a reply to:
Adept18
I'm sorry about the things which have happened to you. I feel you on parts of it
I can explain the worm/serpent. It is not something disgusting you need hate. It is actually something as beautiful as anything you will ever know,
because all it wants to do is take away your pain
I'll tell you more on what I know about it, further into this post
I have a saying which goes, "
Without having tasted lemon, could you still say sugar sweet?
When I was first initiated, I was angry with my new "friends" for what they had allowed me to become in this world
As a child, I was as gentle and sweet as I could possibly be. In every single picture, I had a smile as bright as the sun. No matter who I was with,
or what I was doing
I had wanted nothing more than to love and be loved, and to dream of the amazing wonders and possibilities of this world
But, seemingly because of this, I was bullied and walked over by just about everyone
Till eventually I connected with a fire inside of me, to make myself more dangerous than anyone who would try hurt me
It did not matter how many people there were, or how big they were, I would choose to fight, every time someone tried to hurt me
Though this I came to understand, that fear was an illusion. Something which only exists in the mind. It is nothing more than perception. Something
different from danger, or the things which bring about those fears
We perceive danger. But to fear it, is a choice we make within our minds
I was still a gentle and loving person for the most part. I would not hurt people that did not deserve it. But I found myself having to be violent,
against violence others would try put against me
It soured the gentle part within me. Till it no longer saw the amazing possibilities and wonders of this world. Instead, all there was, was a sadness
for all the things I would never know or experience
I went from feeling like this world was a heaven created just for me, to feeling like it is some type of prison. Designed to steal something beautiful
from within my heart
So I was angry
I was angry at them, because if they were of "God", or the creator of this world, why would they ever let something beautiful like this be destroyed
or fed upon by others?
Eventually, they helped me understand that to know the greatest extents of light, you need to have experienced the greatest extents of darkness
Polarity such as this exists within a spectrum, with you at the centre
So to truly know and understand the heights of joy, you must have experienced the depths of sorrow
More importantly than this though, you must have bled within this world, in order to understand the pain of others who bleed within this world
I realised, that me being polarised only to light in my youth, I was blind to the pain of those around me, who would see to inflict pain upon me as a
result
Such as, a kid trying to beat me up, because he was being physically abused by his own Father
Whilst gentle and sweet, polarised only to light, all I could see was a nasty and evil kid. Who seemed to want to hurt me for no reason
This forms a very important part of a larger understanding, which those such as us are lucky to learn, which those polarising themselves only to
light, such as many religious idealists, may/might never understand
The lesson is that what we perceive as evil in this world, does not actually exist
Everything comes down to one of two things
LOVE and
PAIN
Just like with fear and danger, it is not to say that people wont choose to do bad things, which can only seem to be perceived as evil
But there is always one of two things behind it. Love or pain
When you understand this, you begin to recognise the bridge between the two
When we repress pain, we lose touch with love. Love is essentially buried, within the pain which is being repressed
Likewise, when we release pain by doing things like crying, it allows us to feel the warmth and beauty of love within us
The greater the pain we release, the greater we allow the glow of love to shine
It is not to say that people should not be held accountable for being a##holes. Only to say that in holding them accountable, we need look to the
source of the pain within them
For the most part, those are often considered evil, are merely protecting themselves from some type of pain
There are circumstances were innocence can be perceived as evil, because they do not know any better. But again, this boils down to them not receiving
the love they needed in development. Which again equates to pain
The worm you can feel, is not what you truly are, what you are feeling is your centre/core
Your truest form, is something like this below
The worm that you feel is phase-conjugation of electromagnetic vertices within all layers of your form
It is that which runs through your core, down your spine
It is that which runs through the nucleus and centre of all your cells
It is "worm" of your D.N.A within every one of those cells, mimicking the phase-conjugating jets in the centre of our galaxy
You are, essentially feeling your own D.N.A, in phase, as one massive joined version of them all
Picture your spine, being connected to, and identical to, countless tiny little spines (D.N.A) within your cells
The only difference between them, is one is massive, the others are tiny. They carry energy through a centre, in a near identical way, where they are
linked in perfect harmony and phase
When we repress negative emotions, we essentially, condense these negative resonant frequencies attached to them, way down within ever cell of our
body
This is why we cry when we release the negative emotions, because the negative resonant frequencies need to be released from within the cells
And the only way to do this is to bleed them. Hence why we shed water
Ever noticed how children seem to "bleed light" from their eyes when they cry? This is because they are also bleeding love from their cells, when they
release pain
Physical abuse of the body works in much the same way
Physical frequency which cannot be naturally purged from the body is condensed down into our cells
Ever heard the saying "Bad to the bone"?
It is because we can literally hold the sum of our food, liquids, stimulants and everything else we ingest for many years within the core of our bones
and within our cells
I believe you are feeling a shift between this centre as it tries to release from your body
It is not something wormlike and horrible. It is something beautiful, in what it is trying to do for you. So do not be disgusted
Remember that most trees could not grow and flourish without worms loosening the soil for them
This works in much the same way. It is trying to loosen the negative parts concentrated within you, that need be released
Love your worm. It loves you
As with the food during catharsis?
Try feed yourself as much fresh foods as possible. As little packaged stuff as you can
Try to avoid anything with preservatives in it, as preservatives are specifically designed to block cells. They are the worst thing you can possibly
put in your body, at any time. Avoid anything with preservative 151 in it
But especially when you are going through catharsis
Another thing you can do that will help, is try to take long baths. Submerging yourself as much as you can in the water
Try it and feel what happens to the pulsing you feel in your spine