Solved My Emotional Spaz All by Myself

Yep...I was always getting myself into some weird situations over the years and didn't know why. Sometimes my wife and I would make great choices while other times not so great. Hey...that's life dum dum. Then there came a time where nothing went right, even the trip I made to visit a psychic screwed up which is exactly why I was going there in the first place to see if one of my MOON BEAMS was outta whack? It was a long shot, but let's see what happens. I don't understand the terminologies to describe stuff so please forgive my wording...sorry

Neither my wife nor I have ever seen a psychic before nor really wanted to, but my wife insisted that I see one because of all the strange things she's witness during our marriage. OK hunny... I was anxious to know if this type of person could help explain why I'm having so many unexplainable if not strange "goings ons" lately. So, several months ago I looked up a couple psychics online to find the locations, time of business etc...Finding one along my route, figured I'd just pop in and visit the psychic reader person on my way home from a Dr. appointment.

OK...I walk in the door and was greeted by one of those psychic looking ladies dressed the part as I simply asked for a reading. Gosh...I was anxious and really open minded that day ready to do some interesting things. We then went into a little room with a table where she does her stuff. She had asked me sit as I hadn't said a single word. She kept curiously looking at me the whole while. Oh no...I'm getting that feeling and POW that's when our eyes locked together like magnets attracting metal. Instantly, everything went silent and was perfectly still as if the world had just quit spinning. In a split second as if snapped out of a trance like state, this lady stands up and demands for me to leave right away. She very nervously said that "she had nothing for me" and insisted that I leave immediately while showing me to the door. "Yes ma'am", I politely said while walking out very quickly and got in my car.

What the heck just happened here? NO...I wasn't going to ask any questions or go back in requesting a comment card to rate the experience of my visit. Wasn't even asked to pay. Wow...I no more sat down for 30 seconds and was booted outta there. Not what I had expected and that's for damn sure. Immediately afterwards, there was a high pitched ringing in my ears almost giving me a headache as I drove off. Now days, I might understand why the psychic lady acted the way she did.

It doesn't end there. I'm constantly spazzing over everyday simple things...the garbage needs to go out, the mortgage needs to be paid next week, and maybe need a haircut is only an example of all the common things I would pace the floor over at certain times. I was getting all worked up for no reason at all. Trying to figure out why I was feeling this way all the time, I made myself stop for a damn moment and think. Took in some deep breathes to let them out slowly. That's when something silently told me to turn off the TV that day and JUST SIT comfortably eyes closed in total silence to be at peace. I like sitting as the sun shines on me through the skylights brightening the living room. The more I did this, the more easily it was to clear my thoughts and simply let my imagination wander to do whatever it wanted to do. There were little day dream like thoughts coming that made me wonder then trying to listen to what my mind was saying to me. I was learning stuff maybe understanding little by little why I had such strange moments and feelings during my life.

After doing this "Time for Me" (as I call it) for quite a while now if only for 10 minutes a day, I feel released from something that was binding or blocking me. I can't explain what binds were cut, loosened or whatever. I no longer feel as if I was walking through a field waist deep in sludge barely able to move forward all the while bombarded with constant stuff. Everything used to be so damn hard to do. Everything was a fight or struggle to deal with even the simplest tasks in life. I'm not a great writer and it's difficult for me to put into words to describe how much better I feel and a greater freedom is about me. I bet the "Time for Me" acted as a reset button to reboot my brain and reload the software without all the collected crap running in the background. Computer nerds can relate to what I'm talking about here. The mental reboot created a clean slate ready to be written on again to absorb things around me. One day after a 10 minute "TFM" I went out for a short walk. "Hey look", I said to myself, "there's a feather on the grass". The feather was blue with white on the edge and small fluffy feather things gently moved back & forth as the breeze moved them. Then I began to analyze what made me stop to notice such a thing. The feather was pretty big and wondered if the bird was hurt to loose such a feather. Why did I feel sad almost wanting to shed a tear over a feather? Oh my gosh, I'm a man and we don't do that sort of thing.

Knowing for a fact something big has changed or is clearly understood inside me, I no longer see in a straight line. Everything is absorbed all around as I move from point A to B. Colors, sounds of wind blowing the trees, along with other senses and a voice around me speaking in a "very kind" language that is felt & understood, but not audibly heard while I'm alone. The strangest thing noticed are people I see moving along as their soul is a dim lit shadow trailing behind them as they move down the walk. It's not inside them, but behind them as if half in & out sometimes all the way out. I see some in a trance or in a daze being blocked off from everything around them only able to process the immediate here & now. There is little emotion coming from these people seen in public. Briefly interacting with a cashier behind the convenience store counter, there is no light in their eyes and no thoughts coming from their minds. It's all a repetitious act to get through the day. I see these people go home from the robotic day to stare at a computer screen, cell phone, or TV until they fall asleep. Once in a while I'll get thoughts like a grandmother thinking about little Johnny and what toy he would like for his birthday gift next Monday. It's not often, but some do have some thoughts with emotion communicated from their souls. I say souls because it's in or around them? It's weird. I can see peoples thoughts or state of mind they're in just by looking at them. Some have such a deep hatred or creepiness about them it's scary to be anywhere near them. It's hard to UN-think the thoughts these weirdo's have coming out of them before it bothers me like finger nails on a chalkboard.

I've concluded that the negative mixed up confused emotions I was spazzing in the past weren't my own, but they were a collection of emotions from others I had been near that day. Reading peoples words in blogs/forums and comment sections also gives me these same feelings of emotions or thoughts that aren't my own. I'm getting much better to control all this by blocking these thoughts out of my head. It's a mental refusal to let it in, but I'll know it's still there. I've also learned that these thoughts just don't come into my head...they can also go out.

a reply to: SamHill

What did your wife say when you told her the "psychic" ran you off?

a reply to: SamHill

originally posted by: olaru12
a reply to: SamHill

What did your wife say when you told her the "psychic" ran you off?

Who said I told her anything? In the past, the things I did tell her began to scare the living crap out of her. One time we were outside with the dog and I told her to look at that guy across the street. He will trip & fall right as the Dart bus drives by. He got out of the way in time not to get hit.

If I did tell my wife about the psychic visit, she would say something like, "well you shouldn't have snuck off and ate that beef & bean burrito before going there". She's kooky like that, but I know it's to divert what's really going on with me. One time we were on a cruise ship and I was watching a little girl get an ice cream cone beside the outdoor buffet. I looked at my wife and said, "left foot". That's all I said. The poor little girl then dropped the cone on her left foot. She was a little darling and tried to clean it up making it worse.

a reply to: SamHill

Why don't you put your psychic gifts to work at the track or gaming tables.

I play holdem and Id give my left *** for your ability.

originally posted by: olaru12
a reply to: SamHill

Why don't you put your psychic gifts to work at the track or gaming tables.

I play holdem and Id give my left *** for your ability.

That brings out another memory. I remember when the lotto first came out in our state. OK...I bought some ticket things. Why? Just because everyone else was doing it. Young & dumb...right? Haven't bought any since. Truthfully, I not lucky. You can bet on that I'll always lose. ha ha

It sounds like hormonal imbalace, and anxiety. You freaked out the paychic from whatever was built up. People make up all sorts of rationalizations for feeling inadequate deep down. Maybe get your hormones checked.

originally posted by: pl3bscheese
It sounds like hormonal imbalace, and anxiety. You freaked out the paychic from whatever was built up. People make up all sorts of rationalizations for feeling inadequate deep down. Maybe get your hormones checked.

So...you're saying I caught hormones from that psychic lady? No way. Like cooties n'chit?

Ha Ha ha...I'm going to invite wife to go see a psychic. This should be funny as all. She can take her service animal with...Joy is an 85lb Staffordshire Terrier aka bid boo. She loves her Mommie. She knows Daddie who feeds her kitchen cookings...only if they're good girls. I love my girls. They get fed.

I have a guardian angel who looks over me. I can NOT fail this life as everything is taken care of

a reply to: SamHill

No. So called psychics are simply very good at reading other people. What she read in you freaked her out enough to want you out of her place immediately. I'm going out on a limb thinking you've got issues relating to hormonal imbalance, but really it could be so many things.

originally posted by: pl3bscheese
a reply to: SamHill

No. So called psychics are simply very good at reading other people. What she read in you freaked her out enough to want you out of her place immediately. I'm going out on a limb thinking you've got issues relating to hormonal imbalance, but really it could be so many things.

Something will spook you or disgust you Sunday late afternoon.

a reply to: SamHill

Well that's nice to know. Now I can choose not to be spooked or disgusted. You see how I just flipped that on you? Might work on some. Not me.

a reply to: pl3bscheese

I like you. I like you a lot. Mechanically it works. Otherwise it's science or hearsay.

Psychics have booted me out too, because I disrupt their ability to read.

originally posted by: SamHill
I've concluded that the negative mixed up confused emotions I was spazzing in the past weren't my own, but they were a collection of emotions from others I had been near that day. Reading peoples words in blogs/forums and comment sections also gives me these same feelings of emotions or thoughts that aren't my own. I'm getting much better to control all this by blocking these thoughts out of my head. It's a mental refusal to let it in, but I'll know it's still there. I've also learned that these thoughts just don't come into my head...they can also go out.

Nice. Project your failings and shortcomings onto others, in order to avoid taking responsibility for your own paranoid delusions and misanthropic tendencies.

You are in no way "enlightened" and you have come to no profound conclusions. In spiritual terms, you are at the stage of a toddler's understanding. You have a long way to go buddy.

originally posted by: Drest

originally posted by: SamHill
I've concluded that the negative mixed up confused emotions I was spazzing in the past weren't my own, but they were a collection of emotions from others I had been near that day. Reading peoples words in blogs/forums and comment sections also gives me these same feelings of emotions or thoughts that aren't my own. I'm getting much better to control all this by blocking these thoughts out of my head. It's a mental refusal to let it in, but I'll know it's still there. I've also learned that these thoughts just don't come into my head...they can also go out.

Nice. Project your failings and shortcomings onto others, in order to avoid taking responsibility for your own paranoid delusions and misanthropic tendencies.

You are in no way "enlightened" and you have come to no profound conclusions. In spiritual terms, you are at the stage of a toddler's understanding. You have a long way to go buddy.

This stuff isn't a competition.....
& HEY!!! thanks for "showing your ass" :/
Depending on who & what you may or may not have connected too in your life "bleed-over" is very certainly possible.
If you don't like it there is always the option to clean yourself up.

Not all readers or psychics can read for everyone. It's usually an ethical reader who will acknowledge this & refer you to someone who can. No harm, no foul. Chasing you out is just tacky......

@SamHill......maybe you should consider finding someone to work with for further training?
Can't hurt!
Interesting thread .....

Thanks InTheLight and Caver78. I've been a member for a few years finally having the courage to post. In a way, I knew what was going to happen, but decided to post anyway. The day I did post this thread was strange all within itself. Earlier, I had stepped in a hole while taking out my trash to the dumpster and then came back in to finish what I was wanting to write. Pain in my ankle and lower back caused me to later have a few refreshments to help ease my discomfort. Maybe you can tell by my kooky replies to the member mocking me there were many things going on. Had to go to the ER the next morning waking up in severe pain. Then had a procedure done on my lower back. A doc filled it with shots or injections as they're called. I hate shots.

Per your suggestion, I have sought out someone local who can help me understand or better control what's going on with me. This very cool lady said I was an empath as she began to explain to me how I feel others emotions/pain/excitement/etc. We are still working on how I can see things. The title of my thread is wrong. I haven't solved anything.

Why did other members attack me to say my hormones were out of whack? A recent physical showed me to be in perfect health (not trying to justify myself). That one guy never admitted to something disgusting happening to him that following Sunday. The guy was going to see someone pooping in public. I described this to be spooky and disgusting. Every time I say these things, it's 100% it will happen. My cool new friend lady said these are premonitions. She is trying to help me find what triggers these things that pop into my thoughts.

a reply to: SamHill

My premonitions/physic thoughts do occur, rarely, due to triggers, or perhaps (probably moreso) a combination of a trigger and my desire to help someone else or help myself (as I am also an empath). As a empath, if someone tells me they lost an important object and are extremely distraught, BOOM!, I see it in my mind's eye and it is found afterwards, 100%. But, that type of trigger is always face-to-face empathic vibes which affect me, and which, in turn, spurs on the psychic premonition - something akin to watching a video with your third eye. As such, it may appear that I have no control over these thoughts or visions, but if I dig a little deeper, I probably do control it via my spiritual and physical emotions, on a psychic level.

Others will try to debunk psychic abilities because they have no experience with this phenomena...these skeptics will try to explain it within their narrow-minded, theoretical scientific world which never seems to venture outside it's limited box or closed universe. But, don't take it as an attack, take it as an opportunity to help others understand that this is real. Don't stop posting, because there are others, like us, that live with this and have no shaman to guide us.

I think it wise you join with others to explore your experiences further, because we are all different beings and some abilities are very much stronger than one can handle (as is my case, so I repress or try (with limited success) to control it).

I hope your back/leg/foot is healing well. I know what it is like to step in a hole, turning the foot, putting all my weight on that foot, then twisting the back beyond it's range; it is dibilitating.

I've also locked eyes with some other psychics and one woman, basically starting bashing me because she said she knew I was suppressing "the gift"...whereupon, I replied, "as is my will to do so", which started an argument, then I walked up and left. Weird.