posted on Apr, 14 2023 @ 09:10 PM
This is what its come to. Waiting. Just waiting.
It's like I'm a damn button on a keyboard... "push when x event happens." Until then, wait. I can't stand it anymore.
Oh, there's no doubt, it's important. What I must do if "x" happens... no one else can do it. At least no one here.
So I wait... just like that button on the keyboard. I have no reason to hit it. So it just sits there... waiting. What the hell, it's like it
might as well not exist until I do need it. It could be invisible. Just how I feel.
Look at it... that damn button.
Just sitting there...
I could hover my finger over it just so... barely touching it. I shouldn't push it. That would be wrong. What would happen if I pushed it? In
theory, I know. It would be bad. It would make the button 'click' and engage... then it would do what it would ... just as if I had actually had a
reason to push it, and did.
But no... can't push it. I can feel the tip of my finger just a whisper away from the button.
I can actually touch it just so lightly that it does not click... there...
I can rest my finger on it and just wait... it's what I do, I wai....
[The End]