Seasons

I wanted to share a little bit about "seasons" we go through in life. No I'm not talking about winter, summer, fall and spring. I'm talking about the ups and downs, the hard times and the good times.

I recently went thru a very long season of hardships. First it was my dad dying. After that, just a few months later I end up in the hospital, basically dying of septic shock, stemming from major digestive problems. This landed me in and out of the hospital for over a year. I was fighting for my life, but in an off and on kinda way.... which was exhausting to say the least. At one point I had even ended up in the very hospital room, in the very spot my father had passed away in.

I did end up getting my health back and won that long arduous battle, but before I could even get fully back on my feet from surgeries I get hit with personal matters that I won't get too into here. But these personal matters had me knocked right back down. These issues were causing me to lose all hope. I had learned some things that were just too much at first. Not gonna lie, that "realization" broke me. My mental health was now declining. I had so much hope for things as I was recovering from my health issues and these new issues stole every bit of hope I had. It got so bad I ended up in a psyche ward of a hospital. And this after spending so much time in hospitals the last couple of years I never wanted to see one again. An yet, there I was.... broken again.

I didn't give up. (Held onto my faith)

About 4 or 5 months ago I was able to get a good handle on this new insight. I was able to take something unbearable (and could have destroyed me, had I let it) and made peace with it. This horrible/heavy insight has now become a powerful tool in my arsenal. It made so many things make sense. I had to forgive someone to get to this point with it, but that was the key to it, in this case.

So, after a very long season of "storms," storms that had me under so much stress and anxiety that I was unable to cope with it, I have come to a season of absolute peace, and dare I say----joy. I have been in heaven lately, really. I haven't felt this much peace ever, I don't think. Not for this long anyways. Or maybe I had such a long season of misery that I had forgotten what it felt like to be at total inner peace...
I'm loving it btw!!
The seasons in life we go thru are temporary. Remember that. That's why we call them "seasons," right? I just wanted to write a little and remind us that this too shall pass.

Thanks for reading.

Hardships are known in childhood. Example is learning by yourself to fix a flat tire on your bicycle. From there we grow with strength in the seasons of our life. Struggling in life makes us more aware of our soundings. You learn this when one starts to grow a garden. This is done with personal seasons and the Law of Nature. We look for balance in our life.
Glad to hear you found the "Seasons of Balance".

a reply to: AOx6179

When you hit rock bottom and manage to survive despite the odds you gain a new appreciation for everything , especially the little pleasures in life most never notice.

I'm glad you shared your story here; may it give hope to those who are struggling. Good job on the 'comeback'. You may now add 'survivor' to your resume!

a reply to: AOx6179

hate to hear about hardships, but it's really nice to hear how good you are now. I hope it lasts forever.
Keep smiling!