Controlling empathy

Empaths must learn to feel the emotions without letting them dictate their actions. When I was younger I basically blocked all emotions (including mine) and that caused other problems.

I know what it's like to walk into a room and get that sick feeling in the chest. It's times like that where we can help lighten the mood. In some cases however, I get an intense throbbing in my inner ears, at which point I just need to go outside and take a break.

Empathy can be painful, but it is a gift. When you can sense what someone else is feeling/thinking, it gives you an opportunity to help them, whereas others would be oblivious. Developed properly, it offers a strong sense of fulfillment. We're usually easy to get along with too.

Main thing is though, don't associate negative emotions to your self-esteem. I can't stress that enough. Depression is a dark pit hard to dig out of. Been there, done that.

My empathy has seemed to increase alote latley and with it my awareness that the way things are are completely screwed up and I see that things are giong to change and it has made me very irratable and sometimes quite emotional towards others as they just dont get it in my opinion. My friends and family eat, drink, and waste thier time on making money and accumulating more crap as thier bodies and spirits dwindle and it really saddens me I even had to quite college and I am now trying to prove to myself and others just what the human spirit is capable of and I am trying to do qigong and meditate enough to adapt my body to higher vibrations in order to truly harness these energies and hopefully use them to survive and help others survive the coming emotional chaos. I know it sounds pretty hooky but I dont think I can go back to being normal. So yeah i think you are probably not giong to have much of a choice in coming to terms with these things and beleive me you are just begining to stumble onto some of the potentials that the human body holds. I have encountered a few people that have gone weeks without eating and usually only eat one small meal of tofu a week when they are not fasting to keep them grounded. other things I have heard about but havent proven to myself are teleportation and bi-location and completely living off of pure energy. remote diagnosis and healing abilities are also possible but I havent expereinced them fully. Although I did heal my mom of Food poisoining (3 jerking movements kinda freaked me out) I think the key is adapting the body slowly to adjust to these new energies as the more you adjust into them the stronger they get and the more energy you get you really have to learn to trust your feelings and do what needs to be done to nourish these potentials as its important in my opinion.

This is making sense to me.

The only problem is that the past couple years have been unbelievably stressful for myself. It involves my life beliefs, friends, business, social problem and family. I use to be full of energy, spirit, and love but now I am in darkness with my guilty conscious. I am very sensitive to negative influences such as politics, religion, society, etc. I feel that we need unity to overcome this perversed influencial world.

My downfall is that I feel I have betrayed God, I have prophesized in a manner I thought was rightoues(in the eyes of God) but instead I found a devastating downfall (a type of curse). I fell into this curse myself and I believe my ability is the curse.The upside is that I see this as a test of faith or a growing process. I want to harness this ability for the benefit of myself and those in need.

The problem right now is that I am projecting negative feelings/thoughts towards people,even my parents, and it is very difficult to control. I keep telling myself to mind my own business.

Isnt there some sort of school for this. Like x-men or something????

Originally posted by lseekingtruthl
My downfall is that I feel I have betrayed God, I have prophesized in a manner I thought was rightoues(in the eyes of God) but instead I found a devastating downfall (a type of curse).

could you explain what this means a little more I dont know if I get it. thanks

Originally posted by priloco

Originally posted by lseekingtruthl
My downfall is that I feel I have betrayed God, I have prophesized in a manner I thought was rightoues(in the eyes of God) but instead I found a devastating downfall (a type of curse).

could you explain what this means a little more I dont know if I get it. thanks

when my faith was super strong, for some reason I randomly picked a page out of the bible and it went to Jeremiah 23. This was about 4 years ago and only a year and a half ago I wrote this poem, which in my mind was righteous in the eyes of God, but only acouple days ago discovered its curse. I do not wish for anyone else to read it so I will post the safe version.

Actually, I should not even post it. I am sorry.

Originally posted by Kruel
Empaths must learn to feel the emotions without letting them dictate their actions. When I was younger I basically blocked all emotions (including mine) and that caused other problems.

I know what it's like to walk into a room and get that sick feeling in the chest. It's times like that where we can help lighten the mood. In some cases however, I get an intense throbbing in my inner ears, at which point I just need to go outside and take a break.

Empathy can be painful, but it is a gift. When you can sense what someone else is feeling/thinking, it gives you an opportunity to help them, whereas others would be oblivious. Developed properly, it offers a strong sense of fulfillment. We're usually easy to get along with too.

Main thing is though, don't associate negative emotions to your self-esteem. I can't stress that enough. Depression is a dark pit hard to dig out of. Been there, done that.

Maybe im not an empath but I do sense others awareness and they DEFINATELY sense mine. However, I do read people very well by their movements/actions and tone of voice, etc.

I also feel that I can project certain thoughts into peoples minds, for now they only seem to be projected when im in distress.

[edit on 21-8-2007 by lseekingtruthl]

reply to post by Il Papa


Hi, I'm a 23 yr old single mother. My mom just sent me a link to this page and i'm just tryin to figure it out. Anyway, I was reading alot of your posts and I feel so strongly for all the words you say that I get a lump in my throat. I'm not the best at explaning my feelings, but I feel it alll!!!! I'm hyper/overly sensitive! I feel the same ways when I walk into a room. I really need guidance and just reading everyones posts makes me feel so much better.
I'm not one to think that I only suffer, but when It's made out so clearly as this, I feel warm and sooo relieved. I've been told to get selfish and channel it out.
Sometimes i do think it's a curse but most of the time I feel as if it's a gift. Like all gifts you have to learn to control them. ?? For you Il Papa - SitsinShadow .. this post/comment is for you. Again, I should say i'm sleepy and really would LOVE if I could give you my email address of something of that sort. Although I'm sure we can repost on this board as well. I'm very open. I want to understand this all and help others aswell. I have so much more to say. I just had to see if I could post this right the first time.

PS. I really enjoyed reading all of your posts and if this reaches someone else, sorry for the mishap.

Originally posted by lseekingtruthl
This is making sense to me.

The only problem is that the past couple years have been unbelievably stressful for myself. It involves my life beliefs, friends, business, social problem and family. I use to be full of energy, spirit, and love but now I am in darkness with my guilty conscious. I am very sensitive to negative influences such as politics, religion, society, etc. I feel that we need unity to overcome this perversed influencial world.

My downfall is that I feel I have betrayed God, I have prophesized in a manner I thought was rightoues(in the eyes of God) but instead I found a devastating downfall (a type of curse). I fell into this curse myself and I believe my ability is the curse.The upside is that I see this as a test of faith or a growing process. I want to harness this ability for the benefit of myself and those in need.

The problem right now is that I am projecting negative feelings/thoughts towards people,even my parents, and it is very difficult to control. I keep telling myself to mind my own business.

Isnt there some sort of school for this. Like x-men or something????

IDK, but maybe you're forcing yourself to feel this way. You feel you've betrayed God, now you feel you need some sort of penance to make up for it. The subconcious is more powerful than most believe. This would cause an endless cycle of negativity to exude from you. The only way I can suggest to break it is to come to the realization that any God you believe in will forgive you for anything you may have done. Negativity is an oppressive weight that will keep dragging you down until you can't take it any more.

There is no school to teach this kind of thing. Self-realization and self-exploration are the only things that help. You obviously are exploring your psyche. Now you need to let your mistakes go and learn and grow from them.

Originally posted by keymaster

Originally posted by lseekingtruthl
This is making sense to me.

The only problem is that the past couple years have been unbelievably stressful for myself. It involves my life beliefs, friends, business, social problem and family. I use to be full of energy, spirit, and love but now I am in darkness with my guilty conscious. I am very sensitive to negative influences such as politics, religion, society, etc. I feel that we need unity to overcome this perversed influencial world.

My downfall is that I feel I have betrayed God, I have prophesized in a manner I thought was rightoues(in the eyes of God) but instead I found a devastating downfall (a type of curse). I fell into this curse myself and I believe my ability is the curse.The upside is that I see this as a test of faith or a growing process. I want to harness this ability for the benefit of myself and those in need.

The problem right now is that I am projecting negative feelings/thoughts towards people,even my parents, and it is very difficult to control. I keep telling myself to mind my own business.

Isnt there some sort of school for this. Like x-men or something????

IDK, but maybe you're forcing yourself to feel this way. You feel you've betrayed God, now you feel you need some sort of penance to make up for it. The subconcious is more powerful than most believe. This would cause an endless cycle of negativity to exude from you. The only way I can suggest to break it is to come to the realization that any God you believe in will forgive you for anything you may have done. Negativity is an oppressive weight that will keep dragging you down until you can't take it any more.

There is no school to teach this kind of thing. Self-realization and self-exploration are the only things that help. You obviously are exploring your psyche. Now you need to let your mistakes go and learn and grow from them.

Thank you for yout response.

Possibly, I have unconsciously done this to myself. BUT, I have realized that there is a force/mental power that we can all tap into. This force I have discovered is driven by extreme emotions mixed with a hightened awareness. Maybe it is the intuitive, someones looking at me, sense but I believe I have taken a step above that and actually tapped into it and expanded it beyond "the look." For some reason I feel that this is in the same category as projecting thoughts and/or emotions.

Thank you again for your response , it is definately a relief for you to point that out.

Edit: My new goal is to work on positive thinking, wish me luck!

[edit on 23-8-2007 by lseekingtruthl]

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Nice post. I liked the positive aspect that you gave for this empathy thing.
I never thought of it as clairsentience though, what I mean is I have heard of the term but never put two and two together!!

Upon reflection, looking back through life, I have been aware of things but have never really thought of what was going on. I meet many people in my job, of many cultures and races and I must say that I do not seem to have the issues that others guys seem to have, with the same people. I thought it was because I project a smile from the inside, kind of Chi Kung style I suppose, to people. So alone with a smile externally, I assume that they feel more at ease.

I have had occasions when I know someone is "angry" but I don't take it personally and so far I seem to be able to diffuse the situation, which on occasions has surprised me. Equally, I have known when people are "in need of a hug" so to say. But I have found this frustrating because with our cultural climate and social attitudes, this can't be done for fear of being locked up!!

But I take what you say about using it as a tool for good. Sometime back a psychic gentleman did say I could be great healer because of this empathy. He said some other things that I blanked out because I did not believe in this new era, paranormal thing. But now I am wondering.

I have had the feeling for a few years now, that I am waiting for something, maybe this is it?

It is now just a matter of differentiating my feelings from the rest!!
The last few years have been emotionally overwhelming and I now believe that empathy may be part of the problem. I have been to places and have felt tears in my eyes, lumps in my throat, a sickness in the stomach/solar plexus. Sometimes, I am not aware of others even being present!!

Thanks again for that post..stuff to think about!!

reply to post by BrilliantMadness


Hi friend,

What you say about explaining your feelings, I get what you mean. I think forestlady had it right when she said that our modern vocabluary doesn't have the words for it. I know some cultures have words for things that don't exist in English, because they experience things culturally early in their lives and get the idea / concept that way. I suppose its kind of like trying to explain snow to someone who has only lived in a desert and who rarely even sees water!!

This thread has been a good one for me. There seems to be a lot said of all the other paranormal fields but rarely do I find anything relating to empathy that really means anything, to me. Like you, I have found a kind of relief knowing that there are others out there and it has been good to relate experiences.

I think like you I have been channeling it out but I do seem to go from crisis to crisis I think at this stage in my life, I am lucky enough to get away from too many humans and so I can "recharge" myself at weekends as I have said before. So I have become "lazy" and don't feel the need to do much else to counter the empathy!!

However, as I am becoming more and more aware of what may be happening, I am now understanding what affects empathy may be having on me. I know that when I go into a big city, especially if I have to stay overnight, I can't wait to get out of the city. I have always said to people its like I can feel my soul "evaporating". But I must admit if I take the time to meditate, focus, ground and protect or whatever my survival is better!! Now whether these things actually work or whether it is all placebo I am not sure...but it seems to do the business.

It really hit me when you said that you are hyper/over sensitive...thats me!! But you are doing well...you have spotted the traits earlier than I did!! I think it could be so easy for the emotions to trip our state into mental illness...not a place I want to go...

The real eye opener for me was that person who walked straight up to me and asked if I was empathic!! I know she knew what I was thinking/feeling and to me, obviously knew I was having trouble dealing with my "over emotional state"...she said "You must learn to control your emotions...they could destroy you...". She said a few other things about my traits, I was knocked out by what she said / done.

I now realise that she could use this "gift" to an amazing degree... probably with a bit of telepathy thrown in I was surprised she gave no real guidance but to be honest I don't think she could. Her gift runs in her family and she was brought up knowing how to use it....she is not native to my homeland (Britain) and in her culture they are open to such things.

She did however suggest martial arts, as she said that you can express emotion through the human body? I must admit I like to keep fit and thought that any emotional / mind benefits were merely the result of the body releasing endorphins. Come to think about it, most of my overemotional states have occured when work has prevented me from exercising for long periods!! Maybe that can keep you grounded too?

I am kind of enthusiastic that there is a use for this empathy thing and it seems to the most part that we have to learn its use ourselves. But it is definitely useful to read others experiences.

This is one of those things that you can go on about for ages so for now,

Goodbye and thanks

lseekingtruthl, Buddhism has much to offer in the way of techniques to discipline your mind and externalize emotion. In particular I recommend the book "The Places That Scare You", by Pema Chodron.

Like you and others in this thread, I am hyper-empathic. As a result, I hate riding on the bus or being in elevators. All I see are sad, angry faces. Of course I don't think it is me they are concerned about, but I absorb everything.

Depression has overwhelmed me since childhood because of this gift/curse and more recently I have used psychic shielding, yoga, meditation, and even diet to deal with my sponge-like emotions.

On the upside, I can suss out problems in people very quickly (like in the workplace) and I believe it makes me a caring mother. Showing my son empathy has allowed him to express his feelings verbally and show his own sense of empathy as well.

Currently I am using the awareness that most people are scared. They say and do unfortunate things out of fear with self-preservation / avoiding death as they main goal(s). Next is to "cure what is" and work on the now, and lastly, see everyone through eyes of compassion.

Originally posted by serpentine7
lseekingtruthl, Buddhism has much to offer in the way of techniques to discipline your mind and externalize emotion. In particular I recommend the book "The Places That Scare You", by Pema Chodron.

Like you and others in this thread, I am hyper-empathic. As a result, I hate riding on the bus or being in elevators. All I see are sad, angry faces. Of course I don't think it is me they are concerned about, but I absorb everything.

Depression has overwhelmed me since childhood because of this gift/curse and more recently I have used psychic shielding, yoga, meditation, and even diet to deal with my sponge-like emotions.

On the upside, I can suss out problems in people very quickly (like in the workplace) and I believe it makes me a caring mother. Showing my son empathy has allowed him to express his feelings verbally and show his own sense of empathy as well.

Currently I am using the awareness that most people are scared. They say and do unfortunate things out of fear with self-preservation / avoiding death as they main goal(s). Next is to "cure what is" and work on the now, and lastly, see everyone through eyes of compassion.

Thank you, these types of responses are making me feel more at ease and out of complete confusion. I do not want to hide this ability and theories I have, so today I spilled the whole thing unto one of my friends but I feel that she is now a bit frieghtened and unsure of my situation. Today I went out, unlike most days at my house(because of my fear of peoples reactions). Well I went to taco bell and I guess I was projecting my awareness towards the workers and one of them called me crazy....... I guess this type of projecting is quite annoying but it seems really difficult to control. You know when you are out minding your own business when you suddenly feel someone looking at you? Well, right now I have a problem of projecting that without even looking at people.

I also signed up for therapy to see if I have any problems.

Originally posted by Il Papa
reply to post by BrilliantMadness

 

It really hit me when you said that you are hyper/over sensitive...thats me!! But you are doing well...you have spotted the traits earlier than I did!! I think it could be so easy for the emotions to trip our state into mental illness...not a place I want to go...

The scary part is that I keep thinking and thinking which is ultimately making me feel mentally ill. I know that being mentally ill is a self illusion from reality, maybe to hide the truth. This is something I have been fighting and everytime I think too much, I have to almost slap myself out of it. It is most disturbing.

Edit: I believe that this is cause by my interchanging beliefs on life. I am touching on the very foundation of my balance in life way too much. I keep jumping religions but have discovered that they all have the same Loving God, just different conditions.

I hope I have it right.

[edit on 24-8-2007 by lseekingtruthl]

Hi lseekingtruthl,

I have myself at times felt that I may be on the verge of mental illness. After some very bad life events I was really struggling and could not sleep.
This went on for about a year and I genuinely look back and wonder how I survived. At times I seemed to go for days without sleep and over the year know I was suffering from sleep deprivation. I felt that I was mentally out of control, my emotions all over the place and knew, from life experience that I was on the way to depression..at the very least.

I had no place for new age ideas so I went to my Doctor who immediately prescribed pills, just as I was telling him that I do not want drugs, he said take the prescription anyway just in-case and basically signed me off for a few months, gave me some leaflets, a self diagnosis sheet and an appointment in a fortnights time.

I tried meditation but was not too successful, my brain is always active thinking of stuff. On the Internet I found some Bin-Aural beat CDs and tried those. They work by synchronising your brainwaves. I thought it was new age clap trap...but they worked. The CDs I had were for different tasks and one basically helped compensate for my lack of sleep. They were so effective that I started to go to bed with them and slept soundly.

They got me through the year and somehow I did survive I don't know how! This was when I started to get interested in the paranormal. Now don't be scared or think me insane but there was a "byproduct" of listening to the CDs. When meditating I started to see faces and shapes, stone tablets all kinds of things. Voices would talk to me and make me jump, they were in my head. I would get weird feelings and if I "dozed" off it was as if someone was trying to enter my body through my shoulders/throat. None of it was frightening but it made me jump

When I slept I would wake up talking to my ex-partner...who was still asleep..I would put the light on and look round the room to see who I had talked to!! I had amazingly real dreams, I had whooshing, popping, accelerating sensations that ended up with me above my bed and other strange experiences away from home.

A while back there was something I called flash or sparky. This was a mischievous spark of light that was with me a lot of the time. It started during meditation on my right side peripheral vision and would gradually jump in front of my vision, so quick it would make me jump. There was always a feeling of warmth like a warm hug/cuddle. I always felt happy when it was about.

It started to appear during the day, I would be talking to clients and my gaze would jump to my right, they often remarked about it, "You alright?". I saw a few eye specialists, because I had eye problems years ago (nothing like this though) I kept an eye on my eyes (pun intended) but there was nothing wrong.

All these experiences as wonderful as they were, I found distracting, so I stopped meditating and using the CDs. I found to be honest that life had settled down and I was content and the CDs had done their work. The visions, voices and experiences stopped eventually. The only thing is, about a year or so later a friend passed away and I was emotionally down, with a crap, unsupportive partner. But the sparky thing and warm hug returned for a month or two. A psychic has told me it was just to let me know that I am not alone!

So you see you can that meditation can help but don't over do it. I think really like the song says you got to love yourself. Feel positive about yourself and project it out. I think that like me you are looking for answers, the boards here are a useful source but I kind of pick and mix, I don't fall for all of it.

I think as has been said you can't go wrong with meditating and grounding. I do meditate on and off now and when I do I always think and project love, light, healing and peace to the world and anyone that needs it. Working on the selfish principle that like attracts like.

BrilliantMadness

I think that many things can seem a curse until we understand them. There is good and bad in most things I think. I don't like pain but it is really a friend..it stops us putting our hand in the fire or lets us know we have been physically injured.

But with pain we can locate it. Our emotional pain is harder to trace. It seems as empaths that we must first learn to differentiate between our emotion and others...or as you say selfishly shut it out.

I am learning all the time myself and value any input and you say you have more to say, if you are not comfortable posting here check your U2Us

You are right - I still have problems figuring out where emotions are coming from, and I have a really hard time catching myself and realizing if it's someone else's emotions.

But sometimes my moods will change drastically.

I do consider it a gift, something I can use to help others, even if it is just giving someone a person to listen to them vent. It can, however, harm you if you don't guard yourself. Meaning, you'll feel others' emotions and get emotional and stressed out yourself. Not to mention, irritable, cranky or tired.

Which brings me to something else... do any of you other empaths in here have people (even complete strangers) come up and tell you their problems, or vent a lot? It's almost like they can sense that I'm empathic, or something, and I sure as hell don't tell them. Most of the time, I'm quiet, do my own thing, and mind my own business. Yet people I don't know well will come up to me and vent.

And... this is another way in which it gets hard. Because you're listening to other people's problems, and you happen to have your own problems to deal with, all the negativity combined, from your feelings and theirs, is really overwhelming. And I often feel like I should keep things held in, and it usually seems like while others want me to listen to them (which I do), they don't seem interested in giving me a listening ear. And so it gets held in until I explode...

Anyone else have that problem?

reply to post by MinHawk


Never thought of it that way but you are right, well as far as I am concerned. I always seem to get the "train loony" etc come up and talk to me..in the street etc. But I have always assumed that I was just their target/victim at that articular time...that is they talk to anyone during the day. I have had people say I am easy to talk to and one old lady said I have a "kind face"

But i don't know if it is because I am naturally talkative so find it easy to make conversation, whereas others would shut them off? My demeanour is not always like that thought. there are times something tells me not to engage in conversation!!

I have just realised that in company I do talk a lot and have always assumed it a defence mechanism, its hard for others to ask questions if you won't stop talking!! But it occurs to me that maybe it is defensive, but the constant yapping is a subconscious method of diverting my emotions in the now, away. I must admit I can be exhausted at the end of a day from all that talking, yet physically I could get straight home and run miles??

Thanks, this have given me something else to think about. I have wondered why I talk so much to strangers and they to me. I would have thought that my protection mechanism would be to keep quiet, say nothing and get out of there as soon as possible. As I have said I look forward to the weekends to charge my batteries, hug a tree, meditate or something.

You are so right about the lack of a friends listening ear. One reason, on reflection, that I live where I am is because I have been hunted down sometimes at 2 or 3 in the morning by a friend in need. Don't get me wrong I like to help but generally they won't help themselves. I sense that they have already decided what they are going to do, they just want your backing/blessing.

I know that people have said that I have a different take on things, I come at problems from a different angle...maybe that's why they turn up. Now I live with my friends and family a long way away and loving it. I can give as much guidance on the phone but I can unplug that. My move seems drastic but as I have said in other posts...I was so emotionally overwhelmed that something was gonna give...and my spirit was determined it was not going to be me!!

You mention changing moods. I think our emotional state is linked to moods one way or the other so I now put moodiness down to "external" emotional influences. I am by nature a kind, genuine, gregarious, affable sort of bloke..and nearly always so. I am pacifist to the point of frustration to others. I have contradictions...I think all life is sacred I will not harm an ant, wasp, fly anything but occasionally eat meat. ( although more accurately I find all non plant life sacred:lol

I have over the years wondered what was going on, when for no reason my mood would change. I would walk in a room happy as Larry and minutes later I can almost feel despair. Its not my immediate company, I can remember when I was young at a shin dig, there was a girl that I took a shine to and we got on very well. She seemed to be everything right there in one package but instead of being up and happy, I could feel a queasiness and a feeling I did not want to be there. I made my excuses and left...without her number!! I walked home and after about 20 minutes I felt fine again. I got home and couldn't understand what had happened. Friends afterwards keep on going on about this girl and how I must be mad to "blow her out". I must say I have had many similar experiences throughout life and you do sometimes wonder if it is a mental illness


Yes the negativity builds up, I think thsts why so many here advocate meditation, grounding and shielding.

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With reference to grounding, It is weird but I just remembered that I now carry a small piece of Obsidian in my pocket and every now and then I wash it in running water and ask it to take negativity away. On top of that I now use white sage smudge sticks and ask white light and positive energy in and to keep negativity out.

I don't know if it is placebo but it seems to be working for the last five months or so.

I do find it strange but it seems that negative emotions are more easily picked up or realised by me. Is it just me? I mean I can walk in a room full of love but I seem to pick up the old misery in the corner. Is it because love can only be shared by those targeted by it? Or is it like attracts like, that I am fooling myself that I am a happy bloke? Or is it because we are less aware of happy feelings because we like them, that is happy feelings are nothing to be alarmed by but bad feelings could be the sign of a life threatening situation?

I shall have to go back through the posts I am sure I mentioned this elsewhere.

Nice thread this

THank you il papa for the awsome advices.

I have another experience to share today. Yesterday I went camping alone to practice meditation and qigong. I found a nice secluded spot and started to practice qigong (someone recommended), I actually felt pretty energized and less tense after about 10-15 mins of doing it. Then acouple rowdy guys camped right next to me, I couldnt see them but only hear them. I guess they saw me doing qigong and immediately assumed I was a nutt. I unwillingly channeled towards them and they DEFINATELY felt it. They started to get so agitated that they started to contemplate hurting me. It was pretty disturbing to hear them say all that crap. During this time, I was in my tent just reading a book called "The Art of Happiness." I know it was my fault that I kept channeling towards them and that was the reason for their building up hate for me.

There was only one person that said to leave me alone and I am relieved that atleast one of them have a good sense. Well after he said that, his friends just said that he was scared. I wanted to go out there and tell them that im trying manage my ability but I knew it would do no good.

So, eventually I went to a deserted camp area and relaxed. It was awsome.... I guess I am afraid of people right now because of the odd/hostile responses I get from some people. I know I am the odd one out of society but obviously because they lack the understanding on the issue. Around the time the sun was going down, a man in his motorcycle came and pitched a tent near me. I was alittle anxious so I decided to say hello. He was a nice guy and I tried my best to not disturb him, mentally. The next morning he mentioned the sounds of meteorites breaking the sound barrier all night. I personally thought it was the sound of guns going off but his explaination seemed a bit more convincing.

Soon after he left, there was acouple people parked next to me. I was telling myself to relax and just read but I know I channeled towards them. I was in my tent the whole time and never took one look at one of them but while they walked past my tent they said ooga booga and something about being scared.

This is a really annoying ability and I know I can only control it through discipline; meditation, qigong, etc. I just thought I would share.

I am definately open to more advice!!