a reply to:
FlyInTheOintment
When I was young, I experienced homelessness for a couple of years. At one point, my local council placed me into a truly inappropriate situation –
I was assigned to live in a bail hostel, the place where criminals leaving prison are assigned to live, a 'halfway house'. And so there was I, a
seventeen year old kid with no truly criminal history aside from minor drug use & very minor fraud, neither of which were ever criminally prosecuted,
being placed in a depressing hovel in amongst rapists, murderers & even paedophiles. My prospects at this time in my life were truly dire, and I was
exposed here to hard drug use of the most flagrant kind, indeed some of the residents tried to get me hooked on heroin & crack coc aine, thank
God this never took hold of me in the way it could have.
One night, as I lay in my room, I gradually fell asleep as usual. Later, I awoke to a partial consciousness of the room around me. I could not see
anything particularly well, my vision was blurry or pixelated somehow. In a shocking turn of events, I became conscious of the presence of a woman
with me, sitting astride me as though to have relations with me. I was able to feel her body with my hands, but I could not see her. She seemed a
very real presence even so, and indeed she leaned forward to kiss me. As she did so, and as I reciprocated, a ball of gel approximately the size of a
golf ball was passed into my mouth, and before I could react it had impelled down my throat & gullet, and into my stomach.
This broke the spell of my partial consciousness & I awoke violently, looking at the empty room about me, the door still securely locked from the
inside (these doors were extremely strong, as they had to be able to withstand forced entry by angry housemates who were seeking to steal or commit
violence against another resident). Although the room was empty, and it seemed therefore that the experience must have been some bizarre dream, in
actual fact I could still feel the presence of 'something' in my stomach, which was moving about in a way that could easily be felt whether standing
or laying down on my bed.
Eventually, uneasy, I tried to go back to sleep; however, whatever that thing inside my stomach happened to be, I could suddenly feel it moving
forcefully against the wall of my stomach, literally cutting into it, causing severe stabbing & slicing pain which didn't dissociate from that
palpable sense of intelligent movement which was connected to it as whatever it was writhed & wriggled its way through the wall of my stomach and into
the abdominal cavity, over the course of the next six hours or so. At that point I could feel the thing moving around in the wider abdominal cavity
– and what is more, when I looked at the surface of my belly, I could sometimes see its motion very clearly, as though a child within a pregnant
woman was kicking or pushing against the lining of the womb.
The next day I went downstairs to the TV room, and a resident came in who was giggling maniacally (with hindsight, he was manifesting demonically –
the mania was fuelled by diabolical fire). He pointed at me with wicked glee evident in his eyes, and stated very matter-of-factly: “It's
Beelzebub.” At the time, I had no idea what he meant, I only knew that he seemed to have some knowledge of the events I had experienced the night
before, as he rubbed his stomach mockingly as he spoke. Years later, I came to understand what he meant – that a demonic creature had been
implanted into me, and what is more, I realised that I had been assaulted by a Succubus, a nocturnal she-demon such as attack men during the night in
various ways. It was at this time that my mental health problems began to run rampant, and I had no idea how to free myself from the demonic
persecution I was experiencing.
Thankfully a couple of years later I heard the Gospel, became a Christian, joined a church, learned how to pray & receive deliverance ministry, and I
was freed from the diabolical effects on my mental health - though for years afterwards I still saw & felt the movement of that 'creature' in my
belly, though eventually it died down to barely any activity at all, and for several years now I have not felt it at all, glory to God. I beieve it
was a 'thorn in the flesh', a messenger from Satan, to keep me humble, exactly as the experience St Paul had, which he described in his New Testament
letters. It was sent due to the abundance of visions that he experienced, so that he would not become prideful due to the work God was doing through
him. In my experience, the thing would actively & deliberately cause severe pain, mostly at night, waking me from terrible dreams with severe
stabbing pains & the associated movement in my abdominal cavity. A truly diabolical experience which I will never forget - and 100% true.