posted on Aug, 13 2008 @ 04:53 AM
I think I may have had an experience but I am not sure if I could have actually moved anything with my thoughts...it started about 30 to 45 minutes
after I had smoked a small amount of marijuana (which is something I feel I must only do alone, as I really only use it to calm my thoughts enough to
allow me to examine them more closely) but anyway it started when I was in my bathroom breathing very deeply and just thinking about my life (what had
went on that day, where I imagine myself in the future, what im doing tomorrow, what im doing tonight, what I did yesterday), when I just started
thinking about just being in the bathroom and how the bathroom made me feel, how it effected my thoughts, and what purpose I had to be in the
bathroom, and I came up with only how peaceful and still it was, that is what I liked about it...everything else seemed less then relevant. Then my
thoughts began turning into to something more aggressive (sexual urges, the first thoughts that popped into mind after coming to the conclusion about
the bathroom's stillness) and I simply began imagining myself having very, very, very intense but slow sex and then when I opened my eyes I found
myself slowly air humping the toilet, which made me think "this is absurd why I am doing this?" which then lead me right back into thinking about
just being peaceful and still in the bathroom, except now my heart was pounding faster and I felt more sensitive to the slightest things around me. As
soon as my thoughts shifted again I froze (it felt as if all of that energy I was using to act out my sexual fantasy had simply been drawn back into
me immediately after dropping the thought) however when I froze I couldn't help but wonder if everything else froze too, and what that could mean if
it did, I then began to focus on a dull ringing in my ears, it seemed as if it was something I heard all the time but would usually ignore. I then
decided to close my eyes and just listen to it, and while listening to it I took very deep breaths and let them out even more slowly while I thought
about whether or not I could manipulate my surroundings just with my mind in order to make what seemed like frozen time move around again. About as
soon as I had this thought I began flexing my right arm and leaning towards it, then I imagined my arm getting bigger and moving this growth and power
into my hand (which at this point had begun to shake in an uncontrolled and frankly unconscious manner, my hand no longer felt like just a hand, I
felt like I was holding vibrating air) but then I opened my eyes and saw how my hand was shaking, which scared me so I stopped but I felt some sort of
energy leave my body and remember seeing the air in front of me ripple just ever so slightly. After that I walked to my basement to put a box of
matches back in a glass jar but when I got to the jar my head felt some what foggy and I wondered if I had actually tapped into something I couldn't
explain upstairs. so I began just simply thinking about what had happened and how probable or possible it was that the experience was unusual, then
this lead me to once again closing my eyes and breathing very deeply and heavily, however then I thought I heard matches clank together, but I didn't
consciously acknowledge this until several minutes later when I simply decided to open my eyes because I wanted to go check on a friend who was
playing on my computer. But before I left the room I felt like I was forgetting something, and then I remembered the matches. I checked my pockets and
the top of the washing machine next to me...no luck, then I started trying to remember where I had set them down at and the first place I checked was
the jar that I had originally wanted to put them in, to my surprise they were right there but I don't remember putting them there and certainly
don't remember watching them be placed there, it may be that in my state of mind I simply forgot placing them in the jar but it still seems odd to me