A part of me is not looking forward to my birthday

I'm about to turn 23 on 11/27 and a part of me dread that day.

I confess I wish I can turn back the clock and relieve past experiences that I enjoy.

I also wanted to fix a lot of past mistakes.

Sometimes I wish things are like Groundhog Day where certain days repeats itself. I tend to talk a lot about waking up in certain points in the past like maybe high school and make changes.

I know it sounds weird but I also feel mortal. Like one minute I'm 22 the next minute I'm 50 or something.

A lot of it is because I fear the future and the unknown.

There are days when I wished all what I am experiencing in the past few years is just a dream.

a reply to: starwarsisreal

Hey friend, Happy Birthday!
You are way, way too young to be worried about being 50. Or to have serious regrets about your past. Why not enjoy life as it is, right here and now?
Now hopefully you go do something really fun for your birthday. 23 is a great age!

a reply to: starwarsisreal

Sorry you feel that way!! Find passion in your life and everyday's

a party.

"One day at a Time"

a reply to: zosimov

I do have plans but I have to postpone them since it's almost final exams.

I will do something fun in December though.

I will also clear my head and try to find some direction in my life.

Right now at this stage, I feel lost.

originally posted by: zosimov
You are way, way too young to be worried about being 50.

Don't listen to her! One day it's all great and then the next thing you know it sounds like you're making popcorn when you get up in the morning.

Eh, your jaded...it happens and will continue to happen throughout your life from time to time..

Make some meaningful memories every chance you get. I didn't want to believe it, but older folks, when I was about your age, told me to enjoy it while it lasts...

They were right...it seems like it takes forever in the moment, but looking back, man...it sure has been gone by rather quickly.
You're too young to be so bleh..you're probably just burnt out really.. you'll get over it...

a reply to: starwarsisreal

Woah there, big fella! Give yourself a break!

Let Ole Uncle TrueBrit give you a piece of advice, before you give your blessed self an aneurysm!

All kidding and japes aside, the future is a vista which stretches before you now, and although it might seem to be rushing up fast, in reality, there are going to be many periods in the next phase of your life, that are going to drag on for what feels like forever. Waiting for a call about a job, waiting for a call from your doctor, waiting to speak to your bank manager about financing for a project, or for a home. Its not rushing up on you fast, trust me buddy, its not.

It just feels like that. But it is not actually like that at all. We all have moments like that, where we feel the weight of the years behind us, propelling us ever quicker into the future, despite our discomfort with what we can see of it from here, despite our trepidation about it, our feeling unprepared for it, and sometimes even BECAUSE of the level of preparation we have done for it.

But the time you have before you to operate is, as long as you play your cards right, and you draw well from the deck, long, not short, and getting where you fear being the most, will take a long damned time. I am only thirty two years old, and when I look back at being twenty three... It feels a lifetime ago from here. Don't let yourself get caught up in your fear about moving forward. Theres really no choice in the matter anyway, and you will make a better fist of things if you keep your head level, and abandon that fear.

Its when your farsight, and your confidence come into alignment, that good things happen friend... So ball up that fist, swallow the fear, and smack the next decade in the throat!

I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me. hst

a reply to: starwarsisreal

I will be turning 63 in January,would you like to trade? I would love
to be in my twenties again.

a reply to: mamabeth

If you were 20 again, what would you do?

originally posted by: starwarsisreal
If you were 20 again, what would you do?

She'd call me for a date.

a reply to: starwarsisreal

There are quite a few things I would change if I could. One example...
I would NOT have gotten married at 19.That is the only thing I will say
about the topic.You have a nice birthday and don't worry about turning
50 until you do.

a reply to: starwarsisreal
My, oh my, oh my. 23 you say. A couple of words from confewshu..confeush. oh well me. You can't turn the clock back so get that out of your head. What mistakes you've made are gone and you have to live with the consequences. You're really young so get out and enjoy your life and the world as time accelerates the older you get and when you reach my age 68 you'll have tons of other things you regret 1. having done and 2. having not done. Keep cool and live.
By the way knowing all you youngsters go through tech like no mans business you wouldn't happen to have an Oculus rift headset with all the additions that you don't want as I fancy one for Chrissie.

You're way too young to be feeling this way. Wait until 30. Or 50.

Happy B-day man.

originally posted by: AugustusMasonicus

originally posted by: starwarsisreal
If you were 20 again, what would you do?

She'd call me for a date.

You wish I would call you for a date.You do realize that I would never call you
unless under duress or desperation.

a reply to: mamabeth


Uh-huh. It would end up being teen bride 2.

a reply to: AugustusMasonicus


I would also assume walking down the aisle for the very same reason
as my first time.

a reply to: mamabeth


'Walking'. Too funny.

Staggering is more like it.

a reply to: AugustusMasonicus

No,blindfolded and heavily medicated would be more like it!

originally posted by: mamabeth
No,blindfolded...

Ooooooooh, you're one of those 50 shades kinda people, me likey.