The Shed 23

a reply to: Finspiracy

Hahaha! I'm a cat person too. You should have asked the magician lady to use her magic to make dog food for your new puppy being.

a reply to: Finspiracy

I'm still laughing at the dancing alien. LOL

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: Finspiracy

Hahaha! I'm a cat person too. You should have asked the magician lady to use her magic to make dog food for your new puppy being.

LOL i know you are a cat person. You have sent me, here at the Shed, pictures and videos of beautiful cats. Trust me, i appreciate that greatly. I would have a pet cat right here, right now, if i would be responsible enough to even take good care of myself.

a reply to: Finspiracy

Well you can have all the cats you want in here.

I'll gift you with this little one to get you started.

a reply to: Night Star

That is just quite simply...

Awesome!!

a reply to: XXXN3O

Hi XXX! How are you?
You can have a kitten too. I got that one from Hogwarts.

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: XXXN3O

Hi XXX! How are you?
You can have a kitten too. I got that one from Hogwarts.

How am I? You will probably wish you never asked but im thankful you did

Im fine as they say but in honesty ive spent the last 10 years piecing a shocking lot of tragedies, abuse, and more back together with research and reached a conclusion... I must fight back! Ive made peace with a lot of people this past year, has not been easy either the hardest was with myself. Yet some of the things ive learned are worse than I thought they were after listening to others when confronted.

I'll either make it out of this better for it or ill be a tiny little speck of dirt on someone elses shoes soon... but... I need to do it to live life and move on!!

Life is so #ty at times, life... and ive met too many people who have not tried to fight the good fight and have come to me to make them feel better with the abuse they have been through too with hypnotherapy and other things. Im so tired of keeping up the facade of sitting back and not fighting anymore!

Yeah, probably makes no sense .
Thats cool either way, but I think im going for it now! (got a lot of feckers in my way but im fighting and ill go out with a bang if I have too, I have my family behind me again, my partner and friends, they know all about it!!!)

ROAR!!!!

I cant hide what people did to to me, I cant hide anymore and im cool with it, I cannot hide from the monster I almost became either, part of life learning the dark side of the self, im going to speak up now and get back to what I love... making people laugh with each other and love



I recently learned I had an uncle that died in his youth too... learned so much from digging and some other family members I never even met.
Its weird but all the same, I keep feeling drawn to the same thing...

Fight the bloody good fight, making people laugh again and wow it is going to be something if I manage it after everything learned I think!

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I knew about your Mom's blood pressure, but didn't know she had signs of a mini stroke. Mark has had one in the past and was hospitalized, but he was lucky and didn't get any paralysis or speech impediments or anything. They will get your Mom on the right meds and you have to watch sodium levels of course. He is also on a blood thinner.
Praying for you and your family Blue.

Like Fin said, we are here for you. Hugs!

The mini-stroke was never actually mentioned by mom or dad but, based my my experience and reading, all the signs were there for this to have possibly occurred.

a reply to: XXXN3O

You said that your post probably does not make any sense.

But it made perfect sense to me, and i am not even awake.

Good thing that you shared with us, the things that are on your mind.

I will make some coffee now, in an attempt to wake up ->

originally posted by: Finspiracy
a reply to: XXXN3O

You said that your post probably does not make any sense.

But it made perfect sense to me, and i am not even awake.

Good thing that you shared with us, the things that are on your mind.

I will make some coffee now, in an attempt to wake up ->

Thanks Fin...

Im so angry, so upset, so confused and something inbetween if im honest.

It is good to just know that someone, somewhere has understood it.

Thank you!

God, ive been such a twat, yet so on the ball yet so stupid as feck... Its so hard and ive been stabbed in the back by so many people that were "friends"... yet my partner has stood by me and I met with my old man last month and others, they get it after showing them..

Yet im afraid to tell it as it means all the chaos was never self inflicted like I led myself to believe, its quite frankly batman

Thanks for the kind words mate, sometimes all you need is just another person to say, "I get it" and it makes it feel better

- Beats bookface anyday

I actually have a list of people that have slandered me with names and addresses, group relations, even family ties and more, but the sad thing is if I publish this and it gains an audience...
(I have enough people that will see it) it will cause more hassle than I have had due to this stalker that is a relative of a person involved.
My own family has ties to these people too and social groups... it feels like setting off a bomb of sorts against the past, yet im the person feeling this when ive been labelled an evil one so to speak.)

My own family tree has ties with the people slandering me on multiple layers but ive got them, all of it...

a reply to: XXXN3O

You made sense to me XXX. Your bravery and determination to keep fighting and moving forward is inspiring. When people go through too much for too long, it can swallow them alive and haunt them. I often tell my Sheddites to raise their swords high. That means, we sometimes have to be a warrior and battle our way through the chaos and confusion of life.

I guess we're all a little broken from past traumas and struggles, but we still have our light inside, even if it merely flickers before becoming bright again. We have shared much here in the Shed and there are always people who will hold our hands and give us hugs. There is much love and compassion here. I am very proud of you and all the others for holding on, for pushing forward and for being here for each other. Hugs!

a reply to: XXXN3O

I feel like you might think about everything too much. I do that. It is a curse.

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: XXXN3O

You made sense to me XXX. Your bravery and determination to keep fighting and moving forward is inspiring. When people go through too much for too long, it can swallow them alive and haunt them. I often tell my Sheddites to raise their swords high. That means, we sometimes have to be a warrior and battle our way through the chaos and confusion of life.

I guess we're all a little broken from past traumas and struggles, but we still have our light inside, even if it merely flickers before becoming bright again. We have shared much here in the Shed and there are always people who will hold our hands and give us hugs. There is much love and compassion here. I am very proud of you and all the others for holding on, for pushing forward and for being here for each other. Hugs!

My father is telling me, do it!

My partner is saying, do it!

My friends are saying, do it!

You know, I just wish it was as simple as... hey want to come to a comedy show and have a laugh...



But cannot get back to it until ive cleared out a lot of things... could get interesting, if I dont get shot for it, talking politicians, certain club members, abuse rings and more, it all got quite strange but serious (seriously)!

a reply to: XXXN3O

im going to speak up now and get back to what I love... making people laugh with each other and love.

I keep feeling drawn to the same thing...

Fight the bloody good fight, making people laugh again...

You will be on that stage again doing what you love and it will be rewarding and fun and make you happy again.

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: Finspiracy

Well you can have all the cats you want in here.

I'll gift you with this little one to get you started.

Aww. Thanks, good woman. The last time you gave me a virtual cat, i named it "Night moon" because you are Night Star and in the picture, the cat was staring at the moon.

This one i will call "Jaguar". Obviously, he or she does not look anything like a jaguar, but might feel like one, inside. Maybe the little cat is somehow connected to distant cousins in Africa, who roam freely and stand tall and brave, therefore i have to give some respect.

originally posted by: Finspiracy
a reply to: XXXN3O

I feel like you might think about everything too much. I do that. It is a curse.

Yeah I thought that too...

Until I opened my eyes

Seriously, some of the nonsense ive came across, pfft.

Yet, some of the stuff is quite shocking too and deserves a thread of its own. Entertainment and other things, madness

a reply to: XXXN3O

Your videos are a riot! You are wonderful at what you do. And...no getting shot, that is not allowed.

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: XXXN3O

Your videos are a riot! You are wonderful at what you do. And...no getting shot, that is not allowed.

I will let you in on a secret....

It is the people that volunteer, they are totally amazing but they do not know it!

I wont get shot, ive only ever done good but im thinking of calling out some...

a reply to: Finspiracy

Awwww, I had forgotten about the other cat. Sweet, now you have two.

Jaguar is a great name for the distant cousin who roams freely and stands tall and brave.

a reply to: XXXN3O

You help to bring out the amazing though.