All alone..

Oh my god... What was I thinking in that last little rambling bit there? :|.. Seriously, these meds were just kicking in.. And I took more than the prescribed amount, due to the fact that I have a really high tolerance towards any drugs.. I'm snapping out of it now, but wow.. That just makes me look stupid..

Hi Mad, I agree with Asala, perhaps Aikido (karate) would be a good choice.
I wish I had had access to a site like this when I was your age.A life line.

Later on I was a sailor, loneliness was an occupational hazard. I decided at one point to embrace it. That helped.
I do think though we have neglected our human "togetherness", we have emphasized the individual forgetting our responsibility for each other.
Take Care
WIS

I'm not the type of person who just up and one day decided I want to be the Karate Kid.. :shk:

I'ts just not on my list of interests. I'm also not the type of person who's going to play pokemon all day either.. I guys when I meet the right people, i'll start to build a little more confidence socially. But i'm sure that's going to be a while.. Not many people want to hang out with the weird guy.. Even with my little "crew" of friends, not one of them called me for a party. Not one of them included me on anything fun.. I mean, they knew where I was, they knew how to contact me. Maybe i'm just not an enjoyable person to be around. There was atleast one person who could see things my way. The others were questionable, friendship wise that is. Oh well. As Kurt Cobain said. "I would rather be hated for who I am, then be loved for who i'm not".

I guess i'm sort of a pescimist by nature.

Madseason,

I can relate to how you feel. I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) so it is hard for me to get out and be social as well.

You mentioned that you take some online classes. Is there a college campus nearby where you could maybe take one or two courses? That's always a good start. If you don't have a job, maybe you could get a part-time one where people your age hang out like coffee shops, record stores, the mall, etc. Even if you don't make a lot of friends, at least you're putting yourself out there and talking to people instead of being home alone all the time. You gotta keep yourself busy instead of being alone with those kind of thoughts, seriously. Even if it just means going out to Wal-Mart or something and checking out the DVD section.

I don't know. Maybe I am misunderstanding what you are saying. But I feel terrible that you feel so alone because I know how that feels. If you ever need to talk about anything, please feel free to U2U me.

I do work.. I talk to people here and there, but when it comes down to me saying what's to them while with their friends, I always get the "hey" and then completely ignored. I never said I don't try, but when I do... I guess it takes time..

It's been a couple of weeks or so since my last post on ATS. I've just sorta drug my feet around the house for that time. Listened to some music and just thought alot. I didn't really want to do anything, and the flu didn't help much either. But yeah. My cousin stopped by for a few days, it was nice to have someone to talk to, verbally that is. He left now, so it's pretty dull again. For some reason it's more depressing now, than it was before he stopped by. Probably because I had a brief glimpse of something I do not have.

Dude, you have got to take fate into your own hands.

Stop acting like a wimp and get out there and meet people.

I don't mean to sound mean, but I'm serious.

What kind of hobbies do you do?

Find people who have similar interests as you. For example, I like to play guitar so I usually go to a guitar store or go watch local bands to meet people.

And if people show apathy towards you, screw them. I can assure you there are a lot of other cool people out there to meet.

You have seriously got to change your attitude.

Do you have a higher power?

Mine is the Bible and Jesus, every day I read the quote from my signature and I go out there and believe anything is possible for me. This has helped my confidence tremendously, because I truly do believe it.

Find your higher power man.


[edit on 16-3-2007 by thehumbleone]

After months of being alone in this forsaken town, i'm yet alone. I'm not trying to sound like a emo little ***** but oh well right? I basically took a month break from everything.. I just lied around the house in a slump, contemplating.. So this is my first post in about a month.. I have hobbies, and interests.. Guitar, music, film.. The basic lazy American mentality! Oh the sh** well.

Originally posted by MadSeason313
After months of being alone in this forsaken town, i'm yet alone. I'm not trying to sound like a emo little ***** but oh well right? I basically took a month break from everything.. I just lied around the house in a slump, contemplating.. So this is my first post in about a month.. I have hobbies, and interests.. Guitar, music, film.. The basic lazy American mentality! Oh the sh** well.

So what's the problem, what's preventing you from meeting people?

Hey, pm me anytime madseason.

We're all in the same boat down here so grab an oar and row.

You know what I find is a sure fire cure for isolated depression, having just lost my entire family, finding someone who's worse off than me and giving them what they need most.

XXXXOOOO...from clearwater

man thats so bad....i hate being antisocial sometimes.....too little friends,and no idea how to get more...

While I have an easy time making friends and picking up hot girls due to my friendliness and patience, and while I enjoy interacting with fellow humans and have alot of fun doing so, I am alone 99.9% of the time, and the thing is, I like it I get work done, no one bothers me, I get my personal space, I have time to think, I listen to rap, I rap without anyone complaining, nothing stresses me, I get personal stuff done and the list goes on...............for me being single is great I mean, I do have to go to clubs and pick up babes for one night once in a while and once in a while hang out with my best friend, but otherwise, I'm content being alone; although, I am ALWAYS down to kick it with my homies or go to a club, or to interact with others, so while I'm content being alone, I am always ready for company .

Originally posted by MadSeason313
My cousin stopped by for a few days, it was nice to have someone to talk to, verbally that is.

Are you hearing voices? or getting visuals?

Why is it difficult for you to sleep?

I should have clarified that bit about "verbally", I meant verbally in a physical manner, instead of having to text one over the internet.. Do I hear voices? No.. I'm perfectly sane so far.. And if I ever happen to just "not get online", than you can clinically call be crazy, or dead.. Which ever seems to come first. Why is it hard for me to sleep? I suffer from severe insomnia.. That's probably another reason why it may seem odd when I approach someone in a firendly manner and get rejected. It's not like I purposley isolate myself from everyone else.. It's just that, when I do engage in discussion with anybody, they never seem to give a squirt of piss about what i'm saying..

Yet again, I was seen in anothers eyes as some sort of school shooter! Connsidering the tragedy in Virgina Tech, it's not really suprising. At work, some kid came up to me and said," wow dude, you have the personality of that one guy who killed all those people in Virginia, are you like that"? I was thinking in my head, wtf. It was pretty insulting. And the following question just pissed me off! "You don't have an imaginary girlfreind do you"? I straight up told him to piss off and stop comparing me to this Cho guy. And I was holding a conversation with some guy about that whole incident, he's one of those really stupid incompetent guys. He said," Man, I would have used an AK or some bombs or something". I told him to shut up, and that he was very stupid for even saying that. He's one of those obnoxious self-absorbed dummies. I know for a fact he was just bragging, showing that he was a bigger bad a**. Realistically, he's nothing but a chump. Though, it's somewhat entertaining listening to him ramble on about pointless things.

That is pretty effed up madseason. Just ignore punks who like to talk trash.

Don't even listen to them dude, you'll be alright.

It's pretty much all I do.. Ignore them.. That's the easiest thing to do.. It does get very aggrivating from time to time though, it's not easy being told your a psyco-path and forget about it. The incident yesterday wouldn't be the first time this had occured, and i'm positive it's not the last.. Well, f*** em', they need to learn some respect. I'm not in HighSchool anymore, but that adolescent mentality lives on everywhere else.. It's pretty lame. No worries, this always seems to help.. -->:bnghd: Or this,

As you can see in this thread, you matter more than you think. Don't feel alone. You are interconnected through a network of minds. Your "coming clean" in this thread has refreshed you, hasn't it. Take that to heart. You do matter. Amen friend.

er, thanks.. It's always cool to know I guess..

Today was pretty cool, I got in touch with an old buddy of mine.. He's doing better than I am i'll tell you that much.. And he's a fricken drunk and a "superior" now.. Basically he left his past behind and became a full blown college student.. Well, i'm in college too, online classes though.. Just to get a fell of the situations I will find myself in eventually. Academically that is, socially, I don't even want to imagine.. I was told HighSchool was a nightmare compared to college.. Well, so far, I disbelive that.. I've been to campus a few times, and each time I went, I didn't like it.. I felt like doing this . Reasons why, I had seen the same adolescent attitude.. People were talking s*** as usual.. And also, all everyone bragged about was partying.. When i'm with the right people, and a pretty laid back enviroment, i'm a pretty cool guy.. But jesus christ I hate this town.. College is the key to success right? Yea... Sure.. I'll give it a shot, but if the going gets tough, the tough gets going.. And by that, i'm the hell out of this place..