posted on Dec, 7 2002 @ 03:15 AM
Quiet Prophet,
Everyone is spiritually important - don't delude yourself into thinking that because you have encountered signs (and only you can know for sure if
they are signs from God or not) that you are more spiritually important than anyone else. As a student of the divine mysteries, I will venture to give
you a few lessons I learned early on in my studies.
First off, you are, like everyone else on the planet, subservient to God. Whether we believe in Him or not, obey His laws or not, we are all
created, imperfect beings that are answerable to the Creator, the one perfect being. Rich or poor, free or slave, beneath His greatness
we are all of the same stature. Recieving a sign, believing in God, following His most perfect laws, giving away all your earthly possessions, and
comforting the poor and needy are a really, really good start to achieve the kingdom of heaven - but even if you did all of this you would still be
unworthy of the kingdom of heaven.
Why aren't you worthy? Because, like the rest of us, you are still, and will always be, a sinner. You lie about your real earnings on your tax forms;
or maybe you sometimes have lusty thoughts about a co-worker or occasionally look at internet porn. You rarely swear (but you still do), and
you drive to work every day, adding your two bits to our insane asylum society's unconscious campaign to destroy the environment. All you can
possibly hope to do is to do your best to follow God's most perfect laws and pray that He forgives you and your fellow men for the times that
we falter.
Christ was the only man, ever, to live God's law. The prophets that came before Jesus were like "thieves and robbers" when compared with Him - they
were all sinners, just like you and me. Only through Christ's sacrifice at Golgotha was salvation possible. Salvation because, during His last moment
on Earth, He experienced doubt: "E'-li, E'-li la'-ma sa-bach'-tha-ni? that is to say, MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?" In
those last moments the vision was removed, He became a man like you and me; he felt the distance to God that we feel, the alienation. He cried out to
God in desperation, and the heart of desperation is hope. Knowing doubt first hand, He took to God His understanding of our condition - our blindness
to the spiritual realities which begets doubt - and pleaded our case before God. The testimony of Christ on our behalf resulted in the lenience we now
refer to as "Grace" - the withholding of judgement until all of us have had a chance to prove ourselves worthy of the kingdom of heaven - and
"Forgiveness" - the removal of sin from the souls of men (who, every one, is a sinner) so that we might become worthy.
Grace and Forgiveness has been given to all men, from Mother Theresa to Adolf Hitler, Mahatma Gandhi to David Rockefeller.
I am beginning to ramble, so I'll sum it all up with this:
Quiet Prophet, it's great that God has given you some signs to come to Him. But don't ask for "bigger and better" signs; the ones you've been
given are quite sufficient. Besides, "be careful what you (pray) for", you might not like what you get. A better prayer than "bigger and better
signs" might be something along the lines of:
"Lord, forgive me and my fellow man. Increase my faith and my knowledge of You. I am overjoyed that You have chosen me to be Your servant on Earth.
Please guide me on the course You have set for me. May Your work, through me, please You. Though I am wholly unworthy of your love, I crave it more
than anything man or angel can provide. Thy will be done. Amen."
QP, I'm glad God's speaking with you. I'll be praying for you tonight.
May God Guide and Protect You,
Savonarola