I felt them all loosen and unravel like a healing massage. I no longer felt rigid and arthritic.
This is the importance of breathing and yoga and martial arts and riding a bicycle
Even passionate sex is a healing exercise
If we stop the motions within our own body, it’s like a whole universe growing cold and still and approaches death as it slows
Our body is a representation of half our known universe. The I Am Inside part
Our main goal is to want to live in harmony with the Outside
It is after all the only other thing we know about ourselves since our time in the womb
There is Outside and there is I Am Inside
Duality
We have tools to help express and understand and live in harmony with the outside
We have intelligence, love, desire, fear etc.
We learn literature and music
They're all part of the song and dance of creation
It's all built into every structure and organ of life
The atoms experience their own kind of music
It is very dynamic like drums
Explosions like cymbals peppering the music
We flail hands and kick feet in the womb playing our own drums
The left and the right. The mother and the father
During my repetitive dances there was singing and words to help explain it all
I could see everything in my room and field of vision was there for a reason
It all represented consciousness at work leading to this point
It's an educational program
I could see a spider crawling across my ceiling
It's okay, it’s just a deeper part of my spirit crawling along the surfaces of the known edge of the universe
We're basically all still just kicking around in the womb making movements, while the outside known universe expands
Do we get caught in addiction of the left and lower stairways fueled by curiosity and desire?
Or do we seek love and light and warmth on the right, up the stairway
The doctors assured me the healing they were doing and the knowledge I was receiving was because I asked for it. I asked to know just a little more
about where and why. The reason it was granted is because they believed I had a genuine desire to do the hardest thing imaginable to me, forgive the
chaos and destruction of the left side, and my father.
For that is also built into the universe, atoms collide all the time and they can't cry about it
Spiders hunt their prey
All time stops if this doesn't happen
There was also a moment where I saw and felt my soul in other incarnations
I was a T-Rex at one point, ferocious and powerful and hunting. There were too many lives I’ve lived that raced past my understanding faster than I
could take it in. We are ancient and timeless
But eventually we move from the left to the right and aim for true balance, on and up the staircase
True neutral are the waves of the ocean, the motions of atoms. Center
But we are drawn to the archival situation of souls and our shared situation. We become pulled to the right by love of others, friends, family,
animals etc.
All we know is each other and the Inside-Outside perception
We ebb and flow and move from left to right and up and down
Sometimes attracted to the dark, sometimes attracted to the light
It is the pendulum flow and motion that allows for time and experience to exist
Another reason I was given this experience from the “doctors” is because they know I'm not here to hurt or take advantage of anyone
They know if I was ever in a position to take advantage of someone, that I simply wouldn't do it willfully
They know me going back through time and want to help me, I fell into addiction of the left side, the dark side
We must also use tools on the left side though, pure physical strength and determination come from the left side
Our sense of alert and panic and survival as well. Even innovation and risk-taking
Our attraction to the strange, dark, and mysterious is on the left
Our love for the known familiar, warmth, and balance is on the right, the mother
Technology and exploitation on the left. Misuse and greed
But drums and dance and all movements and expressions require coordination between the left and right
Hands, feet, left brain-right brain, all the senses of the left and right sides, sense of balance
Our lesson on this level is to choose harmony with the Outside
Or we'll sink and fall to the left and become like Darth Vader. Dark Father, pulled down the stairs
Far to the right is the divine mother
Earth and animals are there
The ocean waves still in the center, balance
The black void off to the left
Still in my dance understanding the music and words and motions of all creation
It's all represented in our arm movements and kicks and drums and cymbals and literature and knowledge and archival knowledge and tidal flows and
curiosities and fears and darknesses and strength and desire eventually pulls us back up and to the right
We're still in the womb, the known walls of the universe just keep expanding, our understandings of what we're observing become more detailed and
cohesive
Our imaginations and understandings explode
But it's still just all I see in front of me vs all I feel inside of me
Right back to the moment we first feel in the womb
Abortion is the death of a whole universe
It's an entire planet of life and potential being ripped into a cold lifeless rock split in two, not even in full motion anymore
The point of life is to go through an educational program to teach us this spiritual knowledge that helps us choose the light
We're low on the totem
Spiders below (animal kingdom) and doctors above (angels maybe?)
They would only describe themselves as “doctors”
Physical, emotional, spiritual, knowledge, wisdom, art, music…doctors
It's all the same meaning to them
They heal more than just physical
But they wouldn't say much about anything else, just kind of chuckled, bemused by all my questions
They truly don't know what's above them or below them either
That staircase, that winding snake spiral
It goes up into the head and beyond
Eyes straight up. All we can see
It unwinds and unwinds seemingly infinitely
Down below is the darkness and sludge where consciousness first began. Everything slows down here, and it speeds up again as we move up the stairs.
This is all expressed in sound, colors, crests and splashes of the waves
Down and to the left are mostly thoughts of panic and "what's this? what's this?", the first experiences of consciousness
Trying to make sense of the first things we can see and feel
Up and to the right is the magnet of the divine loving mother where understanding increases and fear and panic decreases. Literature, art,
intelligence, music and love increase, and time speeds up, all through the staircase
This is my program specifically I guess
I understand everything that I was shown and explained
You might not understand the references such as spiders or drums
But your experience of life is your own program
You will understand all that happened and why and the imagery all means something specifically to you. It will all click and fall into place in a
spasm of clarity
How you open that file I don't know, I don't even understand how I opened mine
I am to understand I am basically in a care facility where others are helping me
I'm not a guru or buddha. I'm an addict on the road to recovery with outside help from above
We have help above. This is
our story.
Trust and breathe, trust and breathe
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