BS of the Hive Mind: Mental illiness, possession, paranormal etc

- It all started with a dream at the tender age 10ish. I had dream that I was in a part of my back yard in a wooden chair. All around me was white, except for the small portion of grass and kudzu. Out of no where a booming voice that sounded like all the sounds of the world in one said "everyone is responsible for what they do." The voice was accompanied by a wooden chair across for me. In this wooden chair different people flashed in and out of this chair. An adult male, elderly woman finally all appear in the chair one by one. I awoke and cried under a table.

That is how it all started, I know your wondering what does this have to do with the title. It has everything to do with the title, because everything you know about the things listed the title is BS.

Mental illness - Schizophrenia involves a range of problems with thinking (cognition), behavior or emotions. Signs and symptoms may vary, but usually involve delusions, hallucinations or disorganized speech, and reflect an impaired ability to function.

Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks.

Just to name two of them.

Now what if I told you all of that is cause by one thing. Technology mixed with the hive mind theory. I hear a voice in my head that was loud then slowly became quieter as I did things to mess with my ears. Like playing loud music in my earphones and wearing ear plugs allowed me to hear things that were unnatural. Sounds from a hearing test, crickets, computer voice and distant voices of people doing various things.
Before you shun me, hear me out and yes I took my meds this morning.


Now the voices have appeared in three separate events in my lifetime:
- As a child (heard my name called)
- In basic training (religion)
- While going thru a divorce (word game like do and do not or scientific theories)

Typical BS types of stuff: do nothing, religion, killing people, playing word games and discussion of scientific theories. Mind you; my morals and values are in the right place.
I do not condone killing or other abusive behaviors.
So anyway, in basic training, everything was going fine until I started to heard this voice in my head talking about religion and how it is bs. Though at the same time I begin to acting irrational and phantom pains. Mom is a nurse and I studied a lot of psychology material. So, I know it was not natural nor was I aware of what I was going thru. Just that it must be because of stress from basic, so I left the armed forces and went back to being a civilian. Upon arriving home I did not heard the voice again.

Now this is where it gets interesting, I meet my ex-wife, have a child and start my American dream. I started to hear the voice again, realizing that it was a voice in my head though the voices seem to be spot on about what other people were thinking. After that I started to see objects that seem to morph and shadowy figures. (Mind you I have seen a stop sign turn into a dancing gingerbread man, blame it on the weed.) So I go to therapy. Then the meds do not seem to work as good. Long story short, I begin to realize the voice seem like a real person. So I begin to ask it questions and it said it could not answer those question but others it would. (Skip months of talking with the voice.)

Things begin to move or I hear strange noises and lights flicking. Then I started to hear voices of people I knew in high school. That is when things started to make sense. Peoples minds were connected through sex (learned that in sex ed). When I ask them what they are doing the voices tell me they are just sitting there. Then one said they had on a helmet. So i am like wait, then another said I am watching tv with my husband. After that
I am like are these real people for real. So then a group of new voices start but their more annoying than the last voices and they keep telling me to go places and do things they so. So I do some of the things the voices tell me.

Man were the new voices loud and never stopped talking, then sometimes the ringing in my ears would block out the voices. When they said things I would drop things or move a certain way. Something similar to what some would call possession. Then one day will I was at work and I left my daughter with the neighbors. (Just divorce mind you) I got off and my daughter was not there. So then these voices started telling me my daughter had been kidnapped. So I call my wife but no answers. So I try to find her and keep calling but no luck. Months go by still no sign of my daughter but no one seems to care. Everyone I talk to in my family just keep telling me to not worry. Then the voices tell me they killed her and my ex-wife who I have not seen in months.

Every police station I call said they would not look for her. So I begin to look for them myself, but they had no known address. That is when I panicked and begin to look everywhere. While in TX, something feel like I got shot in the chest and my whole body begin to feel like it was shutting down. And I had what felt like a stroke so I ended up not being able to move and stop on the interstate. And the sheriff came and pick me of but did not arrest me. A sheriff I seen with a blank look and strange mannerism as though he was not himself. He made a face like from the matrix movies as though his mind had been taken over. Then it was back to home.

Anyway, the voices tell me if I want my daughter back, I have to do what they say. Though when I do what they say, I experienced what some would call the mandela effect: roads appearing and people appearing that were not there before. I begin to see strange things when I closed my eyes strange images of what the voices were talking about. Nor would they let me sleep and I had no appetite. Then, they would say my parents house is haunt and doors begin to slam on there on and they keep wanting me to look in the mirror.

Just seem weird, when I did what they wanted me to do the sheriff picked me up but did not arrest me, just took me to the hospital and left there.
So that is not the end of my hive mind theory. It seemed like ghosts or something but what if it was other people just sitting there talking? It is late, I am off track and it gets much worse. Still looking for my daughter, rape, more arrests but no charges, burglary, almost no heart beat, constant heart attacks and paranormal activity.

-Pop4life-

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RE: I begin to see strange things

Normal for you.

a reply to: Pop4life
You may need to speak with someone with a prescription pad.

My guess is your condition drove your daughter and ex wife into hiding. The cops and your family maybe telling you to ignore it because they know your ex and daughter are safe but can’t tell you because That’s the request of your ex wife and daughter.

Your condition wasn’t very noticeable in your youth but I’m guessing something happened in basic training which made it worse. They should have never accepted you into basic with a mental condition because the stress of it can break you and make it worse.

Your condition can effect you based off what your mind focuses on. If it’s violent thoughts you distance yourself from them as if they are not your own thoughts and give them a personality or name and you will truely believe they are not your own words. However it’s just you!

The meds you are taking are not working and you need help. I really hope you seek out the correct help you need, and I’m truely sorry this is your battle in life.

How about this imagine that your daughter and your ex are alive- but your daughter needs you to get better she needs you to really work on getting better.

you take your meds everyday and work with a psychologist, you rationalize your inner thoughts into only reality based thought ,ignore conspiracy theory, ignore paranormal, ignore science fiction based thought process because that will get you to your daughter.

By ignoring I simply mean place them into the not reality category. Do not do what the voices tell you and Don’t trust them as real.

If you need to talk to someone I will give you an email but avoid this website not because I don’t want you here but because it will make your condition worse.

Sounds like stress and textbook schizophrenia.

Hi Pop4life.

Reading over your op, some thoughts come to mind.

First, thanks for sharing.It takes a courage to open up and share about these kinds of experiences.I'm not close to anyone who has been diagnosed with Schizophrenia, though I have first hand experience with Bipolar Type 2.

I tend to wonder when individuals describe hearing voices, if it's their personal internal voice or if it's more like a actual sound one hears. Idk, that may be a vague way to put it.

For me, my internal voice is kind on the silent side.A soft voice is the way I perceive it.The voice of my own thoughts, mostly ego and intuition.I perceive it as a kind of sound, but it's different then the sound coming in through my ears.Similar more specifically to sight being something that I physically see (external), while vision is more in my minds eye (internal).

You described that the voice was spot on about what people were thinking.What gives you that impression?Idk,like taking the words out of someone's mouth or perhaps something else?

Your mention of basic training and stress reminds me of the role stress has played in my own life's mental health. Idk, I hear the training prospective servicemen can be quite extreme at times.For me, prolonged elevated stress and sleep deprivation are definitely triggers.

Talking with friends with similar conditions, I've noticed that they all tend to be the kind of people who will push their limits to the max, more so then most.I figure there is only so much the body can take, before the mind is adversely effected.

Half way through your op, you mention your divorce, and starting to search for your daughter.I get the impression that perhaps she could be with your ex.Your description of your experiences afterwards sound like you may have entered psychosis at the time.It's understandable, especially given the circumstances.

I've been there several times myself, it's almost like my dream world starts overlapping with my waking life.It can be really amazing, and incredibly scary at the same time, these kinds of altered states.I tend to forget most of the particulars of these experiences.I chalk that up to sleep deprivation and the subsequent processing afterwards (trying to glean the lessons learned).

Typically, I end up visiting the psych ward.I'm grateful all my friends and family know about my diagnosis.It really helps having others looking out for me.


Idk,this internal voice I perceive. During particularily stressful times in my life it has sometimes been really bothersome.There are various ways to picture it, I tend to default to the image of a little daimon and angel on my shoulders. Idk, like conscious and ego.My ego has sometimes harassed me, nonstop.Like it won't shut up.It can be really tiresome putting up with.Usually after I get some rest, or address the issue constructively, this behavior stops.In psychosis this is not always the case, however. Antipsychotics did do the trick, and I finally could enjoy some inner silence.It gave me the breathing space I so badly needed in order to rest properly.

You left off your in your last paragraph, I think you mentioned more to the story.

Dreams, hive mind, mental health and some of the other topics you touched upon are all interests of mine, interesting op.

Please practice eating, sleeping well, and taking your medication.I know meds kind of suck, but they are valuable tool to finding the stability to make the most of what life throws at us. Conditions like these can feel overwhelming to deal with, your not alone and others have worked through similar challenges. Stigma can be a bitch to deal with, that's why it's important to speak up.

At this point I wish you luck putting the pieces together, God willing your daughter is with family.

Peace

Having some kind of sense when a close family member goes through a traumatic experience does happen at times. I don't know what to make of any Mandela effect or hearing voices. I hope you can find some closure to these troubling issues and establish some truth of this reality.

originally posted by: Veryolduser
How about this imagine that your daughter and your ex are alive- but your daughter needs you to get better she needs you to really work on getting better.

This.

This is a great point.Many figure that due to genetics, mental health challenges of this variety tend to run in families.The better you practice looking after yourself, better you will be able to practice looking after your daughter.

My own daughters have a similar diagnosis to me, if I was unable to make sense of my own experience they would probably be in a perilous situation say the least.The understanding you cultivate wrestling with yourself can be priceless for her.

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I tend to wonder when individuals describe hearing voices, if it's their personal internal voice or if it's more like a actual sound one hears. Idk, that may be a vague way to put it.

Schizophrenics often hear sounds that seem external and real, although they also can experience uncontrollable inner dialog which is often dark and hateful thoughts bubbling up from the subconscious mind. Unfortunately some of them act on these thoughts and do what the voices tell them, which is really their own voice coming from the worst part of them. They are unable to control the voices though so I don't totally blame them for being driven crazy.

Thanks all for the love and replies.

Its been awhile, yes I thought mental illness too. Though I have been having to many coincidences. Like doctors being angry for no reasons, I felt like my gallbladder ruptured. Went to the doctor only to see that nothing was wrong with me.

I would like to write more but the more I write the harder it gets to think.

My idea on it is technology that affects the neo cortex in a way you can not see and its affecting certain people.
My brother has Schizophrenia and my has bipolar.

The voices get frantic the more I write, but I have to keep going.

Someone said to contact through chat would love to, but your message disappeared. Please repost person.

A wife actually went missing in auburn where I live, I heard something similar to that situation. I ran around the whole city but could not find her. But I have felt things that are not there, what I call the metaphysical. Like kisses, peoples acid reflex breath, breast, pushing , shoving and injures.

What to write more but I need to get my thoughts together and finish the story cause it might all be connect in auburn, al.

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The voices get frantic the more I write, but I have to keep going.

That's because your mind becomes more active when writing, the creative parts of your brain are firing more rapidly, your inner dialog becomes more active as you focus on translating your thoughts into letters, and I would guess all that elevates the level of issues you are experiencing.

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Intense feelings of fear, or excitement may produce two different corresponding voices or attracted energies.

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Pop4life - I have a family member that had a very similar situation, although their spouse with children went into hiding. This family member had a mental breakdown. Voices started, the person could not tell reality from non-reality, suicidal thoughts erupted, major depression and anxiety. The voices were the worst. Then the slander and attacks towards long loving family members started. The authorities which were overworked could not and sometimes would not help this person. It was horrible. We waiting for the phone to ring fully expecting the worst news. We were only told if this person wasn't a danger to someone else or to themselves then there was nothing they could do, never mind that every time this person actively tried to harm themselves was every time we were unable to get authorities to help them and by the time they would get there during the times our loved one was in trouble the moment had passed. And so therefore they were left to drift lost and broken.

But, the voices were the worst. There were many voices, many false memories. It was on such a huge scale that it overtook everything.

A psychiatrist was finally brought into the picture and this person was put on Abilify. After two months of being on the medication It has brought our loved one back to us. This person has a job, has their own place, is functioning in healthy ways and is back to "normal" and the bonus is that they are now in contact with their spouse and preparations are being discussed to reuniting the children with their healing parent. It is a true miracle.

There is great hope for you. I will pray for you. You can PM me any time.

See a doctor and that way you will take care of the medical side of things. Pray. And I will pray too. That way the body and soul gets the help it needs. It will all start to get better. I'm so glad you opened up about this. No one should suffer like this.

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That clarifies it some more for me.In my day to day, I don't hear things often.Looking back, I've heard my name sometimes and that has helped me avoid possible accidents.Like almost getting hit by a car, when crossing the intersection for example.I think it's part of my subconscious looking out for me in those situations.

Part of my curiosity about this, is I've noticed when I'm psychotic I tend to experience greater pareidolia (with sounds).For example I remember hearing what sounded like a code blue in the "reality department" while waiting in the hospital to be seen.I asked the nice constable who brought me down what he just heard.I believe he said that someone needed help in the radiography department or something similar sounding.

Someone lately had posted about individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia perhaps hearing their own subvocalizations.I found this comment intriguing.Imo it brought to mind a possible mechanism for a form of telepathy.Years ago, I had read an old book on psi, where the author was suggesting a technique for reading others sub vocal speech. Idk where the book went, I may have got rid of it during spring cleaning.This is an area that I noted to do further research.

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I can relate to that, the way I described the duality of my conscious/ego is definitely more pronounced under duress.Growing up the contrast in life's duality was something I had to learn to make peace with.Fortunately, I've grown and have a deeper understanding of how that expresses itself in the world around me.Most of the time, I experience an internal monologue unless I'm using my imagination to explore creatively.It's good feeling in control.

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Thinking some more about these kinds of experiences.The altered states that show there may be more to life, like synchronicity, the power of dreams, and psi for example can be fascinating.In psychosis they tend to be more obvious.

That being said, try not to get distracted by the "other worldy" aspect of these experiences. Imo, It's important to practice building yourself up through Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.A more solid base there will hopefully provide the foundation to explore those areas deeper further down the road (with greater clarity of mind).Imo, the mechanics involved are difficult to study when one has bigger fish to fry.

I bring this up, having a close friend who has gone down a similar path to my own.I practice doing my best to point him in the right direction with his struggles.Sometimes I feel a little disappointed because his fascination with the subtle side of life has distracted him from making the more of his potential.Practice avoiding recreational drugs and alcohol whenever possible.Take care of the little things, and the bigger things will take care of themselves.

a reply to: Pop4life
Have you recently had a CT scan on your brain?
The physical things you’re describing points to brain tumor or ms.

Disclaimer- I am not a medical professional in any sense.

The first thing I would do is make sure you have no psychoactive chemicals in your system.
That may mean removing yourself from any environment that promotes smoking whether that is Nicotine, or one of the many other psychoactive drugs. You should give up oral consumption of stimulants since even Caffeine and sugar can effect brain function.
This is the last known picture of Jimi Hendrix, so you may even have to give up British tea..



Pythagoras was required to water fast for 40 days before his examination at Alexandria but that is super strict.

I hear things all the time but its mostly ghosts, and I can often track down the source by reviewing what I have been thinking about recently and the music I have been listening to. Memories sometimes persist longer than they should and don't die on their own.

That photo of Jimi triggered voices speaking about roses, rather than just wait I pulled up this video which helps explain the issue.



Pretty straight forward until Ray tries to explain deep one.

Pretty sure he is talking about deep state memory aliasing which is explained here with more rigorous mathematical examples. Scroll down to the graphs if you are not up to the math.

www.audiostream.com...

I learned about this stuff on an oscilloscope back in the early 60's so I was able to find this dynamic example of aliasing that you can hear. Visually its still two dimensional but its dynamic.



Bees have a waggle dance and a circle dance which might be analyzed with the proper aliasing. There is more to it than a simple base 6 conversion though. Hope this is on topic, sorry if the earlier is not.

I had dream that I was in a part of my back yard in a wooden chair.

There is a universal "devils seat".
Generally manifests as dark matter.
Can be modeled as nodal qualities or Fraunhofer lines for the purposes of determinate classification.
Your signal alias is potentially of the "wooden" chair palimpsest painted by Da Vinci?

I personally tend to focus on the chair "padding" or the way it was upholstered rather than "kill the messenger" so to speak.

Of course you can freeze your psychotic breaks by oversampling the signal and project an aliased signal.

For example you could probably trace this psychotic break back to a Hendrix alias bending on the 15th fret.
There is even some nuance in the angular rotation here.



But obviously Jimi Hendrix teaching quantum physics is not a universal interpretation.
Feyerabend's critique of the Copenhagen interpretation is more widely read.

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The hive speaks lol