posted on Feb, 8 2011 @ 09:46 AM
ok so im asking because im trying to figure out where i fit in with everyone else's use of the term 'awake'...trying to figure out where i am in my
journey...this is me(my explanation from another post):
my experience with this all started when I stumbled across 9/11 of all things towards the end of last year...I hadn't paid much attention to it since
it happened and had just believed what I had been told, then I read a whole bunch of stuff on it and was blown away...it had a funny effect on me. It
made me begin to question things and look at the structure of society in a different way and in a funny way it opened my mind a bit and allowed my
thought processes to change...This in turn allowed me, when presented with some really interesting, much more relevant ideas, to be able to take them
in and not turn away as I would have done. Around this time I also had been asking a question, the big question "what is it all for", that's not to
say I was unhappy or anything, I was just asking for the first time in a long time. It's funny, I have always said thank you when things went well,
always thought of life as connected and things happening for a reason, life got in the way somewhere and berried it all...until recently that is. My
waking up, or trying to or beginning to (not exactly sure where I am with this) wasn't an epiphany, it has been gradual, subtle experience...a
gradual realisation I guess
I no longer pay much attention to 9/11 as I have made my opinion on that and see it as a catalyst...the thing that allowed me to begin to think about
the world in a more open minded way...It's funny, I realised I was actually much more open minded when I was younger, I just didn't realise it at
the time, and with life I kind of forgot...then recently i opened up and now have a completely different perspective on the world, on us, on we...Im
not sure if I have woken up or am waking up, I hope so but don't really know...I know I have a long way to go but I meditate, (have awakened my
kundalini)I dont seem to worry any more, am more compassionate and loving, caring (most of the time:lol and am at peace, I am excited by this amazing
world, it really feels like a fantastic time to be alive!
does this mean im waking up, am awake or am just more aware of what is actually happening around me?