Visions from a sacred mountain and what I feel today

Greetings dear reader. Why I have chosen this forum to represent my views is due I feel the people here are open to my thoughts. In some places across the Internet I feel much cynical thoughts, lack of faith and openess to the wonders that could make us feel better about ourselves. (I'm not sure why spreading beautiful thoughts is today something strange).

Let me tell bit about myself. I think it is good to know bit about each other. I'm a peace loving man and I have great respect for humanity. I have large endearment towards children and animals, as I feel they are not responsible of what condition our world is today in. What I'm here to tell you is a story. It's a story of many stories in Internet, and you have the right to believe me or not. I won't get offended whichever you choose.

Let me begin.

Last autumn I went to Africa. I went as tourist and what I saw made me aware of the inequity of us humans. If you are reading this at the dim light of your computer, in safe and clean home, my friend thank God for it and be satisfied that you have such privelage. This time the lottery went your way, my friend. I saw abandoned children, I saw powerty, I saw people with no electricity or running water, spending their day getting it from the well far away. They gave us their best, meaning rice, which they themselves could eat maybe once a year. Because we were tourists. And think about it: they themselves were happy about few tens of dollars, which we spend on vanity when we feel bored.

Part of my trip was going up Kilimanjaro, which is per Wikipedia one of the sacred mountains. Going up an sacred mountain has certain purpose. For me, it was seeking englightement and I had my share of thoughts and visions which had deep impact on my life. My intention is not to brag about my travels, or come across as home grown prophet. Those are none of things I wish to represent. What I want to tell is just to share this story with you, for your enjoyment and reading pleasure. (This I keep repeating because I know, no matter if you want to believe me or not, your ingrown scepticism is eating inside every word that you read. Don't worry - we are like that today and it is not you).

Going up the mountain, I began to understand the deep flaws of our humanity. I understood we do many wrong things due our ignorance and because we aim our toughts to ourselves. We plan not to be evil, but we have limitations on how to be good. We yearn for personal glory, seek for entertainment because we do not understand that it comes with a price. I saw tourist groups chasing animals with jeeps, as they wanted animals to "do something". For them animals being animals was not enough and it made me sad. I felt deep compassion for the animals and could not understand why they would want a thing like that. I felt for people of the earth, and it made me sad to think what we have become. There is light, but there is also lot of things that aren't good. If you watch today's news and what is going on globally, you know what I am referring to. Those things should be left alone, as they are as they are.

When we progressed towards the very top, and I grew more tired, I began to talk about how all of this sherade has had enough of its time. I was upset and angry, but understand now that being angry to each other is not the answer. What I felt that in the world there is plenty of evil that wants us to separate, when we should unite as people. We should stop thinking of ourselves as citizens of nations, and see us as global citizens of humanity. Be open, be curious, never neglect our inner capabilities and what our minds can create. We should do everything possible to go away from hate, and try to spread love in our daily doings. That way our beautiful planet can move to something greater that one day we will see.

When you plant a seed, it grows. That is how seeds become beatiful forests.

We all choose our lives before we come here. Everything that is happening is supposed to happen.

Even all the evil in the world is here for a purpose.

Remember that things don't happen to you, they happen for you.

good and evil is an illusion


if something bad must happen for you to understand, then it is a blessing in disguise
all is love

a reply to: WelcomeToShow

Hi WTS.
Nice that you can see the beauty in Humanity. It gets so fuzzy in this crazy society.

Peace, and wish you strength to continue with your message of Love and hope.

I can expand to my story, that basically what I told in the mountains was "apocalyptic blabbering". I was convinced that humanity was heading into something not good which they did not understand how serious it is. I was frightened and that feeling I never had before. It was a feeling that remained with me, and I think I still carry some of it.

On one Sunday, I felt large unease and feelings of large despair. I felt something in the world is horrible wrong. I wrote to one person then an email where I said that what is to come is inevitable, and it happens due "what is about to happen in the history of mankind when authorities and knowledge have no respect or meaning. The next phase is collapse and reorganization, as there is no other option".

Strange part is that it was the weekend cyberattacks began, I had no knowledge of them. When I returned to work countless of our business associates were hit and news were screaming headlines of it affecting hospitals and critial services.

I'm myself just puzzled about these events in my life. For some reason I feel telling this is in some way relevant.

By the way, I've been through medical examinations and psychiatric evaluatios and all of them come out clean. I suffer from no conditions that could have a role in this. If there is some unknown medical condition causing this, it can't be apparently detected with any of today's medical practices or tests.

I would be interested on your thoughts and appreciate all opinions equally.

a reply to: WelcomeToShow

No, no, no.... nothing is wrong with you. Far from it.

Let me explain.....

You were feeling empathetic to your surroundings and had a feeling many people today are having. Lots of us have the feeling we are on a point of no return and there is nothing we can do about it. It's time for a reset.

That feeling you felt I too had in 2011 before the EQ in Japan.

There is definitely something on the horizon my friend and thanks be to God you have a good heart with good intentions. Your post speaks loud and clear to me. Pray for our Earth and the inhabitants.... have good intent with all you do and say... that's all you can do.

Last autumn I went to Africa. I went as tourist and what I saw made me aware of the inequity of us humans. If you are reading this at the dim light of your computer, in safe and clean home, my friend Thank God for it and be satisfied that you have such privelage.

The inequity you saw was a construct of your own mind that keeps you imprisoned in a false world of materilism which blocks your path to spritiuality. It is better to cultivate detachment than attachments. Because all the material objects you collect will never bring ever lasting joy. Just more desires, more needs, more demands. Enslaving you to the satan within.

The Parable of the Pearl of Great Price...

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.

Matthew 13:45-46

originally posted by: glend
The inequity you saw was a construct of your own mind that keeps you imprisoned in a false world of materilism which blocks your path to spritiuality. It is better to cultivate detachment than attachments.

Thank you my friend. I feel that it is part of my spiritual awakening to detach myself from the material world. You are right that I hold it too dearly and I try to cling on to the person I was in the past. I should accept that person hads its limitations and who I am now is same, but diffrent. Those who understand my words know what I mean. That is what I feel is being taught to me. Things in my life have gone through big changes since I started to have these to me unusual feelings - they could be very normal if I knew what they are - and I feel they will continue as long as I follow the path. It is my choice, as I could go back to what was. But I do not want to.

The path pays back with deep understanding and knowledge that I seek, but it also demands certain sacrifices. But in my opinon, those who want to follow the light need to understand and accept profound changes it brings. I would call it detaching us many of the things we previously held dear, and questioning our prior beliefs of the way we previously thought we understood to some extent. We cannot understand its logic, because what is does not fit to our framework of understanding reason and consequence. It is much like taking my cats to a vet for yearly check - they hate it, but is neccessary for their wellbeing. (I still feel sorry for the fear they experience in the vet room, although she is very kind).

The path which I am talking about is consciouness. It has no form, it has no meaning, it is pure being. It is knowledge, end and beginning - wisdom buried in our minds mind.

Scientifical fact is that our brains have about 1,1 trillion cells with about 100 billion neurons. Each neuron fires approx. 5-50 times per second. The time to read this text triggers quadtrillion of signals inside our head. (Thanks for these details go to author MD Rick Hanson, whose book "Buddha's Brain" I recommend to everyone interested in these topics.)

I will start doing more meditation and try to follow the path, accepting and understanding whatever it brings.

Thank you for encouraging responses so far. I appreciate your time to advice me.

a reply to: WelcomeToShow

demands certain sacrifices.

Buddhism tries to teach that detachment to impermanent things isn't a sacrifice but a state of reality we all need to achieve because freedom from lust, craving and desires will allow us to escape continued suffering from samsara (rebith). So if we see it as a sacrifice we really aren't in the right mindset. Understanding and accepting the impermanence of everyone and everything is the key which I too am trying to correct. So in commenting to you I was also writing to myself, trying to correct my own behaviour.

In reading your post I think I was preaching to the choir. I wish you all the best in your endeavours.

a reply to: glend

These conditions are so ingrained in our society it is incredibly difficult to achieve detachment, I believe we are far more materialistic now than 2500 years ago...

An important part in this process is being gentle on yourself when there is a little hiccup and not get caught up in the internal dialogue, a great man once said "start again"....

Always remembering this may be the start of a journey that will take many life times to complete, work patiently and persistently but without the goal of enlightenment for that too is a craving and desire. Observe the worst as you would the best for everything is impermanent.

a reply to: Charlyboy

Its a two edged sword Charlyboy, yes we do have more materialism than ever before (and a box in our homes preaching materialism to the masses each commercial break), but we also have greater access to wisdom to help us overcome those cravings. Some of that wisdom suggests that its not materialism in itself that blocks spiritual growth but the "cravings" and "desires" for impermanent objects/feelings that do. So we can still live the modern world without needing to ride donkeys or live in caves to awaken.

Yes wanting enlightenment to be special simply won't work because its based on egoism. Buddhism teaches a method called Bodhisattva to achieve enlightenment. The desire to achieve enlightenment only to serve others escape their suffering. So not all desires are bad it seems.

a reply to: glend

So long as the desire to do good is not ego based I think the practice of vippassana is the most useful to rid ones self of craving, aversion etc. As taught by Guatemala himself, the practice is pretty intense and to do it properly really requires dedication, but a few hours a day is a start on the path, at least for me it is.

Carvings and desire must be balanced with what you experience. I find that I crave and desire things that may ultimately bring good, like people or things I feel a correspondence with. I have attraction to things or people that resonate with my spirit in different ways and I can feel empathy or I can try to take advantage in the most base ways or connect in a deeper way. It takes a mature mind to appreciate the spiritual aspect of our experiences. I imagine that you are experiencing a maturing spirit. It can manifest in a physical way ultimately, or you can chose to sit by and observe. If you have selfish intentions, it's most likely to be negative if you decide to act on that, but that is not what caused the attraction in the first place. Act or do not act, but never feel guilt either way, just live and experience, it is all that one can expect.

a reply to: Charlyboy

Good for you. Many moons back I studied a similar meditative technique to that of vippassana, Meditating for over 5 hours every day over three months whilst on long service leave, When I returned to work everybody seemed incredibly nervous and worried. Thinking someone had died I asked a co-worker what was wrong with everyone and she answered everybody is talking about how relaxed you look!

I adopted a technique from a book I read on Kriya breath meditation. I just relaxed the body, observing the breath until I couldn't distinguish between inhaling and exhaling breath. Which soon caused a hiccup in the breath that released a sweet elixir into my lungs, Then the body seemed to turn into concrete causing me to enter a void of nothingness that could last for hours.

The meditation eventually helped dissipate ego based cravings. I was more than happy to walk through the gardens smelling the roses than anything else. A side effect was I could soon hear the most subtle thoughts, not only my own, but those of others. But remember being confused as to why some people seemed totally void to any communication as if they were totally void or empty. Couldn't work out why that was the case.

I guess I should start meditating again, I certainly need too. My mind has been a basket case of late.

originally posted by: glend
a reply to: Charlyboy

Yes wanting enlightenment to be special simply won't work because its based on egoism. Buddhism teaches a method called Bodhisattva to achieve enlightenment. The desire to achieve enlightenment only to serve others escape their suffering. So not all desires are bad it seems.

This is exactly the pitfall I can recognize and identify. My anger about other people was manifestation of this wrong way of thinking, as I should feel compassion - without looking down on anyone - and I admit this is hard to get rid of.

I've personally found helpful to look at rich, poor or things that used to bother me as is. They are because they are and why they are is not for me to decide. Only thing where I draw a line is indifference.

Telling my story further, this is one occasion of things I have experienced in last couple of months: one Sunday I had a feeling I should donate to charity. I picked organization which is at center of town and deals with people who have severe substance abuse problems. I had vouchers for free food that would feed many people (sum is indifferent as telling it would only feed my ego) and I went to the location.

On my way there I encountered three things I have never encountered. First, I saw man beating up a woman. I stopped my car and went to stop him. Other car stopped, I asked for help and he drove away. The man who was beating the woman went away and other people came then to help. Police came to the scene and I went on, but encountered two other things.

A man was drunk and asked if I could call him a cab. I said I can take him home with my car, if he wants to. Then he told me he is going to see a prostitute and called the woman with degrading ethic term I do not wish to repeat as it is disgusting. I told him he is at center of the town and left him there. I was upset already.

Next, a woman came to me and asked money for bottle of wine. I was upset and ignored her, did not go to the place where I planned to go to, but gave an envelope with food vouchers to next family with kids I saw. The father of the family was sceptic, and he did not first accept my gift. I hope he opened the envelope, as he took it in the end. I said it is gift from someone and that I have no name.

I swear to my honesty that this story is real. But please, do not be an sceptic but trust that I am telling the absolute truth of the events of that day.

Truth is in America all races are equal,not all white people are rich,nor or blacks or hispanics,truth in fact if you want to use true numbers,more poor whites in the US then anyone,yet this never makes the news,because it's the MSM part of government who want to fuel racism,truth is we are under control and have been since we were born,kind of like a sacrd mountain,sacred by what standards,and by whom?

I live at the foot of a sacred mountain. Most people see it as a tourist destination. I climb it once in a while and every time feels different, like a special pilgrimage.

This is the only book I've seen about mountains in the U.S. It's a classic:

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