The scariest thought you'll never remember.

Before i begin i can not identify where this belongs. So i am putting it up for discussion here.

And i do not think i am the only person who has said this either.

But this thought... this saying... and how i keep coming to it just terrifies me the most.


If you think about your eye sight for a moment.... try to imagine how the eye was created.... how it evolved.... how does life know and understand light if you can not see it to begin with....

It is this very basic seed that i put into my own mind... that question.... how did life forms understand, and figure out how to perceive light entering an eye. How did it know what to create? We can see several millions of different species here on earth possess eyes. And each of these animal have different setups for eye sight. But it is at that very core... how did the eye come to be?

But this isn't the most terrifying thought. Now think about the amount of time spent completely alone on this planet. And with everything that exists in the cosmos.... how did everything get to where it is? Out in space there exists an infinite amount of planets and.... well matter.

I don't think this planet of "life" being alone in space is the scariest thought either. But somehow it contributes.

Now try to imagine what technology will be like, not just hundreds or thousands of years later... think of what technology could achieve millions of years from now. For me, it is finally being able to connect an electronic device to the nerves in our eyes.

This is where the scariest thought began to consume my mind. That seed i planted in earlier began to grow. And what sprout from it was something that bewildered my mind....

And it is not technology taking over, and enslaving humanity.... but rather.... our next evolutionary turn, or path.... would have us become more machine like....

Part of the thought is knowing that existence is meaningless.

And the other part is knowing that our entire body, and all of it's different molecules, doesn't want to die.

But it is that jump in evolution, where a great risk has to be taken in order to advance our life form, is where this thought has its root burried in my head....

It reaches so far into my mind that it causes the sensation of fear and relentless anxiety to push forward, while at the same time something is pushing back.

What would we become if a human body began to understand how our created technology works and evolved itself to create something new? Where as our minds could be better at remembering almost every single day of our existence, but at the same time continued to exist indefinitely? What if we could unlock and decode evolutionary mutations? And what if these new mutations that we created... lead to extinction? Where as the entire human race mutated into a new life form millions of years from now.... and it ultimately lead us down a path where we could no longer survive?

Like a cell phone without a charger.... waiting to die? Or couldn't charge. Or for what ever reason.... just stopped without any warning sign? No hacker virus... it wasn't dropped. And certainly was not a brain aneurysm of any sort, nor was it attacked.... just.... even if our evolved state ate, or consumed energy it just didn't work what so ever. And everything stopped.

What if we are actually procreating inferior mutations as a whole? What if everything on this planet is begining to revert backwards.

And the scariest thought that comes to mind.... quickly leaves as soon as it enters.... like a needle hitting the back of your head and quickly pulling out.

What if we are truly running out of time on this planet, with no where to go to continue existing?

It is hard to explain the thought in words.... but thaat is where it strikes me.... i can't word it correctly but the thought is there... and every time i try to recall everything that lead me to the thought... as soon as the thought is remembered... it dissappears....

How did you come to these conclusions? Sounds like extreme anxiety over something that does not or cannot be proven to exist in the future.

I hope you can occupy your time/mind with more cheerful/positive thoughts and enjoy the beautiful world we have.

Cosmos, the new one, actually covered this pretty well.

Light sensitive tissue happens

I know over the years I have thought that the form we are in now is sort of a perfected robot. The brain is the hard drive. Even at this point in time we are basically beginning to work on perfecting prosthetics. Trying to make them more life like.

So I guess in a sense we are creating ourselves again into the future. The more we play with robots, the more human appearing and acting we will make them. So, who's to say we aren't just somebodies robots already and they new what we would need for this particular situation of living on this planet?

Quests it all kind of goes around in an endless circle.... at least this has been one of my pondering.

a reply to: GiulXainx

What if we are truly running out of time on this planet, with no where to go to continue existing?

That's the best "scary" you can come up with?

Abstractions and conjecture don't even rate a "huh?" when you're married to the personification of evil.

a reply to: olaru12

That is just it...... i can't word it correctly. I can think of all of this that lead up to the thought.... but as soon as i began to think of this logically it strikes the back of my head in true fear. Enough that it actually deletes the memory all together.

Thinking about creating a type of technology that can read and decode our eye sight and, possibly improving it so it can see even in low light conditions, being able to record everything in your perspective onto a medium that it can replay it on a screen. Even after you have ceased to exist. Being able to recover memories in your mind in cases like death so it can finally be explained through the eyes of the person who died.

Then moving onto how there are so many billions of planets in the sky and yet we are, as of this day, the only known planet that has life on it. Though there has been a discovery of another planet that may contain life, it has yet to be proven. But again... there are so many other planets in the "universe," and we can see a great many of them. But i believe that we truly are the only planet in existence that contains creatures big enough, and smart enough to get away from this planetand venture outward.

But then i began to think about genetic mutations that occur in our bodies... and how they would bond with technology. Where as, and i am only imagining what it will finally be like millions of years from now, our bodies began to mutate and evolve in order to easily integrate technology directly into our bodies. Or quite possibly mutate our genes so much so that we begin to look like a biological computer.. like i was trying to say with this thought in the beginning... what if we started requiring batteries to keep ourselves running in the future. We evolved and mutated so much around technology, and discovering how genetic mutation is formed on a molecular level, we begin to mutate into beings that can accept new upgradea and parts... but what would we look like? Would we still maintain a human form? Or would we begin to looke like one of those robots seen from DARPA?

But then there is the thought of our molecular structure that exists inside of our bodies. Where we are made up of a great number of cells. What cells would be replaced with technology? And what new cells could our bodies mutate to accept this technologically biologic monstroucity? I only say it in a hideous manner because i find it difficult to imagine what we would look like so far into the future in this scenario.

And that by going down this mutated path, what if we ran out of power or a source of energy to keep living? I know that the saying of matter cannot be created nor destroyed comes into play, but how do we find the circle of getting that source of energy to come back?

How do you take a plant.... and let an animal eat said plant until it dies off completely... and then later bring it back from extinction without a single seed? How long would it take to figure out the entire circle of life?

It is so many thoughts put into one. And it sounds like such a complicated contradictive conflict. Which is just like trying to find out, and describe how we all came to be. We have the bones of so many beasts from millions and billions of years ago that we have uncovered, yet they cease to exist. But we keep digging further and further only to discover more of the same beings. But we can not figure out the origins of life. We all know how we are alive. We know how we can die. But we do not yet understand how we became human. It is not just evolution i am trying to figure out... but the absolute true origin of how we came to be over the entire life of this planet.

Some of us will point to that theory where a comet hit mars, sending out a cloud of dust and debri to earth holding those little tiny organisms called water bears, and it began to change everything here on earth.

But even with that in mind.... i still can not word the thought correctly because it froze my mind in fear that it deleted itself from my mind completely.

So the scariest thought that i had happened to me i can not recall, or even think long enough about to properly write it down.

a reply to: Justso

Positive? I am a pessimist. And for good reason. While so many people live reckless lives, i to take extreme caution in everything i do.

Just a quick summation for you of my life. I hate cars so i only own motorcycles. I never take any big financial risks which includes, but is not limited to "spending loan money to make money." I hate words in songs all together and would rather listen to instruments playing harmonies and melodies behind a different beat. And i am only interested in new ideas.

The pineal gland has photo-receptors.
I have a hunch that was the thing that evolved into eyes.
The eyes are a part of the brain that is externally exposed.

a reply to: GiulXainx

I'm curious, have you ever talked to a blind person and ask them what they "see?"

I'm not trying to be funny here, but it seems to me that they actually see much better than we do with eyesight. Perhaps your answer lies with them.

If you think about it we are rather stuck with having to believe what we see and we are rather limited with that. Blind people are using a lot of more their senses to see which probably means they are raking much more in then we are at face value.

a reply to: onehuman

It makes me wonder if there is one more mutation we could go through that would help us in the future... may the blined are already a step ahead. Or maybe we have already gone through too many that we haven't gone down every root yet.

a reply to: GiulXainx

I quit getting stoned because I'd have panic attacks over some of the ideas you posted here. Not the 'inferior creations' part. Just the overall acrophobic and vertigo sense that life won't last. It's bad enough knowing that universal entropy awaits and our sun will not last forever.

Justso's post makes perfect sense. Let's enjoy the moments and appreciate the lives we have.

a reply to: Kandinsky

I can't smoke weed anymore. I haven't smoked any weed since the end of 2015. I had a real bad panick attack in 2011 or 2012. I had a social worker intervene with me and since that day i tried to stay away from smoking it. But now i stay away from it completely. The # my friends smoke is all way too harsh. So every time they want to smoke it i just pass itto the next kid.

Sometimes they think i am a snitch tho.

But no... i was just thinking about all of this # as i was creatinganother drum and bass track... a d the thoughts i had all just topled on top of one another. And when i began to logically put these things in order my brain just started a thought... and then immediately froze up in immense fear... and then everything i just thought about vanished. I tried to reconstruct the thought in my mind but it became degraded.... i just wonder if anyone else has ever tried to push themselves to remember something horrible.

For me it was this that conjured up the thought.

a reply to: GiulXainx

I just remembered what it is.

You can say that it is the number one thing everyone is affraid of.

It keeps coming and going.

And it simply existence.

Why is it that we know how to create, but are so affraid of dying? We know how to recreate, but we do not know how to sustain?

What i am saying is that the scariest thought you can not remember is because your mind cannot fathom knowing everything, but then suddenly dieing. Like a light switch that once it is turned off cannot be flipped back on.

It is that thought where we have so much put into words. And we can recall. But we can not sustain our lives for very long. In fact we can not accept death unless we believe something completely made up.

Religion tries to soothe everyone to just "not worry, but to be happy."

My mind keeps flipping a switch in the back of my head every time i think about doing something grand.

It is that thought where you have everything, but then it all goes away seemingly instantaneously.

And not just you but absolutely everything. The sky. The earth. Your vision. Your thoughts. Your possessions. Your entire family. The entire neighborhood. Your state. The continent. The planet itself. Every planet in our system. All of the stars. Every galaxy. Everything just dissappears. Like it doesn't even matter. Once you die... does everyone else?

It is like that question "how do you prove your existence?"

My mind keeps going back and forth into psycopoathy. One minute, just like 25 minutes ago, i am scared of death.... then i remember everything i have been through and think... when will i finally die? When? Why haven't i died yet?

It keeps going back and forth. The very thought of you not being able to see. Not being able to feel. Not being able to smell. And not being able to RECORD anything anymore.

What if the answer to living for ever is found in our brains? What if we could create a mechanical brain and simply transfer our conciousness to it? For ever leaving behind the need for taste, hunger, intercourse, and above all, muscle? What if you only needed to understand everything we have built so far in order to stay alive absent our original bodies?

This thought keeps coming and going. And think that this thought... no... it is not a thought. It is this feeling that you want to avoid feeling that causes your mind to flip. It is that switch. And for me it keeps going back and forth. It is this feeling you will never want to remember. But now that i keep trying to concentrate on it. I finally pinned it down. The scariest thought you will never remember is the inability to continue. Like a bump in the road that no one can traverse past.

a reply to: GiulXainx

The scariest thought you will never remember is the inability to continue. Like a bump in the road that no one can traverse past.

Arguably this is the thought that led to all of our religions and mythologies. We can't pass the 'bump in the road' even though it doesn't stop us telling stories about what lies beyond it.

a reply to: Kandinsky

That thought crossed my mind as well.

I think the creation of religion is what keeps flipping that switch back from being completely insane.

The only function of religion is to push us back in line.