Who else hates this festival?

I cannot stand this day. When I was young, it was the best day, surrounded by family, friends, joy, laughter, carols, even the crappy christmas movies were ok.

But now?

My ex fiancée is spending Christmas with her new blokes family, making cheesecakes and celebrating with his family and friends.
I just got out of rehab, but have no diazepam left so I am all over the place.
There are no bottle shops open so I can't even drown my sorrows - thanks, rehab for being so effective.
I have no tv so it's listening to the neighbours having a party and sing out of key, but that is every day anyway.
It's hot. Always is when you're 3 feet from the sun down here.
I'm still in pain from recovering from Alcohol Withdrawal Syndrome.
I'm alone... again.
Everything in my mind is rubbish, I can't even close my eyes and watch the charcoal animations I was when suffering Delirium Tremens.

But it's the festive season, right? Deck the halls, and all that? Jingle Bells? There is not a single merry thing to contemplate.

It's just an extra sucky Sunday, to be honest. Forced onto us by religion.

All I want to do is sleep, but insomnia will put an end to that. It's only 2pm anyway.

GOD I HATE CHRISTMAS, the archaic pagan festival turned into a modern commercialised day of consumer nothingness, yet God tells us we have to close all the shops so those of us with no one, nothing, desperate, can't face it.

Worst of all, Jesus didn't even exist, so this is all pointless...

I miss my ex and hate that she is celebrating and having the time of her live, only months after meeting this thief of a man...

Sorry, this should have been in Rant...

Savemebarry... unfortunately, he can't, and I cant seem to die...

Bah Humbug, no turkey for you little Tiny Tim...

/General Chat over.

SMB

originally posted by: savemebarry
Worst of all, Jesus didn't even exist, so this is all pointless...

Yeah ... Yeah ... Whatevas. Bah Humbug!!

I get it. And ... I don't care.

If you hate Christianity so much, why don't you stop acting triggered because of a holiday you get to spend at home, and go off and join up with a bunch of Terrorists?

Tell 'em Snarl sent ya!!

Merry Christmas!! ... To everyone else.

That's exactly how you get a lump of coal for Christmas.


AMIRITE?

I got two sets of sheets from a buddy at the homeless shelter where I am currently living and I am very grateful for them.
Maybe you should be grateful you have your own place? It could be worse, just saying.

a reply to: savemebarry

It sounds really, really hard! This is the worst time to be alone, and if you're a recovering alcoholic, I can't even imagine how difficult it is!

I'm sorry you don't have more people around to support you at such a time. I find myself wondering- is there, perhaps a an AA meeting somewhere, where you could at least be with other people (who understand and also feel alone today? Because obviously some people have all empathic abilities quickly shut down by religious triggers )

Try to hang in there. I've had some crappy and lonely holidays before too, being far from all friends and family was hell at one point. But then I've had more really wonderful and loving ones since- where that marvelous feeling from childhood has returned. So maybe next year will be one of those for you! Don't give up hope!

Sending you hugs and wishes for the next year to be better for you!

originally posted by: Snarl

originally posted by: savemebarry
Worst of all, Jesus didn't even exist, so this is all pointless...

Yeah ... Yeah ... Whatevas. Bah Humbug!!

I get it. And ... I don't care.

If you hate Christianity so much, why don't you stop acting triggered because of a holiday you get to spend at home, and go off and join up with a bunch of Terrorists?

Tell 'em Snarl sent ya!!

Merry Christmas!! ... To everyone else.

I'm so sick of this whole "triggered" fad- everyone calling others "triggered" each time they feel "triggered".

The person is struggling and feeling morose- not because YOU are Christian, but because humans have need of affection, love and bonds with other humans. Because we get conditioned with things like holidays, to search and desire experience of those bonds at specific times, and when it doesn't happen, the whole body suffers.
Add that to the struggle of addictions and the brave fight to overcome them and well.. it seem obvious that this post was NOT about you, or me, or Jesus. It is just an expression of agony and sadness.

I don't know if Jesus actually existed, but what I repeatedly observe is that fervent believers develop an empathy problem and become cruel human beings. So if he did exist, I wonder what he'd feel about watching that?

It's okay dude. Lots of other people suffer like you too. Maybe there is website where you can chat with other loners on Christmas.. heck you might even have a chance of love again!

a reply to: savemebarry

Treat today as just another day - you don't believe in the religious aspect of it anyway.

If today isn't special to you then the only thing you've got to complain about is that some people are enjoying themselves more than you are.

Well, great. Let them enjoy the company and festivities, you have something far more important to do.

You've been granted a new (clean) chapter in your life and there's your Christmas miracle: you can't get your hands on any booze today.

See this as your opportunity to stay strong and capitalize on all that hard work you put into sobering up.

Enjoy your nice warm day and be glad you're not freezing your arse off somewhere cold. Have a walk, go to the park, feed the birds, find your own things to be grateful for and start your own traditions.

Stop thinking like the old, dependent you and start being the You that you wanted to become when you got dried out.

a reply to: savemebarry

There have always been people who hate Christmas, they are often lonely and miserable and Charles Dicken's made a literary example of one such man.



I love Christmas, what I hate is the commercialization and sabotage of Christmas a time to be together with your family and community by the corporation's in the name of profit and greed, the brainwashing of kid's through advertisement's on there children's channels which always ramps up before Christmas and worst of all the selfish greedy attitude shown in the shopping spree's before Christmas, the poverty and suffering ignored on a supposedly Christian holday of celibrating the birth of our savior by those whom both close there eye's and there heart's to it while it is in our current economic age getting every more present, a precipice into which many have fallen and found they can simply not get back out of, especially as those that walk by will amost never help them and the leaders' they look up to are not there leader's at all.

Oh almost forgot, happy Christmas to all of you and your family's, even if you don't believe you have to see the value in a holiday for bringing family back together - even if like myself your family is dysfunctional and half your sybling's are not the good people you wish they where, even if they have hurt you it hurt's more because deep down even if they don't love you you know you still love them or rather who they used to be and will always want that family back.

At the risk of sounding like some douchy motivational speaker, life is what you make it, so if you're un-happy, try to think about the real reason for your unhappiness and aim to address it.

If you're a recovering alchoholic/drug addict maybe one of the best things you could do for yourself is take up some form of exercise. Go smash some weights, do laps of the beach till you can't stand anymore, something that's going to get you outside, get the heart pumping and make you feel like you're alive. It'll wear you out so you won't feel quite so restless, it'll make you healthier so you'll look and feel better and it'll get out of your own head for a while.

a reply to: savemebarry

I've been there, in my own way. I'm not going to try to push Christmas on you - if you're not into it, you're not into it.

For what it's worth from a total stranger, don't go back to drinking. Especially since you've been through detox. If you're that bad off, as a drinker, then down that road lies only death. Do whatever you have to do...call a crisis line. I've had to do just that multiple times in the past, and even though it sounds corny or useless, I always got exactly what I needed in those moments to help me keep going. It gets better, it gets easier, and once you get some sobriety behind you, I guarantee you will wonder how you let yourself get so bad.

I hope things look up for you.

originally posted by: Bluesma

originally posted by: Snarl

originally posted by: savemebarry
Worst of all, Jesus didn't even exist, so this is all pointless...

Yeah ... Yeah ... Whatevas. Bah Humbug!!

I get it. And ... I don't care.

If you hate Christianity so much, why don't you stop acting triggered because of a holiday you get to spend at home, and go off and join up with a bunch of Terrorists?

Tell 'em Snarl sent ya!!

Merry Christmas!! ... To everyone else.

I'm so sick of this whole "triggered" fad- everyone calling others "triggered" each time they feel "triggered".

The person is struggling and feeling morose- not because YOU are Christian, but because humans have need of affection, love and bonds with other humans. Because we get conditioned with things like holidays, to search and desire experience of those bonds at specific times, and when it doesn't happen, the whole body suffers.
Add that to the struggle of addictions and the brave fight to overcome them and well.. it seem obvious that this post was NOT about you, or me, or Jesus. It is just an expression of agony and sadness.

I don't know if Jesus actually existed, but what I repeatedly observe is that fervent believers develop an empathy problem and become cruel human beings. So if he did exist, I wonder what he'd feel about watching that?

He's saying "triggered" because A.) he's 16 years old and his parents buy his Christmas presents still. B.) He's 40 years old and is trying to feel "hip" or C.) He's a sociopath that has no remorse for anyone other than himself.

Don't worry he'll get what's coming to him soon.

And for the OP it will be alright, find a woman that makes your EX look like the old lady that lives in the shoe.

I know-this can feel like the loneliest time of the year-especially if you don't have a loving family and friends to hold you together. You just have to know you arn't alone.

My family is quite estranged and my son lives 1000 miles away. It's hard. I have dear old friends who do include me in their gatherings-like limos and a scavenger hunt tonight-but it's not like when my children were little-and in many ways I am glad.

Christmas day for me will not be a big family gathering and turkey etc. Instead, since the weather has taken a balmy turn, my daughter and I will take our dogs and hike a bit and just enjoy being together in nature. It'll be just another Sunday; we are not religious anymore.

One thing I have learned throughout the twists and turns in life, it's always changing-sometimes good and sometimes bad-but that I can decide how to accept or deny those changes and make my life what I want.

I had a heart attack this year and I am not that old so I really have had to count my blessings and seek the positives-they are there if you can get out of your head and let your heart lead you to others.

Best wishes today-you have touched me-you are in my heart-please know you are not totally alone.

originally posted by: Snarl

originally posted by: savemebarry
Worst of all, Jesus didn't even exist, so this is all pointless...

Yeah ... Yeah ... Whatevas. Bah Humbug!!

I get it. And ... I don't care.

If you hate Christianity so much, why don't you stop acting triggered because of a holiday you get to spend at home, and go off and join up with a bunch of Terrorists?

Tell 'em Snarl sent ya!!

Merry Christmas!! ... To everyone else.

Go eat something foul, you dick.

a reply to: savemebarry

Hey, saying all this stuff probably won't help you feel better, but hopefully it will help you not feel so alone with your situation.

Without getting into the details, my brother has been having mental health issues that began about a year and a half ago. It has caused legal issues which are on-going. My dad basically is there to get him out as best as possible and give him money on a regular basis (which my brother basically uses for nothing but alcohol and marijuana). He moved back with my parents awhile ago and has been continuing to cause problems for both my parents. My mom got sick of it and has basically separated from my dad because she can't deal with the problems. That happened in October and I'm an ocean away for school, so I'm pretty helpless hearing about these things getting progressively worse. It's been really depressing me lately. And on Wednesday, my brother almost burned down the house. It's in Wisconsin where the temperature is much lower and they had to shut off the electricity and gas and not allow people to enter the house until it's been verified to be structurally stable. The roof in one room was taken down, the windows broken, everything in that room was basically gone, smoke damage everywhere into the hallway. So, my dad and brother have been staying at a motel. Crappy for them, but I also feel bad and, again, helpless.

I live alone with my wife and we're both from separate countries and living away from family and friends. Today (Christmas - I'm down in AU also), an unfortunate misunderstanding happened between us and she downed a bottle of wine (that was meant for New Year's) in roughly an hour. She's barely drank before and this is really her first time getting drunk.

After that, for about two hours I was dealing with her demanding to drink more because she just wanted to forget and fall asleep and occasionally talking about dying. So, I've spent the better part of Christmas a) worrying about my family during the holidays and b) dealing with my overly upset, drunk wife. I finally got her to rest a bit ago and left to room to let her rest without making noises and accidentally waking her.

All this stuff makes you feel bad regardless of the day, but knowing it's on a day when everyone seems to be having a good time really makes it that much worse.

I guess I'm just feeling exhausted and figured out some areas of my marriage that I need to improve on. So, at least there's that. But I'm mostly just feeling exhausted and alone today like you. Anyway, here's to hoping that you can sort of forget about the "it's supposed to be a holiday" part and keep yourself distracted with games, movies, or whatever to get beyond today and keep moving in a hopefully positive way forward!

a reply to: Bluesma

Thank you.. some people dont get how hard it is to feel so low while everyone else is so smart so as to tell me to go join a terrorist group, that guy.. i wish this place had a block feature...

but thank you for understanding...

a reply to: savemebarry

Dang sucks to be you dude,a lot of people will enjoy the day,and some won't,it's pretty much a commercial holiday anyway,notice emphasis on buying"presentsit has lost it's appeal to me as well

a reply to: savemebarry

Dang sucks to be you dude,a lot of people will enjoy the day,and some won't,it's pretty much a commercial holiday anyway,notice emphasis on buying"presentsit has lost it's appeal to me as well

So Christmas sucks because you're a recovering single addict, eh?

Be happy you exist at all in any fashion capable of bitching about it & the lack of open booze stores. When you think about it objectively, you're not even ready to be out of rehab if "no open liqueur stores!!!" is what you're griping about. Getting drunk is not going to make you feel any better and you know it. It's why you were in rehab in the first place.

Look, I'm going to be blunt. Your cliched Christmas gift was a second damned chance at life instead of being a dead drunk. Start being grateful. Wish your ex a happy rest of her life, and get your own s# completely together well before you start seeking a new partner in life. Don't forget you took that foot out of the drunkard's grave very recently.

And Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Season's Greetings -- whichever floats your boat and makes you feel good to hear.

I feel you. After my dad died 3 years ago i don't feel like celebrating this holiday anymore. It's just not the same without him. My mother doesn't feel like celebrating either. So we are going to do something anti christmas today. We are going to the casino
Screw this capatalist commercial crap holiday !
And to give some advice my friend : always make the best out of a bad situation. Good to hear you stopped drinking. I've stopped smoking mary jane for 4 months now! Here's a motivational song for you : Dead Prez - back on my regiment