posted on Jun, 25 2022 @ 09:04 PM
I don't know how to do this but I will start with gratitude
When Night Star posted this(6-11) it was the evening before I had finally mustered courage to go to the ER as I had been encouraged to do. I called
her bawling like a baby. I was so scared I still am.
I knew what to expect, heart ultra sound and if there were no blood clots Cardioversion. And hopefully they would transfer me to "Fix" the problem.
They didn't so I ended up back for an additional Cardioversion ten days later(6-22) and still they sent me home.
I am looking at a pacemaker and an ablation
if I am lucky and they don't go for a medication route, which will render me incapacitated.
It is a long story. I have only had slightly elevated BP many years ago when I was in a lot of stress. It was solved.
This whole 'Rapid heart beat' thing started in Sept. 21 after my first covid shot it abated some through the second but went full blown when I got
covid in Dec 21 and just progressed.
I should have had it checked but hoped it would go away. May 19 I couldn't handle it any more and my doctor told me to go to the ER asap with severe
AFIB. I was stubborn
so I waited.
I am so scared. I am terrified.
I don't understand why they can't just take me in and do something instead of throwing medication at me that doesn't work. I have to wait till the
cardiologist has time. I don't have time. I haven't worked for almost two months. I am so tired and weak and alone. I have to ask people for help to
take care of the animals if and when I go in. It is humiliating.
Crap.