posted on Nov, 1 2003 @ 12:59 PM
the last time i remember truely meditating was over two years ago with little results. i also went on a ten day retreat to practice the meditational
techniques of
vipassana. that was a very interesting experience for me, though i just seemed to forget about it all
and let it go until now. last night i decided to finally get my # together and really meditate, none of this "i'll get around to it crap". so as i
am lying on my back in my bed with my hands folder over my chest, i start doing the ol' breath control thing. all the while trying to clear my mind
from all the daily # that goes on. so i'm doing this for atleast half an hour, every now and then applying the law of impermanence from vipassana
(basically what that means is that when ever you feel an itch or any sensation over your body, you do not react by scratching it, you simply focus on
it until it passes, which it always does). any way, i noticed after a while that i was losing feeling, the concern over parts of my body, and it was
as if my mind was letting go of each limb from the bottom up until it met with my head/eyes/3rd eye, etc. at that point i felt like i was one with
myself. like i wasn't me with a body, legs, arms, etc. just me/one. so the feeling in my body was very sublime, mellowed out, with all the focus in
my vision, like i was detached. to test the state while i was in it, i would slowly move my mouth or cough. when i did that, i could feel more of my
body, like my mind was slowly re-attaching it self to it for everytime i gave it recognition for it being there. weird stuff huh? it was really hard
for the first half hour or so, but when i got to that state, i was pretty much in full control of this oneness. the next thing i was hoping for was to
initiate an OBE, but i didn't quite get that far i guess, and decided to relase myself and go to sleep. it took a while for the affect i was under to
wear off, as parts of my body were kind of weak/tired. when i looked at the time, almost an hour and a half had gone by. i've never gone through
something like that before, though now i think it's edged me on to practicing it more often. just thought i'd share it with everyone.