It is scary stuff.
The thing about God and sinning is, and this is my interpretation alone, Jesus came to Earth, and was crucified to cleanse us ALL of our sins. In my
belief, Jesus say's I'm already forgiven for what I've done and what I will do before my time is up. No sweat to Jesus, eh?
Here's the rub.
It is also my belief that my Judgement before God, Jesus, all the Saints and everyone ever involved someway in my life, will be the hardest thing to
witness because the Judgement will have to come from myself. I have to forgive myself of all my sins.
That is going to be very difficult because at this time, there are sins I've commited that
I don't think I can forgive myself for.
Now, since coming to this realization, I've conducted my life very differently. I clutch tightly to The Golden Rule. I conduct myself in a manner
that I think would make Jesus say "Right on! That was class!" And maybe, just maybe, I can weigh these all out in Judgement, when it comes, and say
"Yeah, that was bad. But, I recognized it AS bad and changed my life to where it wouldn't happen again." I hope, when it becomes time, I CAN
forgive myself. As it stands, I've received forgiveness from the individuals I've hurt. I've received forgiveness from God, through his Son's
sacrifice.
I'm a harsh Judge though. I'm known to my friends and family as a person with NO problem telling it like it is, as I see it. So, when it comes
time, I'm gonna crash my own party, so to speak.
Then, if I pass muster, I can contemplate all of life's mysteries because if I pass the muster, I'll have all those answers.
"The decisions we make, dictate the life we lead".
Danny DeVito said that in the movie "Renaissance Man". It always stuck with me because it's a good analogy. I'm interested in the subject matter
in ATS. It intrigues me. I have family ties with all sorts of actual conspiracies. I notice more and more stuff that makes so much sense it truely
scares the bejeesus out of me. But if Douglas Adams taught me anything, it was "Don't Panic". I'm not going to go freaking out on anything like
the End of the World or Foriegn Invasions or Big Brother because it went on before, and it will go on long after I'm gone and frankly it's fun to
watch some of the skittish folk here panic instead. Saves me the energy.
Hang out on ATS. Take EVERYTHING with a grain of salt. Maybe investigate on your own, some of the stuff that really pulls at you. And just don't
freak out.
Be cool brother,
Cuhail
P.S. Secret Societies DO exist. And I think 90% of what you hear about ANY secret society is probably exaggerated or fabricated. If they told, it
would just be a "Society". Am I right?