a reply to:
Raggedyman
I don't want to convert you!
I couldn't care less about your convictions, believe or whatever.
But I find it sad you hold such an anger against any one that dares to challenge your world view.
I can understand you decided yourself, because I know how unpleasant the tension is the two exert on us as long we don't decide.
Deciding is an act of war, not of love!!!
I haven't decided, and I'm currently keeping the ones from below out of my heart, I love them as i love the ones from above, but I want to sit around
the fire in my heart under the tree of life and I want the sun to caress us.
While we enjoy the fruits of our lord together, but somehow it's never enough and they bring so much darkness it threats to suffocate my fire and
darkens the sun.
They get out for a walk from time to time, we are still in the adaption phase, the light is very blinding for them and some want to protect themselves
by covering everything in darkness, thats when they go back under.
Some are realy mean and come with bad intent, they go straight up to heaven.
I have no time nor the energy to deal with them, not in this limited form.
They will get it!
Patience...
I believe in nature and the first most fundamental aspect of thriving live, is the unification of opposites. The moment live had to mate in order to
give birth to a new, they skyrocket in diversity and adaptability.
So you have kids, as i do, what did you learn, from them?
By the way i find the notion that you make your kids suffer out of love very terrible, adults that have such a relationship between eachother are
considered sadistic. But with kids many parents see it as a legitimate relationship.
Think about that and what Jesus preaches. I'm shure he is no sadist, not saying you are, it's just a very alien concept to me.
Compassion , patience, explaining, more patience more explaining, and more patience that's the way no suffering needed, they will get it not because
they fear my reaction if they don't do as I say but because they realy understood what is bothering me. Oh and my patience fails too, but I'm not
justifying it, I'm trying to make it better the next time.
What I learned from my kids is the inevitable manifestation of the saying that the whole is more than the sum of it's parts.
It's so obvious in my face i could never again decide for one or the other option in all dualistic aspects.
I will elaborate:
My boys are part his father , part his mother, and something completely unique as well.
What I try to do is observe my surroundings, try to see what it tells me, if I find patterns that are consistent throughout all parts, I'm pretty
confident, it holds a deeply rooted thruth, one that brings me closer to God.
So the real thing is probably the unification of god and the devil, and the emerging new that comes out of it.
I don't need any book to tell me this, while i use all books to find leads...
I'm sorry I bothered you with my satanic bable.
I will stop now
Sincerely NC