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musicismagic
Maybe in some kinds of madness, many psychopaths and sociopaths do not know they are crazy, many of them do and simply do not care.
Many people whom go mad go so suddenly and find it terrifying.
My Example, I was studying for a degree in Electronic Engineering and left my meal for a moment to go to the toilette.
Came back - disgusted at the state of that toilet off the refectory which had been painted inside by someone smearing there poo on the wall's, I did
not even sit on the seat of the toilet it was so bad despite being in pain due to an upset stomach myself and found it very difficult to wash up
afterwards due to there not being a space that had not been smeared in poo by whatever lunatic had done that.
Ate the rest of my meal, being a student money was tight and I was not going to waste it.
Went to the next lecture were the professor had a white beard and a huge gut then it hit me, don't know if I had been spiked after leaving my meal or
something but it started a break down.
Instead of the professor all I could see was Father Christmas, had this urge to chuckle and became two people in my own head, one fighting for
control and terrified and the other laughing and jubilant and mocking, two very different and distinct emotional entity's, me and this other thing
that felt like a crazed violent caged animal laughing and tearing at me from within but whose thoughts I could not read except those it forced into my
mind.
Thing's got worse, I the terrified me that is won out and took back control but could not concentrate, this was coupled with voices, a high pitched
constant whistling sound in my ears and a sense of pressure and buzzing in my temples that did not stop, life became intolerable and as screamed aloud
at this to get out of me and started to walk trying to clear my head at all hours of the day and night I also felt a sensation of being violated
between my leg's, now I am definitely a hetero male so take that as you shall but it made me even more angry and upset trying to fight against
something I could neither grasp at nor see but which seemed to be able to do to me as it wanted.
It was worse for my family having there youngest child and brother going insane and shouting at what they perceived as imaginary being's, they even
thought that I was on drug's which I was not.
In the end I ended up talking aloud, this was in part to drown out the voices and alien thought in my head, thought's that were unpleasant, desires
and ideas that were NOT mine and a fragmenting tormented mind.
Psychologists have there answer but not to the weirder parts of my suffering, objects vanishing, changing and moving of there own accord and other
members of the family having seen this happen so NOT hallucinations.
And yes I did try to Top myself a few times because it was beyond all human tolerance but I have settled with this, if there is another world when I
get over there somehow, some day I am going to get those being's whatever or whoever they are and make them suffer worse than they did me, it's not
about revenge either, I suspect they have a long list of victims and if nobody ever does anything about them they will have many more afterwards so
have got to be stopped permanently.
Now I am not God and admit that even if after what they did to me I do somehow survive they have probably crippled my soul somehow BUT I know that
were there is a will there will always be a way and time, time is not there friend.
So madness, no it can come on swiftly, even if what I suffered was NOT madness it is to society exactly the same thing, anyone seeing, hearing,
feeling what I did would go mad even if they were the most level headed sane person you had ever met, they would end up stark raving lunatic's or at
the very least broken.
I felt betrayed by God, the name of Jesus at first worked but then they came on even stronger in there attack.
But other forms of Madness are simply illness, illness in the form of your brain's chemistry being out of balance.
Rather a more interesting question would be who is sane, what if everyone is just in a trance and going through live in various levels of being
asleep never truly awake?.
Madness though in it's most usable measure would be when a mind can no longer function in society, when a person disrupts society around them so by
that measure madness is everywhere, having your own mind and ideas is a form of madness in that it does not comply with a machines definition of
sanity which would be an unimaginative, empty fact based mind without any free thought.
By that measure is madness even real or is it just someone outside the bounds of socially perceived normality which is itself an undefinable and very
fuzzy measure of what is normal as that can only ever truly be measured as by what is acceptable to a social group.
To the native American tribal in the amazon the white man destroying the world, flying in poison spraying aircraft, poisoning the waters is insane,
to us leaving behind our comfortable modern lifestyle and going to live a shorter and harder life hand to mouth living like those people would be
insane.
Sanity and Insanity in this sense are not clear cut.
But then there are people whom lose control of themselves, people that like to harm other's, people that are so self centred and lacking empathy that
there very existence is a threat to society yet most of them fit well within what is regarded as sane by our society, Psychopath's and Sociopath's so
long as they do not murder or commit any crimes that are detectable fit within social norm's even if in fact they are among the most dangerous in our
society, in fact they seek out positions of power, political careers and professions that give them what they want, in fact our society clap's them on
the back for going and getting what they want and stepping all over everyone else in the process.
So is society Sane?.
I suffered all kinds of weirdness in my decline, seeing demons, having images of people - all men with deranged looking eyes standing in a desert on
the other side of a dry river with no water in it among the red sand and stone staring at me while a voice asked me if I would accept becoming a
medium to which I said NO!.
Even if what I suffered was REAL it would still leave you crazy, ever see real mediums most of them are borderline deranged.
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