originally posted by: CptGreenTea
a reply to: NightSkyeB4Dawn
Well thanks for being positive
Sorry about that.
Life is full of things we cannot control or prevent. The good news comes in how we respond to those events.
It reminds me of an old lady that lived not far from me as a child. She had a tiny house, no bigger than a shed. There was no grass around her house,
but she had several tires, painted white, filled with beautiful flowers all the time in season. She had a dirt floor, that she swept daily, and her
house always looked so neat and clean.
I remember my sassy teen self, once asking her why she spent so much time sweeping dirt.
I will never forget her answer. She told me she was a poor old lady. She said she didn't have much, but that did not mean she had to live in filth,
and that she valued what little she had. Her pride in self kept her strong, gave her purpose, and allowed her to fight back against the debris of
poverty.
There are some things we can't control. But I refuse to give up what little I have. For me, it is not about the outward trappings required for social
acceptance.
I am ready to accept my fate. I have spent a good portion of my life standing up for what I thought was right, when going along to get along, would
have been far easier, and sometimes, far more lucrative.
I have fought enough battles, where when the smoked cleared, I was the last person standing on the battlefield. Alone. With all my fellow combatants,
seeking aide and shelter from the enemy, while repeating over and over about how sorry they were, and listing excuse after excuse, about why they had
to given in.
Yeah. I am not very hopeful that many will stand strong through it all. But it all has a purpose. I may have little hope that I will ever see that
purpose fulfilled, I still find some solace in myself with fighting for my perceived liberties till my death.
I am not trying to sound noble or brave. My time is short anyway, I can only hope to make it mean something, if to no one else. To myself.