Chester From Linkin Park has Committed Suicide

originally posted by: leloomultipass
a reply to: mblahnikluver

im glad it only lasted for 2 months (thats like, the blink of an eye in my world) and u had something and someone that needed u.

That was only this last time I went to that dark place, believe me it has lasted much longer. IT never really goes away but I have no choice but to deal and move on. I don't have insurance so I can't get meds and the one thing that works is illegal where I live so I have had to try other means to cope. It's not easy at all and I feel like a failure sometimes but something kicks me in gear and I just do it. I have a nice support system so that helps. I didn't always have that but my best friend has the same mental issues I do so we can related and help each other. I've never had that before. My bf is also very supportive and the first man who didn't use my bi polar against me. His brother has it so he gets it and knows how to handle my moods but with him he grounds me in a way I've never had so it's not that bad with him.

i dont have anything and anybody but i live on every day anyway, cause death seems like the worst solution.
even if im depressed and can barely get enough energy to take 1 shower per week at least i have memes and gaming to keep me company and in death i wouldnt even have that

so thats something

I found my best friend years ago in a group for bi polar on facebook! We have never met, she lives on the other side of the country but it's like we have known each other forever. We talk daily and use Facetime. She knows more about me than anyone in my life! If it wasn't for her the last 4 years I don't know where I would be. I use to just close myself off and hide. I hide it well, very well! Not sure if you are on Facebook but may join some groups and meet others you can talk to? I am part of a couple that are really good and it's nice to have people who can related to what you're feeling.

but after 15 years u learn to fake energy in that; there are some things you have to do in order to have food on the table. i dont work, im on welfare, and i have to do 1 thing every month and i fake energy to be able to do that one thing but even that is a struggle

Oh faking energy.....been there. I work but for me it helps me. It is hard at times but work is an escape. My last job was at Bank of America and well it was probably the worst environment ever but I liked my customers and that's why I went to work every day, plus food and a roof over my head! My friend is on disability for her bi polar and BPD, she can't work.

and after 10 different types of medication and years of drug abuse and cutting i finally decided to just live for 1 day at a time and dont look further than one day.
the only thing i havent tried yet is ECT and that is next whenever i get enough courage/will to do that.

I dont' take meds. I have such adverse reactions to them I hate it. Prozac was great but it made me non emotional and as an empath it was hard. I like my empath side and on prozac I couldn't use that. I just didn't feel anything! I take kratom now for anxiety and it works but I am waiting to get my medicinal card because it passed where I live recently but like always they are fighting the terms of it so the patient has to wait. It may not be til next year that i can get it. It is literally the one thing in all my years with this that works for everything my bi polar causes and my OCD.

If you ever want to talk message me! (hugs)

a reply to: mblahnikluver

good that weed works for u, i cant smoke i get severe panic attacks and visual distortions/colors/patterns.
only thing that works is bensodiazepines but doctors refuse to describe them here because of my previous addictions and abuse. so im stuck with alcohol which is 100000 times worse.

a reply to: FauxMulder

Only just came across this in the paper! One of my all time favourite bands. Gutted.

a reply to: mblahnikluver

As I headnote, I never listened to LP.

Everyone's battle is different. What works for you clearly didn't work for him. Nobody knows the demons he dealt with daily. Nobody but him, not even his family could possibly know what he went through emotionally on a daily basis.

Exactly. It's evident that some people in this thread do not understand the depths of depression and the demons with which we struggle. It comes in waves, waxes and wanes, it's always lurks there, even in the best of times, waiting to strike again.

I dont' take meds. I have such adverse reactions to them I hate it. Prozac was great but it made me non emotional and as an empath it was hard.

Yeah, I refuse to take meds, too. Never tried, never will. I've seen people on them, the changes, the withdrawals. The benefits do not outweigh the negatives, to me. I'll deal with it my own way, and whatever happens, happens. For me, music is therapy and the 'drug' that soothes the pain (that and wine). I write music a LOT, and the themes are always the same, but it's so rewarding, and one of the few things that helps. Of course, listening to music also helps. It's interesting, though, because I will find one song or album that seems to "work" and I will listen to that repeatedly. In the car, I have one or two songs i put on repeat for days, sometimes weeks on end, which is similar to a daily "pill," I suppose. In the evening, the same few albums I rotate with my wine. In the morning, this one soundtrack.

I know for me I have battled depression and suicidal thoughts a lot especially this year because of all the stress

Same. Of course, I always have, as long as I can recall.

I use to just close myself off and hide. I hide it well, very well!

Same. I still do close off, hide it, keep it to myself, and express it in music.

a reply to: Liquesence

No matter how depressed you are there's no reason to suicide. Depression doesn't kill your emotions so you know that the people you leave behind would be traumatised and what ever did his kids do to deserve that?
I don't buy that he offed himself like this. There's more to it we don't yet know.

Had he had no kids I wouldn't be suspicious.
And don't begin to tell me I don't know the abyss that is depression and abuse. It's not an excuse.

Also the fact that you haven't tested any meds tells me you haven't experienced the bottom yet. Because then there's no other options

a reply to: leloomultipass

No matter how depressed you are there's no reason to suicide.

The "reason" is to end the pain and suffering. Like I said previously, suicide is, essentially, selfish.

And don't begin to tell me I don't know the abyss that is depression and abuse.

Where did I ever say you didn't?

Also the fact that you haven't tested any meds tells me you haven't experienced the bottom yet.

Who are you to say what I have or have not experienced?

a reply to: FauxMulder

I wish the man a smooth transition from the mortal plane, however this p!$$es me off for a number of reasons.

First of all people are crying over a celebrity who took own life and now everyone will want to raise the issue of mental illness. For F**k's sake I've lost FIVE friends and neighbors through suicide and nearly did it myself and no one bats an eyelid, but when a singer does it everybody loses their minds!!!

Why does it take a celebrity to die to make people WTFU and realize that this issue pre exists celebrities? I have had to console a grieving father when his son and my friend did the deed, where was the media when that happened? when my friend who was in agony who did the deed where was TMZ when his family needed to be stalked and taken out of context?

Why does it take the death of a "celebrity" to raise awareness to something that has been swept under the rug for many years? Yes I know the fans are in pain as are his family but you can point a finger in a crowd at a concert and find someone who has endured the same pain.

Idols will fall but the legacy remains, but the followers will fall like tears in the rain

a reply to: Liquesence

I admit I've battled with depression also but I found that the meds I was prescribed worked a treat. They didn't make me all "shiny, happy people holding hands" but made me able to cope with and handle the underlying cause(s). Not sure what the US equivalent is but I was on citolopram. Probably still should be but ho hum...

That said, and hoping I'm not derailing the thread, but I wonder what LP will do now? It's really early days, I know, and only time will out but I hope they continue on despite this tragic loss.

Increase the peace brothers.

RIP

Thx for the EMO Hitler meme.

a reply to: Thecakeisalie

I hear what you are saying but I think mental illness awareness is being given the attention it deserves - at least it is from where I come from.

One thing I have noted though is that women recognise, accept and will talk better through the issue than us men!

Haven't checked if this one has been posted, but this is Chester and Mikes last interview.
It's 45 min long. They touch on a lot of things.
For any fan, this is a good one to watch.

Going by this video, you would never think Chester was battling depression.
He is so upbeat, happy and animated.

a reply to: MrCrow

Wtf does mental health gotta do with it. Not buying it. Get up every day to RYTHTMICALLY SING about depression. Go on tour singing. Makes tons of money. An act. Quit the act if you want. Then rich asshole kills himself. Not an act. Maybe he was tired of being so phony, a depression capitalizer, and wanted to make the act real for once? Guilty of pandering to/creating teenage depression culture, perhaps?

Depression isn't a thing, its a side effect.
Why won't anyone address the CAUSE? Shed light on the REASON? No one is depressed just because. People get depressed after car wrecks. After going blind. Infertility. What did he lose? What did he lack? Its an important issue. Focusing on symptoms is nonsense.

Ugly people can be depressed because no one will date them. Crippled people, because they can't function or are in constant pain. What does somone whos healthy successful etc got to be depressed about? A cheating spouse. Thats about it. Kids that don't respect you and a society that says you need to bend to them. Social issues that society literally promotes rather than tackles head on.

Does this bandaid society want to do anything to address the problems that cause depression? Nope. Just want to promote bandaids that make you stop caring. Turn you into a mental cuck nialist.

a reply to: BigBangWasAnEcho

Your reply is confusing. Depression is, in fact "a thing": would you like to know more? Start here: www.nhs.uk...

a reply to: Liquesence

Ending the pain and suffering for yourself and laying it on others. Chester wouldn't do that to his kids and family. Just as I wont do it to my mom.

And get back to me when you won't get out of bed for 3 days straight and have to forcibly be taken to the hospital to get fluids and medication, then i can sympathise with you until then you're just a hipster to me who thinks he has felt depression.

Then I'll doubt you'd say "nope haven't tried meds, never will" like you're better than the rest of us. Give me a break.

a reply to: leloomultipass

Chester wouldn't do that to his kids and family.

He did.

And get back to me when you won't get out of bed for 3 days straight and have to forcibly be taken to the hospital to get fluids and medication, then i can sympathise with you

Do you think I know a thing of what you have personally gone through? I don't. Never claimed to, but you suddenly think you know what I have experienced and makes you more qualified to comment and talk down to people.

Then I'll doubt you'd say "nope haven't tried meds, never will" like you're better than the rest of us

Get off your own high horse.

until then you're just a hipster to me who thinks he has felt depression.

Whatever that means, I don't give a damn what you think about me until you have walked in my shoes.

I'm sorry you're so bitter. Don't take it out on others and act like your situation is more special than others, while calling others names.

a reply to: leloomultipass

Jesus man. You can't speak on behalf of someone when you don't know them. EVERYONE has depression in varying ways and they deal with it in varying ways as well. For you to say "And get back to me when you won't get out of bed for 3 days straight and have to forcibly be taken to the hospital to get fluids and medication, then i can sympathise with you until then you're just a hipster to me who thinks he has felt depression" makes you seem like you don't even understand the thing you have, keyword here being SEEMS. Your experience ISN'T everyone's experience and it surely isn't how depression HAS to look in order for someone to be diagnosed with it. Again, varying degrees. Some people have all of the debilitating symptoms, some only have a handful.

I don't care what a person's problems are, he had six children. I have zero respect or sympathy for him, the damage he just did to his children is unforgivable. Those children did not deserve that.

originally posted by: BigBangWasAnEcho

Wtf does mental health gotta do with it...

Depression isn't a thing, its a side effect.
Why won't anyone address the CAUSE? Shed light on the REASON? No one is depressed just because.

He was horribly abused/molested as a child...

A friend posted this.I do not know how reliable this website is.

yournewswire.com...

Now investigators believe that the deaths of Cornell and Bennington – who died on Cornell’s birthday – may be linked.

Now investigators believe that the deaths of Cornell and Bennington – who died on Cornell’s birthday – may be linked. The parallels between the two deaths are astonishing. The close friends, who were working on exposing notorious entertainment industry pedophiles, died in the same way – with Bennington’s death taking place on what would have been Cornell’s 53rd birthday.

It is hard to wrap my head around this.

a reply to: buckwhizzle

Watching the videos from his last show, such as this rendition of "Crawling" is made much more disturbing knowing now the whole pedophilia connection.


Be at peace Chester.