manifesting itself from my screen and attacking me.

I've been developing a sence of empathy stronger than what i've ever noticed from anyone else. I've been finding myself feeling different emotions for no apparent reason. The most overwhelming of the emotions is fear. It isnt my fear, rather i feel as if im experiancing someone elses fear. With the fear comes along a sence of being watched over by an invisable being. I feel as if im in the same room with this being more and more frequently.

I thought of the possiblity that I've been developing paranoid schitzophrenia, but what doesnt make sence to me is that as far as ive been taught and insane person doesnt question thier sanity.

If anyone can explain anything, or offer me advice as to what i should be doing, please do not hesitate to reply

How old are you?
This could all be to do with age.

Originally posted by Xilvius
However things have been happening as of late that might suggest at a greater purpose, or maybe i'm just crazy. Within the past month i've felt that there is something im supposed to be doing, something ment just for me and no one else. I dont know what that something is, but it is frustrating at times. Now and then i'll find myself stopping in the middle of something and thinking that i was supposed to be doing something more important than what i was doing, but cant remember what i was supposed to do.

Tell me, is this a feeling as if you were born into this world for a purpose, to do something specific (as if you've been sent into the matrix to accomplish a special mission), but you're having trouble now remembering what that was suppose to be? (as if our earlier childhood indoctrination distracted us and made us forget what that might be?)

Do you sometimes find yourself on the verge of remembering what that might be, but then something always suddenly distracts you, and then you find that thought slipping away? (as if the matrix prevents us from remembering?)

Do you feel as if there is something terribly wrong with this world, as if there is some kind of grand deception going on, and you're being kept from remembering what that might be? And, if you could only remember, then you would know what your purpose might be?

Originally posted by PeaceUk
How old are you?
This could all be to do with age.

I've just turned 19 february of this year


as for feeling like i have something to do, i dont feel as if ive ever known what that something was, just within the last month(give or take a week) i've felt like this. I think of it as telling myself that there is a job to be done, not someone else commanding me to do something.


I've yet to even come close to figure out what this something is, i only know that whatever i am supposed to be doing is for the benefit of something much larger than myself.

I feel as if it isnt a memory that will tell me what to do, but more of a future event that will trigger something. At that moment i will know exactly what must be done. I cannot escape the feeling of horrible things to come, but i am also positive that no harm will come to myself.
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Youre not going crazy..i think. Ive noticed the same feelings moreso the last few months, like im in control of my entire world but an unseen hand is there. not god,but something else.

As for the uncontrolled emotions, youre not alone. Sometimes when i reading historical text I'll get an intense emotion go up my spine and see images. they aren't my thoughts but i feel a connection; its hard to describe.

Read and expand your mind as MUCH as you can. open yourself up to as many ideas as you can.

see you on the other side

I think many people are suddenly awakening, it's like a shift in time or space. Like they say the effects of pluto coming in to play.

Deception, illiusion, fantasy, parnoia and spirtualism. People will all suddenly feel this somehow in the coming of the age.

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you are a cusp Cap/aquarian just a thought to say to you.

Many people with sun in aquarius or aspects in aquarius usuallly feel this awakening now.
We are in the age of aquarius now, and people with aquarius in their sign are usually the people who are the forerunners with wisdom and inspiration to this age imo. I'm not an expert on this But.. Just giving my thoughts.

But an example of someone who is in aquarian and is very enlightened. Oprah winfery. Shes an aquarian. And is very inspiring and has much wisdom.

Yesterday I had gone out for a walk as an attempt to relax. I decided to stop by my friends house for a moment. No sooner did my foot step threw his door i was overwhelmed with the sensation that i was going to fall upwards. The feeling was so strong it made me sick with disorentation and i had to leave.

Another oddity which occurs on and off is a fear of passing threw doorways, regardless if it has a door or not. This only appear to happen to me anywhere between the hours of 1 am - 3am eastern time.

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It's alot to do with your age, your very young. As so as I. Im 22 turning 23 this year.
My abilties are well tuned too, but I could say at 19 I knew not as much as I know now, as with the complications of being 19.

It sounds like you need to relax. Don't read into it too much. Except the hunches, don't get bogged down by it. Everything happens for a reason.

Do you meditate? All I have to say is schizophrenia is not always insanity. Just seriously try meditation before you go to extremes of medication suggested by doctors.

I ran away when I was 15 because they were trying to say I was schizo(parents had me arrested so that medication would be a court order); I knew inside I was not, I found meditation in colorado, and I returned about three years later to AZ to explain to my parents how a Shaman's advice healed me. (I healed myself through understanding)

So again, my advice is meditate, and go with the flow. stay positive, everything happens for a good reason.

And if you discover you have some awesome ability or something, keep quiet and use it for healing or helping fellow man.

if all else fails, see a doc.