those were strange days back then.
coming back here was part of the healing process, I decided. Take back all my ground and then some.
but Im also not how I used to be. Too much drama...
my brain haha.. it hears me say or think things and does its best to do them.. Then ego me is like "why am I waking up so early on my day off?" until
I remember oh yea I made a promise, and my subconscious is just helping a brother out haha..
who needs alarm clocks eh?
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It involves witches and magic and heaven and perfection, infinity, and being a human with suffering and pain..
Well one of the last things I was pointing out to peeple was that I am a human. my signature is all about that actually.
She was of course not the first to be this way with me.. That other person was quite adamant I shouldn't identify with these people and this suffering
down here. She was why I have my signature, and why I wrote her a poem called sparkle angel.. Anyway..
one of the last things I said to bebog was that I don't care for perfection or the middle way or getting off the ride..
I told him I am a story teller..
That is all in this thread in the last 6 or 7 pages? So you could see I am not just saying it now.
I find it funny after watching kubo and the two strings.
Like now I have the perfect movie analogy for my super woo days.
it hits all the right notes.
Like I keep saying, I make my own path.
People are welcome to join,
but this is my home.
I have more freedom now to do as I please.
I am so happy I chose to watch this movie of all the things.
It's the first movie I've watched in ages.
The story spoke to me.
Almost like confirmation, I did do the right thing.
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Weird, it is raining here too! Supposed to for the next week. We finally have our April showers in mid-May. There is a metaphor screaming at me to the
open the door but that is not why I am here.
@Peeple, those are very wise words offered! Don't be harsh on yourself... we do not judge, either (in case you did not already know).
I truly think I have blood clots in my calves. I've been feeling a consistent dull, local aching pain in my calves when I lay down to fall asleep at
night.
I could get up and walk to sentara hospital right now, but that would be rude to my sleeping partner. So if I die it will be partly/mostly his
fault.
It could kill me at any moment. But I don't want to die yet... I still have to teach people about nutrition and humanity is on the cusp of being
liberated.