There's an "Anomaly"

Never thought I would post something like this on ATS (or anywhere else), but I'm stressed to the MAX...

Wife was having some issues. Went in for testing. Did a physical (all good), did blood work (minor cholesterol, but okay).

She was having some vision issues and some weird loss of feeling in her legs and arms (mostly surface stuff). Doc recommends seeing an opthamolatist (sp?) She goes, her eyes are good.

Main Doc recommends an MRI and a neurologist eval. She goes for the MRI, and within an hour they call and say..."there's an anomaly, we might want to do that test again...under more controlled circumstances".

Wife is pretty tough, so she gets the electronic images of the MRI. I'm freaking out. Yes, there is an 'anomally'. Right side of the brain, right behind the right eye. (I saw all the slices...all 25 gigs of it). Now I'm scared. I am.

I have two colleagues and best friends who are neurosurgeons. This area of the brain is Biblically impossible to operate on.

This is my "little Bear"...she's the World to me!

Maybe it's nothing, and I hope this is the case, but I don't know right now.

So now, FCD air's his soul.

I couldn't go on without my "little Bear"...just couldn't.

Perhaps a nice word or two, to whatever entity you believe in, would be appreciated!

Little Bear will appreciate it (even if she'd never admit it).

Thanks!!

I pray and hope the best for you and your missus, FCD.

Try not to stress in the mean time... It'll do you no good.



Sending love from London.

The waiting is the hardest part.

The not knowing.

Jeezus!! This is horrible!!

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

I just had a long conversation with my mom about my dad (aging stuff).

Life is going to do to us what it is going to do. Love who you can while you can and appreciate that another, like your wife has chosen to share herself with you.

I hope it is nothing and if you are a praying man, do that.

I'm just so worried it's off the charts.

I don't know what else to say.

The entire Universe revolves around this woman. My best friend.

The things we've been through...just unimaginable.

Of all the thing which could happen to either of us...something with the "brain" is almost too much to bear for me.

:-(

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

I agree, the waiting is the hardest. At least a diagnosis ends the uncertainty. Sending positive thoughts and prayers for you and your wife FCD. And yes you can deal with whatever.

I have a plaque in my house (because I need it) that says. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

You will be strong.

Wishing all the best for you and your wife.

It's just not fair.

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

Worry is interest paid before it is due. Chill man, just wait out the wait, what else can you do.

At the moment it is just an anomaly. Could have been caused by a rogue muon passing by.

To try and take your mind off the problem, how is the hand going?

P

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

Please take a breath, nothing is definite. Do not go down any roads you are not forced down-please don't do that to yourself.

Not knowing sucks. Try to rest-think of the best times you have had with her and try to rest.

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

I understand you are scared and terrorfied, but please stay strong for her. Don't really know what else to say, sad.

It's no good worrying over the unknown.
Enjoy your lives right now.
If there is info that is not great reassess at that point.

I've dusted it up and scrapped with some of the biggest and baddest, mean, drunk assed, oil field workers on Earth. I've taken my lumps. I've been shot at, broken, busted and crumpled. Above it all, I've protected her...always. She has always been my hero.

How many times I've drug my dead, broken, ass into the house, wounded, exhausted and didn't think I could go on. Risked my life on a daily basis...because I had her, something to come "home" to. The fires, the danger...all of that. No fear. Because of her.

She's my World.

Man, I'm just absolutely terrified and torn up right now.

How many times, she said..."when will you ever stop?"

Never, was always my answer.

I always knew it would be me, first. I wasn't trying; it wasn't a death wish...just what I do.

I could never have imagined it would be HER we'd be worried about.

I always figured it would go out like a flash. Not this!!!

I faced all those demons...with a smile, willingly, day after day, to this day still, knowing she would always have a life and a memory to carry on.

Not this!!

I'm scared.

And, I ain't skeered of nothin'!!!

a reply to: Flyingclaydisk

She aint gone. You don't know that it's anything. Calm yourself man.

a reply to: randomtangentsrme

It's not about me.

It's about her.

It's not about "me" being lost, it's about her...and my eternal love for this girl.

My bride.

ETA...I don't care about me. I just want comfort, life and happiness for her. She's earned that 10,000x over.

Quite understandable , but youre stronger than you realise .
Now more than ever you need to be there and stand with your wife . Dont give up on her she sounds like she quite strong herself .

Much as theyd like to think it docs not omnipotent .

The two of you will get through this together as you always have .

Been many years , but will say a prayer for you and your wife .

a reply to: VengefulGhost

Oh, but I feel I am failing so badly now.

Yes, she's still here, but I've seen the pictures, the MRI 'slices'. Maybe they're wrong. I sure hope they are!!!

I don't know.

For right now I'm just in shock. Earlier today seemed like such a nice day, not so much anymore. Horrible in fact.

Turn your whole world upside down...just that fast.

Maybe I'm making too much out of this, BUT...

Brain issues scare the living crap out of me!!

I may just ramble on here for a while, so ignore me.

I'm sorry for posting this at all. Yes, it's a personal issue and I probably should just shut up and keep it to myself.

I guess I could do that, just steel up and act like I don't care, but I'd be lying.

I DO care...and I'm concerned.

In any case, just ignore my ramblings tonight. Probably just as well.