posted on Jan, 24 2007 @ 07:25 AM
Hello,
Dreams are absolutely one of the most fascinating aspects of my consciousness. I have been an addict to dreams for a long time. It’s one of the
reasons I’ve always enjoyed sleeping for hours and hours more than perhaps necessary. I am a dreamer by nature and have always had a very vivid
imagination.
A few years back I read about lucid dreaming and decided to have a go at it. It took some conscious effort however it was not long before I was able
to make a few basic conscious choices while dreaming. Since then I’ve become better and better at mastering my own dreams, however my progression
has halted somewhat in the past year. Not sure why, perhaps because I don’t sleep as much as I used to (I’d generally have lucid dreams in the
late stages of sleep, or after briefly waking up early in the morning hours only to fall back asleep for another 2-3 hours). When you’re really
tired and only have about 6-7 hours worth of sleep available it’s difficult, then I generally sleep to heavy to become consciously aware within my
dreams.
Anyways, I’ve had some absolutely amazing experiences in my dreams. For one, the reason I started to look into lucid dreaming (being able to make
conscious choices within your dream state) was because I kept having a reoccurring dream over and over. The dream went like this:
I am entirely alone in a dark urban city. There are other people walking about, but their presence is simply dark shadows and they seemed unaware of
my presence. Suddenly I become afraid, very afraid for no apparent reason. Then within a second of being filled with fear I turn around and I see
another dark presence in a hood. I can only see its eyes within the hood, glowing red. The rest is merely a black shape. I begin to flee, instinct
tells me to flee, and I run as fast as I can through the urban city. I keep running, constantly accelerating, reaching an impossible speed. However,
no matter how fast or how dodgy I run I cannot loose the dark presence behind me. It’s slowly gaining on me, and suddenly I look behind me and its
right there, just about to consume me “within” its dark self. Then I wake up.
I kept having this dream over and over, up to even three times a week for several months and I’d always wake up right before “it got me”.
After reading up on the possibility of lucid dreaming I decided before every time I went to sleep that if I had this dream I would refuse to be
afraid. It took some time of consciously trying to alter my dream state but one day I had a break through.
I begun dreaming the same dream I’ve been having for months now and I was equally afraid by the chasing dark presence behind me until I just
realized that ‘this is a dream’. I became consciously aware that I was dreaming, yet I still felt fear. However, as I was running I finally faced
my fear, partly by turning it into anger and aggression. I abruptly stopped and turned around to face whatever was chasing me. It stopped as well and
its glowing eyes seemed to just observe me afar. Just standing there actually made me more afraid and this in turn fuelled my anger. I did not speak
any words as I can remember, however I started growling and acting like someone possessed by “demons”. I felt an incredible surge of power
throughout my body as my fear was converted into rage. I charged the dark being in an all out attack. I came within a feet ready to pummel it with my
hands when I immediately stopped. The light from the red eyes illuminated its face and I could finally see what it was. It was me. I then awoke.
Since then I’ve never had this dream ever again, no matter how much I tried to “get it back”. It was such an amazing experience I still cannot
let it go. I’ve had other similar type of dreams but I stopped entirely to have this dream.
The world of dreams is amazing.
Best wishes,
VladTheImapler