We have you in a glass…

a reply to: Agleaya

I'm sorry for my lack of competence.

a reply to: Agleaya

I don't understand that. Do you mean you have amnesia in your everyday life?

Or do you mean that in an esoteric sense?

I think you are very competent.

a reply to: midicon

IN ESOTERIC SENSE

a reply to: Agleaya

Thanks for clearing that up for me. We all have amnesia in that sense.

No one remembers past lives. That is the truth of it.

a reply to: midicon

That's true.

a reply to: midicon

I'm here from "the outside" and have no clue why.

I'm now what they would call a "conscious player" but still don't know why I'm here.

Let me out.

a reply to: Agleaya

I'm sorry for speaking up in my ego, I still don't have not much memory in that sense...

Or maybe I do...?

a reply to: Agleaya

Okay, I'm in such a state now that 98% of people would think I'm a madman who has rebelled against the entire world.

originally posted by: Agleaya
a reply to: midicon

I'm here from "the outside" and have no clue why.

I'm now what they would call a "conscious player" but still don't know why I'm here.

Let me out.

I've been writing a little poem to post on here. I'm not quite satisfied with the last lines but they do address your problem.

Those lines are...

How many times must you try
To be just what you want inside
Is it forever and a day
When trying just gets in the way

a reply to: midicon

I wrote a poem about "the clock" in polish...

Jak w zegarku mnknie ludzkość mała
Niewidoczne wskazówki zegara
W gąszczu wrażeń nie zaginie
Kto ten zegar w ręku trzymie

My subconscious is always trying to communicate with me, but fails at everyday conditions.

a reply to: Agleaya

There was once a poet on here. He wrote a poem about seeking unconditional forgiveness. I wrote a long poem in reply which I suppose makes me sound like a religionist, which I'm not. I have my own take on things. The last few lines also kind of address your problem, they went...

And you were never lost
You just thought you were
I am right here beside you
The old friend, the dear friend
Who sits and holds your hand
And questions fall away
Like ghosts
Eternally becoming
Free from forgiveness

a reply to: midicon

I have always been very forgiving.

a reply to: Agleaya

No one holds the clock Agleaya. That's what drives you mad.

a reply to: midicon

I don't understand.

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originally posted by: Agleaya
a reply to: midicon

I have always been very forgiving.

It's not about being forgiving, it's about reaching that place where you have no questions.

a reply to: midicon

I wish I had no questions...

Yeah, I always wanted that.

Like, absolutely.

a reply to: midicon

This seems like an invitation.

a reply to: midicon

There's a person inside me who is a very bitter and bored person.
Like, just furious.
It seems to me that she is the one you want to talk to.

...

So this "awful" side is my...

originally posted by: Agleaya
a reply to: midicon

There's a person inside me who is a very bitter and bored person.
Like, just furious.
It seems to me that she is the one you want to talk to.

I've seen that in all of your posts. She is you though.

a reply to: midicon

This side is not real me...

Not that SERIOUS one.

Wait-