I was in prison for a couple weeks earlier this year for reckless alcohol related charges. I became an alcoholic at age 14, 21 years ago.
I was born again and saved at age 13 and have had faith ever since. So while I was locked up I was extremely grateful to find a book called the power
of right believing or (or 100 days of right believing)
I read the book which had a profound effect on my understanding of what it means to be made righteous through the blood of Christ.
For most of my life I had the idea that God does answer prayers and Jesus does love me but at the same time I was afraid of God and that I angered him
every time I sinned in some way.
I had a heavy feeling of condemnation which now that I look back I see that condemnation was messing with my mind and filling me with fear which
actually caused me to be even more sinful. I really went through the ringer these past 21 years and suffered through problems of my own making...
Sometimes my faith was challenged but im proud to say I always kept my faith...
One thought that really helped me and put me on the path to grace was imagining my own children and how I would treat them for making mistakes which
would be total forgiveness and love and patience...
If God loves us with agape love which is the highest form of love then he is not up there stern and angry with us...
There is a verse in the scriptures that goes something like "which of you if your son asked for bread, would give them a stone, if you being evil
know how to give your children good gifts, how much more will the father bless you"
(Sorry I know I butchered it but don't want to open a new screen and risk losing everything I've written cause that has happened to me before and it
is awful)
Jesus and the Father love you and they are not counting your sins against you......past and future.....all we have to do is believe Jesus died for our
sins and rose again on the third day....after that when God looks at you he sees his Son. Though our sins are like crimson red we are made to be white
as snow....
The only way you can not be saved is blaspheming the Holy Spirt which is knowingly rejecting Jesus...
Once you are saved your saved, after that we should just strive for spiritual growth and a deeper understanding of what the finished work of Christ
on the cross really means....
Some may say that's crazy and people will use this beautiful reality as a license to sin....
In fact, condemnation and trying to live under the law will cause more sin....
Understanding the love and grace of Christ causes you to love Jesus back and have far less temptation or inclination to sin.
When you believe you are the righteousness of God in Christ you naturally become happier and blessed with much less inclination to sin....
God will not punish the same sin twice otherwise it would be double jeopardy.....Christ took the punishment for all of our sins past and future and
the finished work was satisfactory to the Lord.....Jesus took on your sin so that you may be saved.....and it was God who sent him because of his love
for the people in this world.
It is so very wonderful and my life and well being have gotten better as I continue to learn....
What truly amazed me and put me even further on this path was after reading the book and praying earnestly I woke up the day before my release with
the desire to drink completely removed from my mind....this was so profound to me because I was planning on drinking when I got out and I would have
if something very powerful didn't click in my mind....something did click in a supernatural way...
This feeling is still with me and I am still sober and didn't drink after my release....
God blessed me by removing my alcoholism of 21 years...
And addiction that really cause a lot of damage to myself and others....
I pray differently and feel much better with this feeling of grace and my love and relationship with him has grown much stronger....
I'll post a couple of YouTube videos of the man who wrote the book if anyone is interested....I watch or listen nearly every day and he steadily puts
out sermons and messages...
This has been profoundly life changing for me the hopeless drug addict alcoholic.....
edit on 18-9-2021 by GoShredAK because: (no reason given)