Lillies, page 1

Lillies have always been my favourite flower. I like allowing nature to flourish. I've been a keen naturist my whole life. I'm a prude, but that is due to the fact I was sexually degraded as a young boy. School was scary for me, I was never able to concentrate because I lived in fear of bullies. I no longer fear bullies, I confront them with their own faulty logic. The bullee has become the bullier. I hate bullcrap, I'm not trying to force my opinions on you - this is merely expression.

I used to smoke cannabis regularly because it allowed me to focus my thoughts, it gave me the ability to view things from other people's perspective for a change.

I haven't been diagnosed with any specific ailment, yet I am treated like a baby, simply for loving others.

I want to work, but I am being told I am unwell and not fit for work. I am being given benefits, incapacity benefit, income support when all I want is to earn what I'm given. I am literally being brainwashed.

I am being given anti-psychotic medication, it has helped me gain 5 kilos in little over a month. I have been able to hear voices for the past 15 years, nothing new - simply put I've been through a lot and this has helped me focus my mind.

Look at it from my perspective won't you?

I smoke chemical laden cigarettes I'm justified. I smoke a God given herb, that makes me a criminal.

I self-medicate I'm wrong, I let others choose my medication, I'm right.

I drink alcohol I'm justified, I eat chocolate I'm justified, I share music - I'm wrong.

I tell people sticks and stones will break my bones, but words won't hurt me.

They break my bones, spit on me and tell me to f*** off.

I don't want to enter the world of politics because it's full of deceit. It manufactures consent, I don't want an ID card because I believe in the words Benjamin Franklin once used;

Any society that would give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both. - Benjamin Franklin

I believe in Animal Farm and 1984 was the year before I was born.

I don't need dictators, I need liberty. I don't need anymore hate, I need comfort. I don't need much.

Food, clothes and shelter.

I don't want to be sectioned, but continually I am crippled by the fact I'm different. I'm unique, I'm sensible and I don't want to fight. I know what's good for the world and it's not anarchy which is what we have right now. It's not authoritarian regimes, it's not intolerance of tolerance and it's not intolerance of intolerance.

It's balance, it's being able to differentiate a need from a want and realising as we all do, that this world is a beautiful place if you have room to appreciate it - if you can see the stars, if you can swim in the oceans, if you don't have to pay for the lifestyle you choose to adopt.

(1 Timothy 6:10 KJV)
For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

Society has erred from the faith, we chase beautiful cars, beautiful homes, beautiful women when all we really need is to appreciate the feet we were given to walk with, the arms we were given to write with and the mind we were given to help others with.

When will equality come? When will pride and prejudice die?

I hope it will come soon.

I have faith.

I love you all, even though I find it hard to understand your need for material possessions.

It was rough growing up in London, it still is - but life must go on and we must live and die trying to protect it. Trying to care for it and nurture it.

Ask Sam Cooke what it was like growing up by the river, but don't kill Biggie and Tupac so you can commercialise their message of love, hope and faith. Do not make martyrs of those that have tried to love this world with all their hearts, souls and mind and found nothing but ambiguity and suspicion.

Take it easy, I'll try to grow in this concrete maze, look at the art, but don't vandalise it.