I walked through the door after dropping my kids at the bus stop and stopping by the grocery store. At 8:15am cdt, the phone rang.
My friend said "Turn your TV on and turn it to Fox News". I saw the tape of the first plane going into the WTC. Several minutes later, I saw the 2nd
plane go in, Live. As a military brat, I went into military mode. I assessed the situation.
So many things went through my mind at once. First was that my immediate family was scattered over a 10 mile area. My extended family was 350 + and
the whereabouts of my sister and her b/f (flight attendant and pilot) were unknown. I live 5 miles from a nuke plant.
I called my hubby, telling him to find a radio and turn it on. I also told him to be ready to leave. He thought I was a crazy woman. I called the
school my children attend and the lines were busy. I took this time to pack our first "family to go bag."
I called my mother and she was literally frozen in front of the television. I asked to talk to my father. As my father was telling me there was
probably nothing to worry about, Fox News reported that a MISSILE HIT THE PENTEGON. I remember my daddy saying "now we have something to worry
about."
I hung up with him, called the school and finally got through. I was told that my children were fine and I DID NOT NEED TO PICK THEM UP. I told the
principal on that day (and later on) that when I wish to pick my children up is not under his control, have my kids ready. I arrived at the school
with several parents and the principal saying "do not worry, no need to pick your kids up", but we did anyway. I found that my daughter knew
nothing, but my son had been watching the coverage in the teacher's lounge because he had asked to go to the restroom and never returned.... he was
very scared.
My family and I spent the next 6 hours wondering if my sister and her b/f (now husband) were on one of those flights. We knew their locations but
didn't know the flight numbers. If you remember that day, they kept changing the flight numbers and carriers. At one point, they reported that my
sister's carrier had hit the pentegon and it came out of the location she told us she was coming out of.
The 5th anniversary of 9/11 brings so many mixed emotions. For our family, our entire life changed. My sister and her husband continue to fly,
overseas. The memory of watching the 2nd plane go in and wondering if my sister was on the pentegon flight is fresh in my mind after 5 years. I want
to honour those that died, but I don't want to relive/remember that day.
When President Bush arrived in NYC after the attacks and told us on a bullhorn that the people that did this would hear from us, I felt safe again.
Soon after I didn't and I haven't felt safe since.
The way I feel now is that I wish that the MSM and the gov't would not shove and spin 9/11 down our throat. Allow those that lost loved ones to
mourn, but not make it a huge spectical. It seems that every channel I go to has some 9/11 special and no way to escape it.
I have chosen not to turn on the radio, television or access the internet on that day. I don't see how that will help the healing process for those
who lost loved ones, those that have loved ones overseas fighting, or those flying the friendly skies that day.
I'm usually an upbeat/warm/friendly person. I care about others, almost to an extreme sometimes.
I do not like the way I feel about 9/11, which is why I'm leaving "reality" for the day. I've never had such a feeling of hatred towards anyone as
those that carried out this horrific act on 9/11 and changed our lives forever. I see video of the 2nd plane going in, the towers collapsing, the
pentegon burning and I go from anguish/tears to absolute hatred.
I also feel fear, most especially for my children and kids their age who will have to live with the consequences of that day for the rest of their
lives. As a parent, I wanted to protect my kids from crap like this. I know there's nothing I could have personally done to prevent this but frankly
I'm angry at those that allowed this to happen.
My hope is that before we reach the 10 year anniversary of 9/11, we will have these bastards strung up as there is a special place in hell for
them.
Originally posted by blatantblue
unfortunately in the years after my parents took the real brunt of it. not looking for sympathy this is just the story. my dad lost all his
retirement with American, had heart problems and a minor heart attack after all the stress. my dad left soon after and im still bitter because it was
the best job you could have and he'd been flying planes for 30 years and loved it. it defined him. he still talks of going back whenever we go to
JFK or anything like that. but i dont know if he will
Your dad's situation/reaction is not unlike my sister's and her husband.
Both work on trans-atlantic flights. It took a while before they felt safe again. Neither had a heart attack but suffered panic attacks. My sister
will be flying again this 9/11.