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FullHeathen
I've read it when you first posted it and honestly didn't like it.
With your latest installment Roland & Geneva something I think clicked and now I am thinking:
you have a very twisted definition of what love is.
I mean you use it very generously apparently and more self-centred than I would.
It's funny and interesting, a little weird also.
I mean I am maybe the problem, because I was married to a guy and not once said 'I love you'.
On the other hand I had one boyfriend with whom I was very much in love, but that was like with butterflies to almost passing out when I saw him
somewhere unexpectedly.
That is love for me. There is no place for rational thoughts or a seperate me from we when I love.
So I doubt you ever have loved.
Don't get me wrong this is not intended to be judgmental, I realise it sounds like it is, I am just processing and comparing, because somehow I find
it incredible interesting how you approach 'that love thing'.
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I mean I don't even think about love, or make any theories what this or what it could mean, I realised that because I said 'definition' that sounds as
if I do.
Honestly I am weird up to handicapped in emotional things. It is not like I don't feel, but in that break up with the guy I mentioned above I somehow
burned out all rational approach to the topic relationships.
It was very dramatic a little hillbilly Romeo & Juliet of sorts and we weren't able to let go of eachother for years...
I guess it was mostly self preservation that from there onward I tried to be detached from all emotions and boy did that not work out...
Just as background to what I said, why this is so hard for me to understand and so very interesting.
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