posted on Aug, 2 2015 @ 10:22 PM
I think the worst thing I've done online is pretend to be someone I'm not. Like I"ll pretend to be conservative or pretend to be asexual or pretend to
be passionate about something I'm not. However, most of the time I post, it's because I'm genuinely interested in something and want to understand it.
It's not to troll. (Unfortunately, I think just by making this post some people will convince themelves I'm always a troll 24/7.)
I do think pretending to be something I'm not bordered on trolling, but to only frame it that way is a huge distortion. I think I pretended to be
something I wasn't because I wanted to avoid the pain of actually being invested in an argument. And another reason is I felt guilty for not being
able understand what someone else like. Moreso, I wanted to be able to like someone who disagrees, no matter what they disagree about. One thing I
greatly dislike about myself is I get heated sometimes when I get involved in a thread or topic. And over the years I've tried to reduce it. This was
a way to do that. Another is just don't get involved. Make a post and then leave. If you don't come back actively you won't get involved.
I think the best example I can give to clarify this is conservatism versus liberalism. When I was younger, I tended towards liberalism. But as I've
grown older, I felt guilty about not understanding conservatism. I also sometimes respected the things conservatives say they stand for. I did not
like everything, though. So I pretended to be more conservative in random internet places. In the course of this journey, I learned a little bit about
myself. By roleplaying something I'm not, I actually found conservative things I didn't know were there inside me. And over the course of this
journey, I've actually become more conservative. I belong more in the center, politically, but I'm not as liberal as I once was.
Over the past year or two I try to be more and more honest. One of my best tactics to prevent myself from getting too involved is to post and then
leave and not check on replies. The probelm with checking every reply is you start to get too involved. That's when it just becomes flames. Too much
stress. It ain't worth it. Walking away and staying away is much better.
I think many people label others as trolls or ignore them just because they disagree and don't want to examine themselves. So I think sometimes the
peope who call others trolls are themselves not of reputable status. A troll might be there just to cause mayhem, but a person like this is there just
to state what htey think and not ever explore opposing views honestly.
edit on 2-8-2015 by jonnywhite because: (no reason given)