Originally posted by malakiem
I understand what you mean dalen, right now i have been seeking and going for professional help.
It would be a smart move to consider dAlen advice. He obviously speaks truthfully from the heart, and obviously from experience. dAlen brings up
some very good points. I suggested means which aided myself, but admittedly your path is your path. I think our beginnings and our ends may be the
same, but everything inbetween is in conjunction with a shared reality, which you are an equal shareholder in. Your voice counts, but first your true
voice must be found, or i believe at least acknowledged and recognized.
But i only think of automatic writing when i've gotten rid of a little more emotional issues and demons that i might have inside. My sister gave me
good advice, don't do therapy while your going through this because the mind is a powerfull thing and many bad possiblilites could come out of this.
I will say what is true for me, and applicable from my perspective. I do not believe i am misleading you, or giving you bad advice about this:
As we utilize automatic writing (writing what comes to mind without hesitation) we are training our minds to not hesitate, and write based upon what
our minds' truths are.
I believe if things surface which makes us feel uncomfortable or invoke feelings that are "bad", then what has been written is a reflection of how
we think. If bad thoughts surface, it does not necessarily mean the bad thoughts are true, but rather that we have identified negative things that
obstruct our true nature and result in hesitation, because doubt still exists within our neuro-net. So, even if the "demons" or negative thoughts
surface on paper, this does not mean we need to act upon them, but rather that we need to acknowledge and recognize the root cause or seed for those
thoughts produced by our mind's eye that we do not like, or reach truth compliance with them. The end result is intended to be
balance, but
balance can not be obtained by ignoring truth.
If we judge something as evil we invoke automatic defense mechanisms even at the subconscious or unconscious realms of reason within our minds. When
we do this we tend to conform to the easiest recourse, by ignoring the problems that we percieve as or judge as negative our subconscious minds will
not permit such information to surface to our conscious minds. When this happens we are no longer recieving first hand knowledge about our
environment, our experiences, or our reality.
We essentially become "Hear No Evil, See No Evil, Speak No Evil", in which case we would have much in common with 3 monkeys i know.
But, if we are consciously or subconsciously rebuking what we hear and see because we think it is evil, then do we have all the peices to the puzzle
to ensure we are not speaking no evil?
My sister gave me good advice, don't do therapy while your going through this because the mind is a powerfull thing and many bad possiblilites
could come out of this.
I say it may be better to have the bad things come out on paper than unwillingly or unwittingly manifest them in our shared reality. Whether being
expelled through means of therapy, or on paper, or a coupling of both methods, the bad thoughts are being "vented" or erradicated from you either
way. But, by putting them on paper, seperate parts of the brain are acting in unison. Your eyes will see what is being transcribed from the recesses
of the mind.
Might i suggest a movie/dvd? I think it may provide some answers. Many doctors from different disciplines offer insight into what is transpiring in
our unconscious and subconscious minds, which do effect our conscious minds activities entirely. The name of the movie is
The Secret, and it
was made by many of the same people who worked on the movie
"What the Bleep Do We Know".
Maybe it may offer insight into your path, maybe not. Google either and make your own decision.
Automatic writing is a tool, a means to understanding yourself and your own thought processes.
It is about conforming to your expectations and knowing your will.
"Know thyself" ... "What you are looking for is what is looking"
2 true quotes from Plato, and St. Francis of Assisi, respectively.
I know what esoteric teacher said i could try, that would be more fitting for now. Wow thanks for the input everyone.
Don't discount dAlen's advice outright. If you think it would be benificial for you to discuss how your mind works with someone who specilizes in
that field, i say by all means do it. There is no shame in trying to find the truth, asking the questions you want answered, and posing those
questions towards those who know many of the answers. It is a quest for your truth, your path, your ideals.
I merely suggest (and i believe most disciplines would agree) that if the mind can think to ask the question at the conscious level, then the
subconscious level must have reached a decision that it is time for you to ask the question, the question that it has supplied you with.
What would a psychologist say alot of the time?
"And how does this make you feel?"
"And how do you feel about this?"
"Why do you think he or she reacted in this way?"
A lot of what proffesionals do is gently coax their clients into delving into their own mind for the answers in the first place, coupled with
reinforment and knowing that you are not alone in your journey to understand yourself.
So, perhaps middle ground might be a safe place to start. Couple writing down your thoughts in a journal, and share your thoughts with a professional
if you decide to seek such assistance.
If you find negative things, address them logically, but acknowledge and recognize how they make you feel, and why.
Don't sell yourself short, i believe you have what you need within you. But sometimes even the most experienced hiker and outdoorsman needs a
guide.
Let me say that one more time, because i feel it is important:
Sometimes even the most experienced hiker and outdoorsman needs a guide.
Thanks,
john paul peter
EDIT TO ADD:
This is in part my utilization of "Automatic Writing", or possibly a stream of consciousness from within. It is a work in progress, but it is a
reflection of my soul, i believe:
www.belowtopsecret.com...'
[edit on 18-2-2007 by Esoteric Teacher]