OK, I just registered for both the NFL and College versions. I asked to be notified by e-mail on Fridays. One of these two had an option for letting
the Commissioner--I take it that's you, Aegis--"edit" my picks. Since I believe Aegis to be a person of impeccable integrity, I selected that
option... having no clue what they're talking about.
Now, if it had been Gibbs....
Sorry, I didn't get in on the draft. I am at a crucial point in my life, one brought on by major medical negligence--outrageous, really--and as
jaded, distrustful, bright and inquisitive a person as I arrogantly fancy myself to be, I confess I tend to trust doctors who are specialists in their
matters of specialty.
My regular doctor of the past 5 years, a specialist in Internal Medicine, has abused that trust about as egregiously as it could have been abused.
I'm just now learning that fact, courtesy of one of my best friends ever. One of my info sources, as well as 2 doctors, has been an R.N. friend of
some 25 years, who works at a Pennsylvania hospital. She talked to me about my meds two weeks ago, was incredulous and alarmed to learn what Dr.
Pillhappy has done, and she has since been having several talks with doctors at her hospital who also are Internists, as well as one who specializes
in "pain management."
They tell me that
my doctor has had me, for the past 3+ years, on a daily dose of Oxycodone--the active ingredient in Percodan, Percocet and
Oxycontin--which is equal to the amount they would give a late-stage terminal cancer patient. This runs directly contrary to MANY conversations I've
had with my doctor about how I want to manage my pain, long-term, and the fact almost everyone in my family lives outrageously long, suffers many
old-age aches and pains, and finally dies of cancer.
There have been many, many, many conversations like that which I won't spell out here, because it would take thousands of words. And it now turns out
he's had me for 3-4 on doses of Oxycodone (Percodan) that are so massive they're equivalent to substantial doses of Morphine Sulphate.
JUST AS BAD, when I told him I had "sleeplessness" problems, he--with no training in Psychology or Psychiatry--decided I must be psychotic or
something, I guess, and instead of giving me a pill for a sleep disorder, gave me a F'ing anti-depressant which has made me sleep for TWELVE hours at
night, and kept me groggy all day after that (Trazodone). The drug lasts for 12 hours, and stays in your body for 24--a fact I got out of his mouth
under my questioning, for the first time, last week.
In the past 3 years, my income and productivity in my legal practice literally have been cut in half, and I'm in a fair chunk of debt. If I weren't
such a well-established name in my field, my reputation probably would be in tatters. I don't have long to turn it around, because I have briefs I
need to get DONE, and I can only come off of this s--- so fast, especially since this has all been going on while I'm on this incredible
diet--trumpeted so proudly by Dr. Pillhappy to his other patients--in which I've lost over 70 pounds in 16 months.
BUT....
In the past few months, I've cut the Oxycodone from 100 mg/day to 40-50/mg per day, which my nurse friend says is an enormous accomplishment. In
another week, I'm confident I'll be down to 40 mg on a regular basis. And the anti-psychotic, sleep-forever drug, Trazodone, I have recently cut from
300 mg/day to 200, and as of Sunday night am cutting to 150 mg. Other doctors I know say I'm doing an incredibly good job of coming off of the
Oxycodone this fast, since it's as addictive as heroin and I was taking a dose equal to a heroin addiction in force, and that it's unreal I could do
this while losing such a huge amount of weight.
BUT, when I found out I'd spent the last few years taking the equivalent of a large amount of heroin every day (legally), I had the same reaction I'll
bet YOU guys would have: "F--- this s---!!! I'm getting off of it as fast as I can without suffering major medical reactions (seizure, stroke,
etc.)!!!!"
And that's what I'm doing. In 5 months or so, I've gone from 100 mg to 40 or 45.
In another month it will be 30 or 35. Then I will switch from Oxycodone (Percodan) to Hydrocodone (Vicodin), a significantly weaker drug.
THEN I will cut down as far on that as I can with its hurting my ligaments-torn shoulder too badly.
SOME pain, I will live with. My ultimate goal? 20 mg per day of Hydrocodone--the equivalent of 4 regular-strength Vicodins a day--which is light
years from my 3-4 years of taking TWENTY of the regular-strength pills of PERCODANS in one day. As proud as I am of beating alcohol and cigarettes,
what I've done so far here, and the ultimate victory of getting off of Oxycodone completely and onto a Hydrocodone, and then reducing that to a
minimal dose as needed for my shoulder pain, all while losing 100 to 120 pounds of excess weight I've carried for decades, will make me prouder.
And the f'ing Trazodone? Tomorrow night will start 2 weeks of cutting to 150 mg/night. Then it's 2 weeks of 100 mg/night. THen it's 2 weeks of
50/mg night. Then it's goodbye and good riddance to this wacky, anti-psychotic drug that a non-psychologist put me on to fix my sleep disorder--at
ENORMOUS psychological, emotional, professional and economic expense to me. If it had gone on 2 more years....
Isn't that one hell of a story? And just IMAGINE what happens to all of his patients who--pardon my typical arrogance--don't have my intellect, can't
figure out how much trouble the pills are causing, and/or cannot bring themselves to wean themselves--with ABSOLUTELY NO MEDICAL HELP AT ALL--off of
this pharmaceutical equivalent of a heroin habit? I shudder to think of all of those poor folks, and what will become of them.
My friends at Sportztawk, in the time I have been here, you have done a lot for me in the dark hours of the night, as I've struggled with the
emotional and medical problems caused by Dr. Pillhappy.
If any of you is/are in the same boat, PLEASE don't go it alone. You may PM me at any time, give me your e-mail address if I don't already have
it, and I will respond with my e-mail address. We can communicate that way or by phone, and I will do whatever I can to help you. Hell, we may help
one another. Please understand, though: I'm strictly a criminal lawyer and know zero about Medical Malpractice Law--though that may change.
Jim/BHN