posted on Feb, 21 2017 @ 06:18 PM
Life has gotten to be a real pain since sometime in October when I noticed that rotating my left arm in certain ways really hurt ... for no real
reason.
Since then, I have developed a frozen shoulder. AND I HATE IT! You ever get told you don't miss something until it's gone? Yeah, I never really
realized how nice it was to be able to dress independently and shave until I lost those abilities. I haven't been able to raise my left arm behind my
back since late December at some point. It's humiliating to have to ask someone to help you dress and sometimes undress because your arm can't reach
up behind your back or lift out to the side or up above your head.
I recall opening doors with my left arm and not having to worry about possibly twisting my arm a little too much to the side or behind.
Oh, and the best part? Nighttime ... when there is no, zero, nada, zilcho comfortable positions to lay in so that you can fall asleep. And if you do
fall asleep finally, nothing says that when you wake up in the middle of the night and your muscles and joint have "set" after three or four hours
of sleep, you'll fall asleep again because not only is nothing comfortable, but all positions hurt. There's a steady, persistent ache to a sharp,
stabbing pain and nothing makes it quit.
It's tolerable during the day and some days are better than others so that you start to think, "Hey, maybe I'm turning a corner here." But then
another day dawns with less mobility and aching pain clear down into your wrist and hand and you realize it was just false hope ... again.
Oh, and this is where I am after the steroid injection in the joint. It improved the immediate mobility in the joint itself, but not the
mobility in my arm.
And ... I've looked this up online. I could be stuck like this for another eight to thirteen months on top of the four I've already spent like
this.
Anyhow, I just needed to rant a bit because maybe tonight I'll be exhausted enough to fall asleep. It's been two or three nights since the last
time, so I'm about due. And I am tired, but sleeping on my back is the worst because that's where I snore which isn't fun either, but sleeping on
my side, either one, is about impossible right now ...