When looking at anything in the spirit world it is not black and white but very colorful. I could see the color of his hair, eyes, his clothing etc...
He would listen to me as I talked to him; the whole time he would be trying to hide because he knew I could see him but he refused to believe he was
dead and with me seeing him that made it even harder for him to accept it. He is not a poltergeist or mean spirited....... he was just lonely. He is
still in the house today and he is too scared to move on. The power of fear lives on in the dead.
In the early nineties I came into some money and since I was already a novice paranormal investigator back then I decided to expand my library with
various religious books, grimoires, magik books, books on withcraft, Wiccan, literature on demons and angels, Ouija board, satanic bible, secret
societies, etc.... I spent a lot of money on these books and had one of the best libraries on this subject matter anywhere around. Some of these books
are still in print but expensive. I would study these books and I learned the various arts, some still secret today to most people however I never
practiced these arts. However this is when my life changed and my family lives........
You know how to charge your smartphone right? Well... slowly my house and property was being charged with having these books in my home. Actually much
more than that…. suicide and Jewish death rituals helped charge the home just as much as the books. These books had power and a couple had spirits
attached to these books and not good ones either. Much later I found out that even reading these books silently were the same as speaking out loud so
by definition simply reading (studying) the books I was unknowingly practice magik. Even though I did not possess the ritual utensils, ingredients,
wardrobe, or draw out the necessary symbology supernatural things still occurred. A part of the law of attraction. You attract what you seek out.
I spent almost two years reading those books and by the time I finished; my house was an open door to the spiritual world. Everything from spiritual
insects (large black spiders), shadows, The Hat man, audible human voices heard by family and guests, symbology appearing on walls and then fading
away, bodily attacks, sickness, “bad luck”, disability, loud knocking on the walls and ceilings, screams, a death defying fear once something
entered the room (the animals would literally jump into the air and run out of the room, something circling your home while it growled at night (I
have heard many types of growls from cats, various dogs, panthers, cougars and lions but nothing as fearful as this growl. You could sense the hate
and need to kill in this growl - not a defensive type of growl and believe me once you hear the difference you will know!) Even our neighbours would
come over and ask us to keep our dog quiet at night because the could hear the awful growling.
We all know that we possess five senses but I tell you that we have more senses that that! To those who know this; when someone stares at you even if
that person is behind you, you will pick this up. You will sense it and immediately turn around and sure enough the person is staring at you. Right?
Same thing in the spiritual world…… if you feel that something is starring at you and no one is around (especially when sitting in a room alone)
then something is starring at you. Also prereferral vision can be helpful similar to the “old” 3D prints - your eyes had to go “out of focus”
to see the secret image same thing when observing supernatural images but do not let your mind take it to a sick level. Using prereferral vision you
can see out of the side of your eyes movement - movement just right out of eyesight. Instead of turning your head to look at it, remain calm and
don’t move while observing it. Sometimes if you are lucky it will move and come into better focus so you can identify it. Sudden movements will
cause if to vanish.
To this day I will awake in bed and find something standing or kneeling down directly next to me…… not at the foot of my bed…… directly next
to me! If you ever see a gray mist ….. then you just missed the encounter. They come and go through this gray mist and it can be real quick. So if
you are in bed and feel like something in the dark is looking at you……… well it is. Was that an evil encounter? No, not necessarily.
If we become scared of an image, object or presence does that mean it is evil? NO. It simply means we don’t know what it is and until you identify
it you need to remain calm. Now I have also had heavenly images appear and what is the difference between that and something dark coming through? When
a heavenly image comes through it will do so without scary the “daylights out of you”. You will not be scared, as if it manipulated your senses to
keep you calm. Evil does the exact opposite. Being scared makes you give off certain hormones. One of them is known as Cortisol, which is known as the
stress hormone, is also released and this increases glucose levels in your blood to provide extra energy, and all of these things that will prepare
you to either run away from the source of the fear or to attack it, to fight back. This hormone is a drug to some spirits and it will make them high,
like smoking marijuana is to us.
So your identity is protected her at ATS. As you spill your skeletons in the closet and I understand they are personal but I am sure your experiences
will help others to understand.
Tell me one and I will tell you one.