My 2 Latest Verses... Still Undecided On An Instrumental. (HipHop)

a reply to: Mike Stivic

Nice, mate.
And thanks for the kind words too.

I’ll be in with you guys ASAP...
Got caught up yesterday, should have enough free time tonight though.

Managed to read most of page 1, I loved what I saw.
I can only imagine it’s got better and better.

The following is unfinished...
But what I have so far is probably the closest I’ve come in this thread to opening up fully with my true state of mind, as opposed to just ranting and raving about all sorts of nonsense.
That’s not likely to happen very often

This actually took some thought.



I Ain’t One To Pent Up Anger...
I Just Let It Fly... Like Who Cares...
But Beware... Cos I Just Lost A Friend To Cancer...
For The Second Time... In Less Than 2 Years...

Haven’t Cried A Few Tears... As Of Yet...
The Rage Has Delayed Them..
A Lot Of Guys Would Choose Beers...
For Me... It’s Vodka Instead...
The Pain Has Awakened...

My Darker Side... Which I Feel...
Like I’ve Suppressed For An Epoch...
The Sort Of Murderous Anger You Feel...
When Ya Listen To D-Block...

You Know The Rage I Mean...
The “I Wanna Stab A Brudda For Nothing” Mentality...
But I Truly Don’t Wanna Succumb...
To This Numbness And Anger, G...

With A Bloodlusting Emotion On The Brain...
It’s Hard To Look For Some Logic...
Just Trying To Remind Myself...
If I React How I Feel To...
Nothing Good Can Come From It...

Only More Pain Arises...
But Inflicted By Me... Onto Others...
Which Is Selfish And Unrighteous...
And Worse... It’s Deep On My Mother...

An Irate Militant F#er...
Unleashing Terror... Cos I Lost Someone Close...
But If I Make Innocents Suffer...
I’d Be No Better Than What I Oppose...

Many Were Influenced By Kool G...
Others By Shabazz The Disciple...
Which Means If I Attempt To Focus On My Writing...
I Can Try To Adapt To This Cycle...

Lost A Couple Grandparents...
Likely Another Soon Due To Dementia...
But Honestly... I’ve No Past Experience...
In Dealing With Losing A Friend, Bruh...

Which Could Be Considered A Blessing...
Cos There’s No Doubts That Others Do...
But It Just Seems Really Unfair...
Cos In Only A Year And A Half...
It’s Not 1... But 2...

It’s Not Even How I’m Feeling...
As To Why I’ve Written These Verses...
I’m Angry For Them And Their Fam...
Cos They Were Amazing People...
Who Didn’t Deserve This...

I Dealt With S#... All My Life...
Including Coping With Hell Compounded Stress...
But This S#... Right Here...
It’s The Closest I Felt To Powerless...





I may continue with this now, though I haven’t slept at all yet (and it is now 10:00am here, which adds up to about 20hrs without rest), I may nod off eventually to recuperate, but while I’m still in this zone it’ll increase the chances of keeping this specific work on a single train of thought.

Sorry for the lack of updates guys...
Been stuck in my notepad for days now.



Though I do have the following gem for you all... Hope you enjoy. 😬👍

Currently torn in a title, but I’m pretty certain that I’ll call it;

How To Piss Off Everyone In The World!!!


Whole Globe’s Press Has Got The Hump...
Still Haven’t Processed The Loss...
The Mugs... Are So Obsessed...
With Protesting Donald Trump...

Gone Beyond The Fun And Games...
It’s Well Known... I’m A Raging Schizo...
Still Feel Blessed, That I Don’t Suffer Any...
Trump Derangement Syndrome...

Is Trump A Racist Dick...Yo...
I’m Prob’ly One To Say “I Think So”...
You Can Claim Resistance If You Want...
But It Won’t F#ing Change A Thing Though..

Besides... That Cause Is Cursed...
Cos Yo... In Spite Of His Infamy...
It Says That You’re With Her...
& I Won’t Be Siding With Hillary...

Hollywood’s Scum As Well...
The Moral High Ground Is Barren...
Also... If They’ve Always Hated Donald...
Why Now This Happens???...

It’s See Through Drama...
For Tinseltown Elite To Bitch And Whine..
See, Soon After The #MeToo Saga...
How They’ve Treated Ginuwine..

S#... Ignore Them Double Standards...
Of The Left’s Agenda... Instead...
Let’s Remember, How Many Have Now...
Been Exposed As Sex Offenders...

And Yeah... The Spectrum’s Centre...
Is As Bad As Right And Left...
Not Cos They Won’t Pick Sides...
But Like The Rest..
They Still Defend The Paradigm To Death...

It Felt Like It Was Months...
All Them Obsessed With Pussy Grabbing...
And Now Oprah’s Supporting Weinstein...
While Baldwin’s Defended Woody Allen...

Should Be Hanging, Till They Turn Blue...
Give Em Rope, For F# Sakes...
Especially After These Sickos...
All Virtue Signalled Over Trump Tapes...

I Don’t Trust A Soul...
Who Claims Their Narrative Is Uncontrolled...
Plus F# The Polls... & Anyone Else...
From Activists... To Russian Trolls...

Stuck In Roles... Designed To Attract Their Nature, Specifically...
Persuade Em... A Change Is Within Their Reach...
Then Have Em Played Like A Symphony...

That Goes For Everybody...
Not Just Trump And His Supporters...
Damn, Retardedness Is So Pandemic...
Something Must Be In The Water...

Convinced Your Warped Opinion’s Fact...
And That Your’s Have Wore Their Thinking Caps...
But What’s Been Pouring Through Ya Taps...
Got You Morons, Lured Into A Trap...

Ponder The Collective Negative Energy Of Many...
Mostly Forced To Think They Hate You...
With No Personal Encounters...
& So... The Only Source Of It, Is Fake News...

If Ya Won’t Ignore The Bits That Ain’t True...
You Have No Leg To Stand On...
You Think Just Cos You Protest The Ban...
It Justifies Your Progressive Tantrum...

Those, Opposed As Foes...
Provoked With Insults... Tend To Stand Strong...
You Only Explode The Cult Growth...
And Even Know This, When You’re Damn Wrong...

Plus, Despite My Own Ideas, In Regards...
To Assassinating World Leader’s...
I Remain Aware... It Only Happens...
If The Plan Is Made By Worse Creatures..

I’m Usually One Of The First...
Critical Of Trump’s Job Performance...
But I’d Be Suspicious As Hell...
If He Was Bumped Off, On Orders...

Some Want The Borders Open...
To The Unwashed... Who Come...
From The Corners Of Earth...
While Trump’s Got His Wallers...
Who Love And Trust Fox Reporters...

I’m Watching All This... And Sure...
It’s Some Odd Disorder Going Round...
They Hope To Sound, So Profound...
But It Seems As If Most Of Them Folks Are Clowns...

They Gotta Tone It Down...
That Goes For All Of Em, On Both Sides...
Should Try To Prioritise...
What’s Most Important In Your Own Lives...

So Lost In The Bottomless Pit...
Of The Soap Opera That Politics Is...
Solved Problems Are Not On The Lists...
Of Those Who Broke Promises, Often As This...

The Worst Thing Is...
The Most Vocal Dissent..
Comes From The Worst Critics...
Turn Two Minutes Of Hate Discussion...
Of Nothing, Into Days...
But Term Limits?...

You Heard Crickets... S#...
There Should Even Be Test Screening...
Are They Easy To Vet?... Please...
Is The Media Left Leaning?...

And Tell Me, When Did Mediocre Hosts...
Of Comedy Shows...
Decide To Leave The Jokes... To Boast...
As Though They’re Policy Pros...

Wannabe Posers’ Hypocrisy Knows...
No Boundaries... And Any Left...
With A Shred Of Honesty, Though...
Won’t Doubt Me... Now We See...

That’s The Way It Goes Down...
They Display It So Proudly...
If You’re Facing Woes... Take Control...
Don’t Do What Makes Their Shows Lousy...

They’re Telling You How To Think...
Then They Get In A Round Of Drinks...
If You Let Em, Now They’ve Found Out...
How To Get In Your Head...
And Enter Without A Shrink...

Straight Into The Gate...
Twisting Your Fate... Oh, Isn’t It Great...
As They Sit In The Richest Estates...
Ya Bitter, With Hate.. In Twitter Debate...

If You’re Willingly Enrolled...
In Their Social Experiments...
Just Go All The Way For Them...
And Let Em Know Your Head Measurements...

You Asked For This Division...
And You Chose To Set Precedents...
Like How Obama Skipped Tradition...
To Be A Vocal Ex-President...

Couldn’t Hope For Less Relevance...
And They Say Trump Wants Power Like Hitler???..
I Mean As Bad As He Was...
At Least Bush F#ed Off Out Of The Picture...






I honestly don’t even think I’m finished with this one yet.
I could literally go on for pages with this topic.

Hopefully I’ll get back to you soon guys!


Hope you all had a fantastic weekend.
Peace.
😬👍

Back at it again.

Which is pretty good timing cos right now ATS is sickening me a bit.


They Calling Shamans...
Who Have The Vision “A Schizo”...
Stigmatised, Like Civil Rights Leaders...
Before Abolition Of Jim Crow...

The Jingoistic Nature... You Display...
A Bane On Our Existence...
They Want Chaos... They’ll Get It...
If They Take On Our Resistance...

Think What You’re Facing Is Scary...
Until You’re Raising The Dead, B...
Plus... I’m Away With The Fairies...
Like My Name’s Bridget Cleary...

Nothing But Pure Horror...
Like Amityville... And Haddonfield...
Deadlier Than Downing Xanax Pills...
Surrounded By A HazMat Spill...

Prepare To Be Ostracised...
We End The Beef.. What Have I Told Ya...
Our Enemy Horrified...
At Us Genetically Modified Soldiers...

We’re Mostly In The Tenements...
Some Overseas In Regiments...
They Don’t Believe Are Growth Resulted...
From Soviet Experiments...

We Know The Dos And Don’ts...
& Those Opposing Us, Are Due A Poke...
Magick Older Than Most, They Know Us...
As The Loa Of A Voodoo Cult...

The God’s Appearance...
Make Your Dramatic Entrance Ineffectual..
Have A Goat’s Head On Display...
Like Satanic Emblems In A Temple!!!




More soon, folks.
Peace! ✌️😬👍

So Dismayed... They Paved Over...
The Roads That Showed...
The Only Way To Be Approachable...
With Covert Racism... Traded For...
Overt Hate, Between Some Total Tools...

Snowflakes...
There’s No Debate With The Emotional...
You’re Either Appropriating A Culture...
Or Known As “Traitors To Your Own”...
By A Load Of Fools...

Controlled And Ruled... By Minds Like...
Spencer And Farrakhan... I Suggest...
You Slap Ya Palm, Straight In Ya Faces...
For The Racist Agenda Ya Parrot, Calm...

Better Yet.. Why Don’t You Just All...
F# Off... To A Deserted Island...
Your Urge To Silence “The Other”...
Is What In Turn, Spurs The Violence...

They Got A Lot To Learn... But I Am...
Not Convinced They’re Capable...
We’re Lost Within A Maze... It’s Full...
And Lots Of Em, Replaceable...

Ain’t The Type To Head In To Battle...
Alt-Right Eugenicist Assholes... Limited...
To Displayin White Supremacist Tattoos.
Beside Confederate Statues...

Not Many You Can Talk To Clearly...
Most Opposed In Every Way Possible...
Yet Fascism Brings Em Together...
It’s The Horse Shoe Theory...

Extremists At Either End...
Circle Back Into Each Other’s Arms...
And The Rest Of Us...
Have To Put Up With This Bull S#???...
Not A F#ing Chance!...

You Can All Go F# Yourselves...
With Your Silly “Ethnic Nations”...
Look At The Terror State Of Israel...
To Measure The Success Rate...
Of The Steps You’re Taking...

The Automatic Response To That...
“You Just Hate Jews”...
Yo, We Know Conflating...
Anti-Zionism With Anti-Semitism...
Is The Definition Of Fake News...

Not Just A Proper Deceitful Approach...
But, Oh So Obviously See Through...
Plus The Fact The Majority Of Prophets...
I Promised To Love & Follow Are Hebrew.

But Let’s Just Say, Their Pathetic...
Hasbara Concoction Was Equal..
What Sort Of People, Believe...
They’re Immune, Or Beyond Reproach...
For Astonishing Evil...

Moving On... I’m Biting The Bullet...
It Ain’t Just The Right Wing That Do It...
The Left Have Aspired... To Match Em...
Competing For Most Mindless & Stupid...

Like Saying That Hating Obama’s...
Just Cos The Shade Of His Skin Colour...
Well Then... You Must Support Him...
Cos You Hate My Muslim Brothers...

While It’s Obvious Some Did Just That...
But See The Nonsense In The Tit For Tat..
It’s Obnoxious When You List The Facts...
It’s The Bombings That Make Him A Rat...

Most Really Couldn’t Give A S#...
If He Was Born In Kenya...
He’d Still Be The Same S# Bag...
That Continued The War On Terror...

It’s Kinda Why I’m Confused...
About The Amount Of Hate For Trump...
As Much As I Dislike Him...
To Me, He’s Still No Better Or Worse...
Than Who He Replaced, The Chump...

Such A Dubious Debacle... I Mean...
They’re Truly In A Trance... S# Fam...
Both Sides Have Flipped Their Opinion...
On Julian Assange...

Was A Hero To The Left...
And An Enemy To The Right...
Now A Russian Asset, To Liberals... But..
Conservatives Tell Us He’s In The Fight...

Such Dishevelment... Along With...
The Attitude Adjustments...
Settle Any Notions Of Doubt That...
You’re All Absolutely F#ing Mental...

It Tells Me That These Fools...
Would Trust The Devil...
If He Said What They Wanna Hear...
Led Straight Along, When Any...
Talking Heads Play Em On Their Fears...

Won’t Indulge In Showing How...
We’re Surrounded By Big Brother...
Ya Know The Clowns, The Jokes...
They Go Around... And Actually Boast...
They’re Proud Of Their Skin Colour...

Which Can’t Even Be Considered...
As The Smallest Accomplishment...
Witness The Moron’s Astonishment...
When You Tell Em... Even Better...
When You Force An Acknowledgement...

That’s When They Draw...
For The Hypocrite Card, To Say...
We’re The Same For Acting Superior...
The Only Difference, It’s Actually Fact...
When Challenging Ya Fascist Hysteria...

Moral Superiority Is Common...
Don’t Think So...
Listening Better... Will Show Ya...
Only Character’s Applicable...
Ethnicity & Skin Tone Isn’t...

Even If You Consider Their Homeland...
S# Holes, It’s No Different, Remember...
A Person’s Vision Isn’t Dictated By...
Your Thick Cult’s Insult-Driven Agenda...

Consider Themselves Woke...
But Take Two Steps Back Again...
When Repeating Their Chosen Media’s...
Spoon Fed Narrative...

Whether Saying People Born White...
Are Predisposed To Be Racist...
Or Claiming You’re Alt-Right...
Your Bullsh*te Is Indecent...
To Those We’ve Awakened...

You Won’t Be Placated, Through Fear...
Or Any Shame And Intimidation...
I Judge Individual Character, Only...
Cos Race Ain’t In The Equation...

No Miscegenation???... You F# Boy...
It’s No To Segregation...
Humans Are One... So...
I Prefer A Human Culture Celebration...



(Cont...)

Cont...


...To Me... The Social Hesitation...
To Be Vocal’s Devastating...
And It Only Tends To Say...
They Prefer To Hold Their Reputation...

I Find It More Important To Expose...
Screw What They’d Regard As Wrong...
Imagine MLK Sat The Fence, Instead...
Of Spreading The Knowledge He Passed Along...

I Accept My Bloodshed...
To Upset... This Scum Fest...
And Uplift The Powerless...
Silence Is Golden... Ya Say?...
Nah... In Times Of Unrest...
And Injustice... It’s Cowardice...

I’ve Witnessed First Hand...
And Acknowledge My White Privilege...
But You’re An Absolute Mug...
If You’re Thinking That I’m Jigs With It...

With All My Might... I Make It...
My Mission To Change That Outcome...
It’s Like I’m Infected With The Presence...
That Shifted The Change In Malcolm...

No Disrespect Intended... Currently...
The Comparison Is My Mindset Only...
But I’ll Strive To Ignite That Fight...
In Our Lives... Even If My Path Ends...
Just Like His, Homie...

Kinda Lonely... Playing A Position...
Where Both Sides Try To Ostracise Ya...
But I Won’t Lie Down...
Or Watch The Fire Spread, Instead...
I Show Guys There’s A God Inside Ya...

Most Types, Who Trust The Most High...
With Hope... Find Their Lost Desires...
Stay On The Side... The Eventual Regret...
Only Control Lives, Like Oppenheimer...

Assuredly... Haunted Dreams...
Can Even Befall A Genius... Ya See It...
But Never Speak... And Eventually...
Torn By The Torment, We Fall To Pieces...

The Lord Can See Us...
And Will React Accordingly...
If We Ignore His Thesis...
That’s Whether You Refrain From...
Saying God’s Name... Follow Allah...
Or Say You’re Called To Jesus...

And This Ain’t Just For The Theists...
It’s For All Us Creatures...
From Magicians, Wizards To Wicca...
From The Unsure, To The Core Believers..

Just Be An Enemy To All Extremists...
Openly Sewing Discord Between Is...
Don’t Even Accept Those...
Who Are Closest To Your Beliefs...
Cos In The End... They’re All Deceivers...

Not Only Few Are Born As Leaders...
It’s A Quality, That Anyone Can Express..
Problem Being, Many Just Accept...
The Dishonesty That’s Crammed...
Into Their Heads...

Our Enemy Ain’t The Rothschilds...
What You Find Demonic, Even Satan..
The True Nemesis Surround Us... And...
Persist To Keep This Ideology Awakened.

Now, You Wanna Say “Stop It!”...
Tell Me A Race War’s Being Engineered...
But That’s Straight Bollocks...
As The Elite Couldn’t Even Gain From It...

Logic Dictates, It’s Wholly Detrimental...
To The Way, They Make Profits...
I Also Feel Those That Say It’s Coming...
Add Fuel To Flames, Cos They Want It...

Ain’t Got It In Em... To Get It Started...
Cowards Stand And Speak...
But Whether Racist Or Radical... They...
Let Retards Act Out Their Fantasies...

Racism’s More Common With Whites...
To Me... In This Hemisphere, At Least...
Yet, I’m Almost Certain...
Demographics Change, Whether Asia...
Africa, Or There In The Middle East...

Ah, Whatever, Cos To Me... Any Type...
Of Supremacist Terror Is Disease...
The Ultimate Enemy Of Peace...
Along With Any Rat Bastard...
Who Try Tell Us “It’s Our Genes”...

If Anyone Attempts To Say To Me...
We’re A Genetically Racist Mammal...
You Getting A Major Slap, Fools...
That’s Whether You Prefer To Praise...
Or Deface A Statue...

I Ain’t Accepting That Foolish Theory...
Of The Nature You Believe In, Not Even...
To Mention You’re Saying It’s Encoded...
In Our Genes To Hate A Human Being...

F#ing Amazing...
What Sort Of Drugs Are You Taking...
To Think The Thing That Binds Us All...
Would Also Make Us Do Anything Other...
Than Love Our Creation...

Judging A Race With Prejudice...
Then Try To Blame Your DNA...
That’s Weak To Say The Least...
I’d Rather They Accept...
They’re Racist... Keep Away... From Me...

Today... And For The Rest Of Time... &...
Unless Confirmed To Be Driven By Hate...
I Don’t Wanna Hear About Any Race...
When You Mention Crime...

Go Find Some Friends, Online...
It’s Home To Every Single Dip S#...
Outside North Korea...
You Can Circle Jerk With Em...
Over Cherrypicked Statistics, Now...
I’m Sure They Need Ya...

They Can Never Have Too Many...
Who Are Willing To Infest The Web...
Truth Is Fiction If It Corrects The Record.
These Super Villains, At Best Are Plebs...

The Nets Infected...
With This Societal Disease...
Not Right In The Mind, To Some Degrees...
And Deeply Genocidal...
When Others Are Inclined To Disagree...

Go Through Life How They’re Told...
No Diverging From A Social Construct...
Unaware What’s Bestowed Upon Us...
For These Very Moments, I Hope To God...
They Don’t Get Locked Up...

Whether The Prison Is Physical...
Mental Or Spiritual...
It’s Essential To Give Your All...
Not Every Thing That Is...
Existential Is In Ya View...

So, Remember This Hidden Truth...
Aside From Your Creator...
The Only One Who Can Choose When...
You Want Your Quest To Begin, Is You...
Of This... I’m Living Proof!!!

New untitled 16;


Commie Labour?… Warhawk Tories?...
They Ain’t My Government...
Rather Bring Back China’s Dynasty...
Along With The Five Punishments...

Screaming F*** Your Order...
At Those Mugs… Or Supporters...
Till My Blood Pours On Four Sides Of Britain...
After I’m Hung, Drawn And Quartered...

Uproar?… Disorder?…
That’s A Warning... Not Prediction...
Lords And MPs Listen...
It’s Time For Sorting Out The System...

Or Get Slaughtered In Your Kingdom...
For Any Elitist Refusal...
Screw Who Royals Marry...
I’ll Be Happy... When Their Fam’ly...
Are Featured At Funerals...

Do I Come Across As Too Extreme...
It's Just An Honest View You’ve Seen...
A Million Times... Online...
Difference Being...
I Ain’t Become Anon To Use My Speech...

Any Restrictions They’ve Planned...
Exposed In Rap Songs And Cyphers...
Listen To Ours... Or We Split Ya Particles...
Like The Hadron Collider...

You’ll End Up Fulla Regret...
Like The Atom Bomb’s Designers...
For Tryna Persecute Our Existence...
Like The Falun Gong In China...

I Switch Up My Lexicon...
I’m Kim Jong’s Expected Bombs...
And HipHop Has Kept Me Strong...
Like King Bob’s Redemption Song!!!




Peace!

a reply to: Hazardous1408

Yeah, you're back!!!

Praise The All Merciful;


Started By Embracing Unrighteous Procedures...
I Did This To Escape From The Fiery Deepness...
I Was Fully Dedicated To Rise Like A Phoenix...
All To Elevate My Status To Heights Of Elitists...

Now… Although My Base Was Ignited By Genius...
An Immeasurable Hate Was The Spine Of My Thesis...
All To Make Me As Divine As Can Be... But, Still...
I Was More Satan… Than Likened To Jesus...

I Still Gotta Say, That Despite My Demeanour, At The Time...
The Tenets In My Faith Weren’t Tied To The Demons…
So… I May Have Despised Any Preachers…
But… Never In Failure, Did I Ever…
Assign The Blame To The Higher Plane Beings...

My Ways Were Refined… And For Reasons...
That I Will Take To My Grave, So I Die With The Secrets...
I Can Say They Are Ancient And Timeless Degrees...
But A Solo Effort Of Self Promotion…
With No Deity I’d Pledged Allegiance...

I Invaded The Minds Of Our Leaders…
To Possess Em, I’m Ashamed To Say...
To Partake In Some Crimes That Are Heinous...
I Was Debating The Finest Of Details... And Then…
I Ended Up Awakened Inside To Our Meaning...

Some Alien Races Took Pride In The Teachings…
That They Gave And Provided To Me... Then...
Explained To Me Why I Could See Them... Cos…
Apparently, Our DNA Was A Hybrid Of Creatures...

Now… I’m Not Claiming Enlightenment Either...
I’m Just Stating What I’ve Been Between Is…
It’s A Range Of The Widest Of Frequencies...
Our Reptilan Brain Has Been Wired To See In...

The Pain That Resided In Me, Was Meant To Be A Way…
Of Paying The Price For My Deeds... And Soon?…
The Entire State Of My Mind Was Depleting...
Rapid… And The Rate Of Decline Was Increasing...

So… I Went From Creating With Dynamic Means…
To Bat S# Insane... In The Silence, And Speechless...
My Fam Know This Is No Exaggeration... Just Ask Em Yaself…
Cos They Saw The Signs In My Features...

The Claim From The Psychs Was The Reefa...
Was The Cause Of The Craze In My Eyes... And I Mean, S#…
Admittedly… When It Came To Get High With Amnesia...
My Volume Of Intake Wasn’t Right, And I’d Seen This… However...

They Just Decided... Immediately… The Best Idea...
Was To Go Straight To Prescribing, For Treatment...
But To Label It, Like All The Weed Did It…
Seemed To Me, In My Case Was Just Kinda Convenient...

Tho Famous For Blazing A Giant Spliff... The Eediots…
Failed To Take In Account… What I Faced In My Life Wasn’t Recent...
Ain’t No Way Of Denying Their Team’s Shrink... Skipped The Stage...
That From The Age Of Like 5… I Had Seen S#…

Even So… The Way That I Tried To Defeat This, My Way...
Was Useless Too, It Didn’t Change It, Or Find Some Releases…
It Bigly Failed… So Finally In Pieces... All I Had...
That Remained Was My Final Appeasement...

Had To Begin By Laying Aside All The Pretexts...
Rejecting Pent Up Hate, Left Behind I Was Feeding Off…
Escaping Alive Is A Reflex… As It’s Genetically…
Engrained In Our Fibres For Defence...

Forced To Forsake Any Pride I Was Feeling...
And Also Had To Step Away From My Prior Achievements…
Picture Me, Now… Just A Man... Facing The Sky On My Knees…
Totally Broken And Hoping… Angels Are Flying This Evening...

Turned To Constantly Praying For Guidance, To Lead Us…
& Patiently… Just Waiting For Light, Like Believers...
Thank's To God... I Was Saved, Just In Time... And I Mean This...
It Ain’t No Fabrication… Or Lies In Your Speakers…

So Just Know, That This Ain’t A Premise To Deceive Yas…
I’m Just Showing What Displaying A Cry Of Relief Is...
And Listen, All This Explains As To Why I'm Repeatedly...
Hitting Beats... And Praising The Highest That Reached Us...

I Knew These Changes Required Of Me... Cos?...
Continuing In Faithlessness Might Have Impeded...
An Occasion To Shine For My People, In A Fight Forwards...
Towards My Reward For Breaking The Cycle… For Freedom...

What A Waste Of A Life It Would Be...
It’s Almost The Same As Just Dying A Fiend...
On B, Filling Up Their Veins, With A Spiked Intravenous...
Or Worse… To Me… It’s Just As Wasteful…
As Taking The Life Of A Foetus...

I Changed... And Now I've Climbed To This Peak...
S#… Just Wait Till My Prime... And???...
If They’re Hating On Why I’m Redeemed...
Or Mistaking My Kindness For Weakness…
They Can Find Out Exactly Why...
I'm Now Sacred Like Christ The Redeemer!!!

!!!***Solemn Mind's Cries***!!!



He’s Thinking... ‘’What Did I Do???’’…
‘’I’ve Had Enough Of Their S#!!!’…
While He’s Sitting In A Dark Room…
With His Hand Clutching The Grip…

Think’s He Needs To Man Up…
And Stand Up To The Pricks…
For Every Time He Was Left Petrified…
And Ran Covered In Spit…

Slapped, Punched And Then Kicked…
It Was An Everyday Occurrence…
When He Was Empty, Drained And Hurting…
More With Everyday It Worsened…

While Not One Friendly Face Or Person Came…
To Save Him Or He Him Get Away…
Instead They’d Celebrate, And Curse Him…
Call Him Petty Names… Like Virgin…

All The Stress Became A Burden…
The Escalation, Serving Only…
His Mental States’ Degradation…
To Cause His Deadly Rage To Burgeon…

Left Replaying Every Shame…
And In His Head He’s Saying ‘’Hurt Em!!!…
‘’And When I’m Ready To Take Vengeance!!!’’…
‘’That They’ll Regret Their Hate For Certain!!!’…

Practicing Steady Aim… And Learning…
His Weapon’s Functionality…
Says Their Fates Deserved… And It Was Them…
That Bred The Coming Tragedy…

‘’They’re The Ones That Spat At Me!!!’’…
‘’Wouldn’t Let Me Just Live Happily’…
‘’Shed My Blood… Which Gradually???’’..…
‘’Just Left Me Stuck In Agony!!!’…

‘’Whether The F#s Harassed, And Beat Me!!!’’…
‘’Or Them That Just Sat Back, At Ease!!!’’…
‘’Expect Comeuppance… Forgive And Forget’s!!!’’…
‘’Redundant Chat To Me!!!’’

‘’Used A Measured Upperhand!!!’’…
‘’Plus My Strategy’s Only Ending!!!’’
‘’Once I’m Grabbed By Police… Or Dead!!!’’
‘’I Don’t Care Who’s F#ing Mad At Me!!!’’

‘’Revenge Is Justice… And It’s Sweet!!!’’
‘’Still Hear Their Laughter At My Suffered Cries’’…
‘’Targeted For Nothing… It’s Something’’...
‘’No Words I Parse Begin To Summerise’’…

‘’You Felt Dark Abyss Tell You Other’s Lives’’…
‘’Would Start Enhancing If You'd F#ing Died??’’…
‘’Then Don’t Ask Me If It’s Justified!!!’’…
‘’Cos You Can’t Convince Me Otherwise!!!’…

He Was Victim From His Adolescence…
With It Continuing To Happen… And So???…
To Him, Reacting Wasn’t Tit For Tat…
And He Didn’t Give A Damn Who Said So…

The Beginning Of His Plan Was Set…
And Listed... So It Ran Perfecto…
With Every Incident He Hadn’t Let Go…
Also Written In His Manifesto…

Says That ‘’Others Who Know What It’s Like!!!’’…
‘’And Lost Their Minds As Ostracised Students!!!’’…
‘’Who Wanna Try Releasing What’s Inside!!!’’…
‘’Should Just Follow My Blueprints!!!’’

‘’The Columbine Shooting!!!’’…
''Was A Failure And Embarrassment!!!''...
He's Determined!!!... He's Certain!!!...
Past Attacks ‘’Will Pale In Comparison!!!’’…

He Hopes The Next Ostracised Victim...
To Try This Reminds Society Of His Crime...
Rather Than The Columbine Killings...

Convinced He'll ''Be Honoured By Millions!!!''...
Of Other Solemn Minds Willing...
To Sign The Dotted Line In The Blood...
Of Who Birthed The Monster Side In Em...

When He Awoke The Following Day…
He Filled His Bag Up With Magazines…
Then Threw On His Body Armour...
Concealed For Maximum Guarantee...

Hand Guns... As Back Up...
For His Chosen Primary Firearm...
Semi, He'd Mastered Reloading...
With Total Focus To Scope The Rifle's Sights, While Calm...


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TBC...