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misfit312
Fore note to regulars. I don't want to derail this thread, so I'll make this my last bit on my experiences here (even though they are very much
connected). I am very conscious of over dominating the thread, so I do apologise. I am not seeking attention, so please just skip over this post if
you are wanting pure Q info. Unless something major happens, I'll probably make this my only post today.
Reply to Misfit...
It sounds like we have both been confronted by similar experiences. I totally understand stepping away.
Out of interest, was the craft you saw triangular? (I have a pet theory that craft shape is actually indicative of the mind behind it... triangle is
as minimal, direct and cold as it gets... circular suggests a friendlier occupant).
Experiences that move in to the past, as real as they are.... can seem almost dream like. Self doubt.
Just to expand on the dreams aspect of my experience, at that point, I too was very vocal until this happened. I have rarely censored myself. But this
was all too real and put me into a state of fear... extreme fear (not something I'd want anyone here to ever experience). In this case, though I share
your "believing is seeing" idea in many ways, but this was the opposite. I'd not asked for any of it, and it was (up until this point) spheres that
hadn't directly connected to where I was at/things I was looking at.
It kind of reminds me of 1997s Mel Gibson film... conspiracy theory. In that, he is a bit of a wild theorist putting all kinds of ideas out there, but
then he touches upon one that is actually important, he becomes targeted.
Conspiracy talk is all fun and games until it isn't.
Just to exemplify the things that happened... all of my email accounts were hacked (I had several). My business website was hacked and ruined (all of
this in mere seconds). Google started doing some really heavy handed shadowbanning too. I used to talk a lot in youtube comments. When you go from
having a lot of engagement to zero activity, and then you find out that only you can see your own comments... all of a sudden you realise that you as
a little person are being attacked by a corporation (plus others) with a ridiculous amount of resources... and all I have is my brain and little
money.
I was (and maybe still am) monitored.
But I have reached a point, having confronted fear... to never go there again... that I simply don't care anymore. A middle finger.
I also think that the people who attacked me were very much the same ones that Q is now confronting. More than anything, this is why I stand with Q,
even if I am reluctant to say "I AM A Qanon!".
Just to be clear, I still just consider myself a grain of sand. My story is weird and unique, but I am not saying "hey everyone! Listen to me! I have
a special story.. I AM SPECIAL!!!". I speak about it because I just want people to understand that as a long time theorist and researcher, I've paid a
price for understanding. That this stuff is very much real.
I don't care if people are sceptical, but I do care that they are careful in their approach. Not to say, don't speak up, but to realise that once you
enter the land of the woo, do not be surprised if you bump into it.
I have no reputation to uphold, nor do I make any money from speaking up... In fact, all I do is damage myself really. But being honest about it is
more important to me than keeping quiet.
Regarding dreams...I really sympathise. Not wanting to sleep because of the nightmares is horrible. Awful. Soul destroying.
The reason I mentioned the dreams I had, is that they were so out of the ordinary that it seriously shocked me. Instead of sleep being a safe haven
from the daily reality (which was bad enough at this point), the dream state had become something to avoid. Interestingly, the entities that appeared
in my dreams, though obviously weren't "good guys", were not who I was looking at, at all! It came out of left field... and in a crazy turn of events,
the very people that would seem to be the Q target are the very ones that injected themselves into my sleep.
To put it another way, the Royal Family were never on my radar until that night... but from that point onwards, you would never hear a good word from
my mouth about them. The dream so intrusive, that they became one of my main focuses for anger. Since that point, they have started to be revealed,
confirming the validity of it all. So so weird. It also speaks to the importance of what I found. The bit I shared on the previous page, a mere
fraction of it.
I will say one thing regarding sleep and some advice to you personally Misfit... ATS doesn't let us talk about or promote drug use of any kind last
time I checked. For good reason. However, I will merely say that I had to turn to a very common substance during this time that has been legalised in
the US... but not over here. You'll have to make an educated guess, as I don't want to upset ATS. But, for all its negatives, it has an aspect of
suppressing dreams.
If they get that bad, then I can think of no other way. I'm not talking about recreation, this was medical necessity.
This isn't advice that I'd normally put out there, but this is a unique thing, and when you can't sleep because of it, it can be life destroying.
Beyond that, I have no other ideas. Background familiar films/music might guide your dreams to more comforting places. But sadly, that is all I've
got. Maybe a little prayer before you sleep asking for protection wouldn't hurt.
Note to ATS mods, if you feel I have crossed a line in this last paragraph, I do apologise. I am not promoting, and this is about a medical approach
to a mental issue. I've avoided naming anything and have tried my best to keep it vague. But if you feel it is still out of place, I just request that
you snip the last paragraph only rather than delete the whole post. I only bring this up because of concern for a fellow ATSer. I will gladly receive
a warning/point reduction if that is what has to be done.
Kindest regards.